Is this the real life?

Is this just fantasy?

Caught in a landslide

No escape from reality...

Open your eyes

Look up to the skies and see...

I'm just a poor boy, I need no sympathy

Because I'm easy come, easy go

A little high, little low

Anyway, the wind blows, doesn't really matter to me...

To me...

-Queen, 'Bohemian Rhapsody'.

I opened my closed eyes, noticing that I was tied down to an unfamiliar bed in an unfamiliar room. Breathe, what can you remember? I remember that I raced to the house after the breakup, Ochobot calling out after me but I didn't respond. I know someone broke into the house and that person hits the back of my head super hard that I fall unconscious.

I tried imagining myself to Thunderstorm, but I didn't change. I didn't change. Panic arose in me but I forced myself to calm down, why? Why can't I be my alter ego, it had worked so perfectly before? In my confusion, I forced my head to face upwards and I see the silhouette of a square thing with an antenna. I instantly knew who it was. No. No!

"Speak," Adudu commanded me after slapping my face hard. "You're not really mute. You're selectively mute and I force you to speak."

How did he know? Tok Aba didn't. Ochobot didn't. Fang didn't. Oh, Fang...

"W-what you're d-doing to m-e?" I stuttered. it's been long since I talked.

"I want to know why you lied," He whispered. "Lied about your muteness. Your mental illnesses aren't fake, I see the prescription. But your muteness isn't, so spill. Why'd you lie?"

"Wh-what do you n-need to kn-know?" I asked.

"Let's go down to your IQ levels, idiotic freak. Who's your family?"

"M-Mother, F-Father, Grand-Granddad," I told him.

"Has either of them hurt you in any way?" Adudu interrogated. I nod my head. "In what way?" He asked again. I pressed my lips to a thin line, trying not to cry.

"Idiot, you think tears will make me feel sorry for you?" Adudu sneered. 

"F-Father's dead." I cried. "Mother h-hurts m-me."

"In what way? Are you becoming deaf?!" I cried more.

"S-sex-sexually. Men-mentally." 

"Lovers?" He asked.

"W-Was."

"Who?"

"F-fang." Adu Du nodded. "Why?"

"D-Dism-m-missed ab-abuse." 

"Your illnesses?" I dropped another tear.

"Bi, bipolar," I answered.

"With all these misfortunes, you still want to play the hero?" He asked. "Hand over the watch, or I can publicly announce what you spilt today." 

No. He's gonna spill. No. No! Unless I give him my power watch, he'll fucking spill! No. Damn. Secret or powers? I begrudgingly gave him the power watch.

"Very nice." Adudu grinned. "Computer! Drop BoBoiBoy at the doorstep of Abbas's house!" 

The spaceship suddenly moved very fast and I can see the latch opening up for me, Adudu pushing me to the opening. I can feel myself dropping away freely with weird gravity on the house before the spaceship leaves. I rubbed my eyes before running into my room, not bothering to lock the door as I entangle myself to the sheets, crying freely.

"BoBoiBoy?" I can hear Ochobot closing the door behind it softly. "What happened?"

"Wh-where's Atok?" I asked.

"Away for cocoa. Wait a minute, you're not mute..." Ochobot seemed shocked.

No.

"L-Leave." Ochobot seemed shocked at my request. "Go!"

Ochobot scurried away, closing the door behind it.

I was alone. I check down my arms to see them bare besides a few lines that are my scars. Bare, no Power Watch. That means eternal goodbye to my friends who I thought will never leave me. My alter egos. This is it. My friends hate me, my boyfriend- my ex-boyfriend hates me, my mother hates me, everyone hates me. Why should I live? Why should I live, alone and unloved? Why don't I die? What's going to stop me?

I grabbed my blade I've been using lately, noticing that I haven't cut since I arrived. I should've known there's a price I'll be forced to pay. I should've known that I'll make up for the lost time, and that is now. I ran the blade across my skin, the familiar sting on my arms fill me. I cut myself again and again and again and again. I didn't care how much, I didn't care how deep.

What is wrong with me? Why do I bleed so much? Why do I keep crying? Why won't my eyes stop watering? Why won't my body stop creating ruby liquid? Why is the liquid warm? Why am I dizzy? Why do I want to sleep? I want to sleep. I'm so tired. Don't wake me up. Let me.