So, as I told you, I am writing this right after publishing the previous part. The warnings for this chapter are the same as the previous one. I hope you don't regret reading this and knowing about my past life.

After the events of that night, I was very depressed. I couldn't take it anymore and tried to commit suicide. I took a blade in my hand and brought it near my wrist, wishing to end my miserable life and get this world rid of a waste like me, but I wasn't able to kill myself. I was too afraid.

After failing at killing myself I changed. I thought I could control myself from from using swear words until the age of 18, but I failed. 

I started using words like f**k, sh*t, ***hole, son of a..., etc. It became an everyday thing for me.

It didn't took long for me to start getting into fights. I already had a friend (not the one from before) who had became a part of a gang. I went ahead and joined him. I fought some or the other person, mostly a part of a gang, on a regular basis. 

My friend and other members of the gang were players, they used to change their girlfriends from time to time. Everyone told me to try it, said that it would be fun. But, I just couldn't take girls as a thing, they are human beings. I had saved myself for someone special, hoping that someday I would get to know that someone.

I was the only person in the gang who understood the value of love and what it meant. That was what made me realize that I needed to change. I left that gang and friend behind and moved on to a better life.

I didn't knew that I would lose so many school friends because of the temporary change I had in me. No one used to talk to me thinking that they would get in trouble if they do. I felt left out.

Soon, I became an introvert who would pass most of his time alone, reading the few novels I had and listening to music.

Then, around 5 months ago, I was introduced to Anime by one of my brother's friend. I used to watch Dragon Ball Super before that but when I got a few Anime series, I binged that at the rate on one season per day.

The first Anime series I watched were Erased, Attack on Titan, My Hero Academia, Elfen Lied, Your Lie In April, Code Geass, Death Note, etc. I don't really remember but I think Death Note was my first Anime. Till date, I have completed around 50+ Anime series and still counting.

I even found true love which I dreamt about but never thought it was possible for me.

So, life can change, never give up.

I hope You don't have to live a life like me, guys. Stay strong and live on, Suicide is not an option.

And this is specifically for you Emily : I just wanted you to know my past before we move forward. I have prepared myself for the worst, i.e. you breaking up with me if you hate me after this.