Taehee's pov

"I still can't believe this. When you said you were dating a guy name Jungkook, I never thought him to be my favourite cousin."

Currently, I, Jungkook, Somi, Bomi, Jimin and Wonwoo all gathered in the 'Honeybee club'. We are in a VIP room just to have some privacy. Still, we can hear the faint music from here. That's the original spot where they were meant to meet today. I just clash on their usual gathering. I'm glad to see that my two best friends Bomi and Jimin are still together. Jungkook is still the same playful guy but there are some changes in his behaviour that I noticed.

"Hey! I thought I was your favourite." Wonwoo pout making us all laugh.

Well, it's reasonable for him to think like that. I no longer have any interest in him but anyone would be a fool if they didn't fell for this guy. His charm will ruin you when you least expect it. But that doesn't mean my man isn't charming. He has his own flows. That killer smirk. The playful attitude. Angelic voice. Those handsome features of his body will surely ruin you unless you turn a blind eye to it.

"So when did you guys going out? How did he ask you out? Where's your first date?" Somi asked excitedly.

But it makes my smile drops. The truth hurts. I have seen couples doing those things. We girls like it when boys make time for dates. Plans with special outings. Knowing the amount of time they reserve just to prepare something for girls. Those little things are valuable to girls. Most guys don't understand how much they mean to girls.  I have never been in a relationship before so I don't have any experience. Yet, I always thought my guy will do this and that. I'm a fool to expect those things. But can you blame me? I'm a girl who doesn't remember her biological parents. I don't even know if I have any siblings. Whether they alive or not. I want to feel love like everyone else. Not that my current parents are bad. I just want every part of my life to be special. I have seen some friends who started smiling more once they started dating. I have seen how much they cherish every moment they spent together. As for me and Jungkook, it was completely different. He never asked out from me. His kiss was the sign he wants to be mine. The promise to come back is living proof. There's no words or places to memorised our relationship. So how am I going to answer this?

"Actually, I can't answer to those," I answered looking down at my hands. Suddenly, they look more fascinating than anything else at the moment. I can feel him staring at me. I heard someone cursed under their breath knowing Bomi, it must be her. She and Somi will be great friends since they both have easy-going personalities.

"What do you mean you can't? Girl, those are very important for a relationship. You -" Suddenly she stopped talking making me look up at her. Her mouth hung open when the realization hit her she clumps her mouth with her hand turning to Jungkook.

"Oh my fucking god! You did not. Please tell me what I think isn't actually what happened." She begs from her eyes at Jungkook who look at her in confusion. He clearly had no idea how girls like that little stuff. I never mentioned it to him thinking it'll make him sad.

"What? What are you thinking now?"

"You fucking idiot. You didn't actually do that to my best friend. Did you?" Somi hit Jungkook hard on his arm glaring at him.

He still seems confused about what's happening. It's understandable since that guy never dated anyone before. I don't blame him for this.

"Don't you dare look at me like that, you piece of shit? How could you." Somi started hitting him repeatedly making Jungkook groaned in pain.

I couldn't watch it any longer. He's so clueless about what's happening. Somi won't stop until she gets what she wants. Even though I would like all those things to happen I don't want him to do them because someone said so. I want him to do it for us. If he truly thinks that I should be treated that way.

"Excuse me. I'm going to the washroom."

I don't want Jungkook to feel bad because I'm feeling this way. He hasn't done anything wrong. It's all me and my stupid imagination. Why did I have to watch romantic dramas all these times? Why did I read those romance novels? Why did I imagine myself with my loved one whenever I see a happy couple? I'm such an idiot. I know Jungkook love me. He has changed so much. Wonwoo, Jimin and Taehyung told me he always talks about me. But why am I feeling sad all of a sudden?

I quickly dash into the ladies washroom going to one of the cubicles. Tears escape from my eyes wetting my whole face. I couldn't stop myself from sobbing it hurts. I hate myself for feeling like this. Jungkook deserves so much better than someone weak like me. I'm emotionally a wreck. Who would think I own a company? I have hidden all the hardship through all these years just thinking about Jungkook. He always calms me down. Yet, I'm going to be the pain of him. I don't want him to think I don't love him.

"Taehee.."

"Please come out dear. Jungkook is going crazy. If you don't come out he'll break down this bathroom door." Bomi talks in a hushed tone in a rush. I can imagine her panicking over. "Taehee, please. You and I both know what he's capable of. We don't want more trouble."

I knew she was right but I don't know why is Jungkook behaving that way. What he is mad at me? What if he wants to break up with me suddenly? I don't want to go through a breakup we haven't even got to celebrate our relationship yet.

"Taehee! Honey, I love you but if you don't come out I'm going to break down this door before Jungkook."

Bomi doesn't usually joke about something like that. That girl can be bat shit crazy sometimes. But she's my wall. She's so strong. She has stayed by my side ever since we meet in the classroom as classmates. I love her for that.
So without causing trouble for the club I exist from the cubicle.

Before she talked I splash water into my face. I don't wear makeup just waterproof eyeliner and some lipstick. So when I dry my face I reapplied lipstick adjusting my hair. My eyes look red but I still look good. Bomi tried to talk to me but I completely ignore her. If I talk I'll break down again which isn't what I want right now.

"I need a drink. You coming?" I walked past Bomi who look at me with wide eyes. She open and close her mouth blinking her eyes rapidly not knowing what to say.

"I'll be on the dance floor if you need me." I walked away from the bathroom just to bump into Jungkook. He looks surprised it was me who exists in the bathroom. From the look of his face, he has so much to talk about I'm not in a mood for that. I drag him with me to the bar.

"Wait. Taehee, we need to talk. Look, I'm -" I put my forefinger in his mouth stopping him from talking. I don't want him to apologise.

"Four shots of devil springs vodka." bartender gave me a nod when Jungkook try to protest. I gave him a look to stay quiet. He understands that I don't want to talk about it. When he entwined our hands I suddenly feel relaxed. I lean my head on his shoulder.

It's so loud in here than I imagined. You can barely hear what other people are saying. Music is too loud the floor is vibrating. There's smoke covering the entire floor it makes it hard to see clearly. I hope it stopped soon cause I wanna dance.

"Here, your four shots of vodka." I gulped down three of them in a mere second. I was reaching for the fourth when Jungkook chugged it down quickly.

"Hey! That's min-" I didn't get to finish it when his lips crashed on mine shutting my mouth. I wrapped my hands over his neck when he tightens his grip over me. Just like that, I forgot where we were. It was just the two of us. I felt fireworks going off. I felt a shiver go through my whole body. Our tongues dance for a while in a rush. He didn't want to let go of me heck neither did I. I cling to him like a chimpanzee. This kiss felt different from the one we had before. My eyes fluttered open examing his angelic features. His eyes are closed. I couldn't stop looking at his beautiful eyelashes before closing my eyes again. It was then when he bit off my lower lip I groaned realizing where we were. I try to pull away but Jungkook kept kissing me like he can't get enough of me. It isn't for the oxygen we need to survive I bet he would let go of me. But he never completely let go of me. He was panting like me. Our eyes meet when we both gave smiles to each other.
HR caressed my cheek looking at me lovingly.

"I love you." my breath hitch hearing them. Not because I didn't expect it, I did but hearing it for the first time is different. I felt my eyes getting water.

"I love you."

I smile dragging him to the dance floor. We dance to the rhythm for a while before I rest my head on his chest swaying to the music. I can hear the sound of his heartbeat. It's so calming. I love smelling his muscular scent. It's so attractive. I know whatever comes on our way we will be together. I can sense that we are destined to be together. He's my other half. My soul mate. The love of my life.

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