(LOL IF YOU READ THIS THE FIRST TIME MAJOR CHANGES HAVE BEEN MADE AND I THINK YOU ALL SHOULD REREAD THIS)

Hi....it's me so someone gave the perfect idea instead unpublishing this story like a dumbass...I will be temporarily discontinuing this story and then come back and write when my next book is done.

Speaking of that book, it will be published next Wednesday around the same time I always publish my things. Now I don't really like showing my covers, descriptions or "pre-views", before I post a story, because I hate when people try and steal my ideas and work...but since I'm like not giving you a real chapter...I thought I would maybe show you what I've been working on with the cover so far (it's not done) and a very short part of the story.

So....here we go. Just know parts maybe taken out/or changed when the official book comes.
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Monday, September 5th

Gwen's POV
I standing outside Duncan's house, staring up at his room door. He was punching a punching bag, I looked around terrified, I can't believe I was actually about to do this. Since high school started tomorrow I wanted to be together, like actually together. I've liked Duncan since like...pre-k. My older brothers always tease me about it, so I decided to tell him...which is what I'm trying to do now. My heart was pounding, I was so scared, but everyone...even Duncan's own relatives have told me that Duncan feels the same way and to go for it

       I walked up the door, after texting Duncan that I need to tell him something. Seconds later the door opened and Duncan was standing there and he smiled at me. I smiled back and he closed the door and I looked at him as he sat down on the edge of the railing.

"Is everything okay?" He asked and I looked around.

"Yeah...I just, well....had something I really wanted to tell you." I said and he rose his eyebrow.

"You can tell me anything." He said and I looked away.

I rubbed my elbow nervously and he grabbed my hands and looked at me. He tilted his head and I looked out at Tristen, Danny, and Mason that were watching from the car. I looked around Duncan's house and saw his older siblings, Dominic, the twins Randy and Robbie, and then Ashley. I had no idea what to say.

"Duncan...I uh...I don't know how to say this, but well I kinda...not kinda I do...I really do...." I trailed off, and glanced back at Duncan who was smiling at me.

  "Spit it out." He said squeezing my hands, and I laughed awkwardly.

  "I like you Duncan, a lot....and I just, I don't know if you feel the same way." I said and there was silence.

      Duncan's smile slowly dropped and he looked around. He looked back at me and sighed. I watched him drop my hands and then run his hand through his jet black hair.

  "Gwen...shit...I don't know how to say this, but...I've always only liked you as a friend...a best friend, but just as that." He said and my heart broke.

       I looked at him and tried to say something, but I couldn't. He tried to grab my hand I ripped it away from him. He sighed and I started walking backwards. Not only did he deny feeling the same, he had to reassure himself, about calling me his best friend...and I couldn't stay. I had to leave.

  "I uh...have to go." I said.

  "Gwen come on, wait let's talk about this." Duncan said and I looked around.

  "I'll...see you tomorrow." I said.

  "Gwen! Please wait." He said and I shook my head.

       I ran to Tristen's car and got in. I hugged Mason as I got in and he looked at me.

  "Please, drive" I said into Mason.

       Tristen started the car and drove off. My phone started vibrating and I threw it on the ground and squeezed Mason.

Duncan's POV
        I was standing in the middle of my yard watching Tristen drive off. I shook my head and then started flooding with Gwen text messages. I knew she wasn't going to answer, but I had to go at least try. The door opened and I looked at my older siblings and just pushed past all of them ran up to my room. I slammed the door, grabbed a something, and threw it against the wall and it shattered.

  "Fuck!" I yelled and then hit my punching bag.

        I then slide down the wall put my head on my knees. I just ruined of the only good things in my life.

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AGAIN.....you didn't get the full story, I left some parts out.

Mhm...dramatic I know. I just want you all to know that all of this may change, because as you know I can't keep my mind straight on path. Anyways here's the cover....the title is still to be determined, but as of right it's Lose You to Love Me.

Aren't they just the cutest...lol okay, anyways...this story will be published next Wednesday, I hope to see you all there.

HAHA...hi my indecisive ass wants you guys to pick this next story. I'm gonna out another pre-view of a book below, and can you please pick which one sounds like a better idea.

Saturday, June 3rd
7:24 P.M. Ottawa, Canada

Gwen's POV
         I kicked my high heels off as I had just graduated high school and I was finally able to leave this hellhole and go out and start my dream career of becoming a well known artist, photographer and writer. I was actually starting college early in California, next Tuesday. As I ran out to my family and saw them, along side the Nelson's, family friends. My best friend, Duncan Nelson, was apart of that family, not to mention his mother, Teresa Nelson, took over being being my mom after my mother died of breast cancer when I was eleven.

