"You will meet your soul mate soon" Monami read

Do you even believe in these???monami asked and crushed the paper and threw it on the floor....

Karan let out a small smile and picked up the crumbled paper....and opened and folded it and tucked it in his shirt front pocket....

Why , you don't???? Karan asked meekly...

Small kids believe in these bakwas, hum toh adults hai na....monami retorted sipping her tea....

Karan gave a weak smile....isme adults kids wali baath kaha se agayi...ye toh.... apki soch ki baat hai na..Its a matter of whether you believe it or not....

 Monami smiled and rubbed her lips with her tongue as if slightly mocking him...

Its just a fortune cookie Karan....Aisa cookie iss cafe main sab ko milta hai...to kya sab apne soulmates se milne wale hai kya?? Monami asked sarcastically.

Karan gave a small smile , knowing he cannot make her believe in love .

Monami from the start was a self made woman..a confident and independent girl and a girl who hated to love a girl who despised attention...a perfect modern woman yet with a huge devoid in her heart.

It was like she had no heart and she would not feel anything for anyone. A heart that beats for the sake of beating without emotions and attachment to any other.

They both got up and left the cafe.

Karan took the wheels and monami sat beside him in the car and they drove the way to office .

Karan and monami knew each other from college and had joined the same office.

Monami had a good friend in Karan, while Karan had fallen in love with her at first glance, and have silently loved her ever since knowing well how much she hates to love....

They were driving .....

Karan: Why do you hate so much to love??or to be loved???

 Monami still now who was glued to her phone glared at karan...

Karan saw her eyes and focused on the road, he knew he had pulled a wrong string, but someday this talk had to be done with her.

Karan adjusted her voice and continued not meeting her eyes ... You know all men are not same right??? he asked slowly and hesitantly...

Monami gave a small meek smile... I know Karan.... she said softly...

Karan stopped the car on the sideways and switched on the parking lights... Toh fir??? THen why can't you love people and let people love you?? he asked keeping his palm on her lap gently with all the care in his eyes...

Monami choked seeing his eyes...her eyes welled up waiting to tear up any moment...and her lips shook for she too knew this was coming up..She too knew Karan loved her and somewhere, sometime this situation would arise and she would lose her bestfriend...

Monami did fear that karan would propose her someday and she would have to say no and hurt him. Its not that she did not like Karan it was more of her in the doubt and dilemma about her life and things that had happened to her in her past.

Monami quickly threw his palm out of her lap and got out of her car and slammed the door...

Karan too got out hastily and walked to the other sidde of the car...Monami quickly  moved not wanting  to face karan, but karan held her arms and gently pushed her to the car...

 You are sacred to love, aren't you??karan asked monami...

Monami could not face Karan, she held her head low, and a lone tear escaped her eye....

Karan slowly lifted her face so he could see her eyes and the truth and pain that holds it...

Damn, those fiery eyes, eyes which were always confident, was filling up, wanting to break lose , and breakout with all the emotions ....

The girl who lived all her life slaying in confidence was standing there all shook up...trying her best to swallow in her tears...

Karan saw her moist eyes and his eyes teared up...

He slowly cupped her face... I am not like your father, I wont leave you...He whispered...

Monami immediately removed his hands from her cheeks...vigorously ....

 No Karan stop, Dont complete it.....I know what you have been trying to tell...Isse se pehle tu bataye I want to tell ki....

Galti tumhari nahi hai...Its Me...I am the problem...Karan moved near her and tried to hold her ..but monami shooed his hands away not wanting to be held....and continued...

 I don't believe in love Karan , Its me...You are a nice guy and I know whoever  you love will be the luckiest, but its just not me...

 Karan's heart silently broke  Kyu?? Nahi?? he asked as his voice broke...

Because...becasues...I dont want to hurt you.... Monami replied angrily....

 Tum mujhe hurt Kaise??? Karan asked staring back at her dark soul...

Nahi karan...it won't work out between us..Agar pyaar karti bhi hun..meri kismat itni achi nahi hai ki sab teek hi hoga....

I know you have gone through a lot par iska matlab todi na tum jeena hi chod degi..pyaar karne ka haq sabko hai..infact everyone should fall in love itss a beautiful thing...You are afraid na That I will also hurt and leave you...like...Karan was about to give her some solace...

But monami interrupted him...Karan please I don't want to love, Why love?? Why let a person so much into your life so much that your own life seems meaningless without them?? Do you think its all worth??   

Karan was astonished at how dark her soul was ... Tumhari dil na patar ke hogaye hai monami!!! He yelled... Ek baar try toh karo vishwas toh karke dekho mujpe...

Arre..nahi karne yaar mujhe kisi se pyaar na main kisi se expect karti hun ki wo mujse pyaar kare ...

Toh sach sach bol na tu pyaar se darti hai Karan asked her at her face in a love voice holding her arms tightly making her face him in all his angst...

Monami shrugged off his hands forcefully....in the loudest voice possible... Haa.... darti hun......ki main kise se vapas itna pyaar karungi ...aur... her eyes finally shed those tears..aur vo mera MMS bana dega...darti hun ki agar kisi se pyaar ho bhi gaya toh vo meri papa ki tarah cheat kar dega mereko...haa..darti hun ki agar ek aur baar mera dil tuta na ...mein kabhi kade hi nahi ho paungi....Haa....Darti hoon main.... she yelled at his face....in the middle of the road...

A silence accompanied them...before karan could say a thing monami saw an auto approaching she asked the lift, the auto stopped...and she got it in and left....

Karan saw her vanish as her stood their hurt and perplexed. He slid his hands in his pocket with his head facing his feet so that no one in the road would that he is crying...

He felt a paper in his pocket, He took it out and his tears rolled down with even more pace as he saw it...

It was Karan's fortune cookie...

"You will meet your soul mate soon"

It read....He and monami had the same thing on the cookie coincidentally...

It was made him to think he should tell her about how he feels...

He thought the universe was with him in this..but little did he know His love herself was not with him , nor peace with herself ....

I don't believe these...He crumble the papers and threw it on the ground....

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Some scars are hard to heal ; Some love stories are never meant to be...

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