    "Oh Gwen...we're all so proud you." Teresa said and I nodded her.

    "Oh thank you, I couldn't have done it without you." I said and she squeezed me.

       She soon let go and I hugged my father. He hugged me back as my brothers were just stared watching. I have three older brothers and one younger, not counting Teresa's kids of course. My oldest brother, Trent was about 27 now, then Daniel or Danny who's 21, Mason who's 20, and then James/Jimmy who's 8. Teresa's kids were the twins Robert/Robbie and Randy both 21, Ashley who's 20, Duncan who's 18 like me, and Ronald or Ronnie who's 8. Of all them, Duncan is who I hold dearest to my heart. We've been through thick and thin with each other. I love him with my whole heart. I'm really going to miss him when I move to California.

   "Gwen have you seen Duncan?" Teresa asked and I shook my head.

   "I saw him take off after he got his diploma, but I thought he was coming here." I said and she sighed.

   "That boy is going to get in so much trouble when you leave Gwen, are you sure you have to leave tomorrow?" Elliot, Duncan's father asked.

      I gave him a look and he laughed.

   "Hey, it was worth a shot." He said and I sighed.

   "I'm only going there for two years." I said and everyone looked at me. "I'll go get Duncan, I think I know where he is." I added.

I walked over over to our old spot. It was our school's founder's memorial, it had cherry blossom trees along with benches and whatever. I saw Duncan sitting there with his pocketknife craving his name at the bottom of the memorial.

"That's vandalism, you can go to jail for that." I said and he looked over at me, rolled his eyes and continued to crave into the memorial.

I knew he was upset that I was leaving for California tomorrow, instead of spending the summer with him. I sighed and walked over to him and sat down next to him.

"It's two and a half years Duncan." I said and he just kept craving.

"Two and half years too fucking long." He said and I put my head on his shoulder.

"Duncan, we've been over this...this is my dream! Don't you want me to be happy?" I asked and Duncan continuing to crave the memorial.

"No, I just don't want my best friend to move to California and fucking forget about me." He said and I hit him.

"I'm not going to forget you, you idiot." I said and he looked at me.

"Gwen, the second you get California you're going to become famous and I'll just be the nobody you knew while you grew up. As I will be the one stuck, living in my mother's house watching you on the tv." Duncan said and I punched him.

"Well you're my nobody." I said and he gave me a look.

I smiled at bit and he rolled his eyes and I sighed. He then got up, and pulled me up with him.

"You know, I probably should have said this earlier, but I've been in love with you my whole life Gwen. Heather, Bridgette, Zoey, Amy, any other girl I flirted with or dated was just to get your attention. I was and STILL am in love with you Gwendolyn Rousseau, and if I had a ring I would get down on one knee right fucking now and propose to you...just please stay with me." Duncan said and I stared at him.

I smiled and then put my hand on his cheek and he grabbed my hands and looked at me.

"I've always felt the same way about you Duncan, probably even more. You helped me through high school, my mother's death, my depression...everything. I'm pretty sure I'm in love with you, but this is my dream...and you know that. I would never forget or forgive you if you don't let me do this. Duncan you are the love of my life and I wish I could stay with you. Just let me spend these two and a half years in California, and then when I come back we can get married and have a bunch of little kids and live together forever...I promise you." I said and he hugged me.

I squeezed him back. I ran my hand threw his flopping lime green, hair and he let go and then grabbed his pocketknife. He then pointed to what he was craving and it was his initials. I smiled and then started carving GMR. Once I was done he put an x between the two pairs of initials and I smiled.

   "Come on, before someone busts us." I said grabbing his hand he pulling him away from the memorial.

      I brought Duncan to our two families and I smiled, watching everyone interact. I said goodbye to my best girl friend Bridgette Summers, ams then flipped of the biggest bitch in town, Heather North. After that we all drove to my house and had our little going away party for me.

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NOW PLEASE REPLY HERE....

Lose You to Love Me or Love Lies

(Love Lies is a better story and the book I wanna write, but please I wanna know which one sounds better)

Also, I wanna apologize for everyone who might be confused, as I'm confused my myself. Here's what going on....I'm asking you pick one of two drafts of the story above, and that will be the story...okay...okay. Now let me stop reposting chapters, start writing.