dad: y/n take him to your room and you suga I still didn't accept you as my daughter's boyfriend so my eyes are on!

tskk!! why dad scaring him when he already accepts him! I can tell dad likes him but still acting this thought.

I grip suga sleeves and take him to my room. closing the door from inside I drag him to the bed... he sits and pull my waist and made me sit on his lap
I wanted to hit him but instead?? I kiss him.

I missed these lips so much! he grip my waist and deepen the kiss while his tears still filled in eyes. his touch is the only thing that makes me forget the world.

as soon he lay his back on the bed having me on top of him... the door knocks!! suga throw me side before anyone enter and sit like a good boy.

I grin at him and went to open the door. mom came in with some snacks for suga.

"you came a long way to eat something and don't worry about her dad. y/n can we talk?"

mom asked signaling out. I tell suga to eat I'll be back in a moment. he nods and picks a biscuit while wiping his face from his sleeves.

I and mom went to the kitchen.

mom: did something happen between you two? why he was crying.

"it's been a long time he saw me... that's why he's crying probably."

mom: why you didn't tell me earlier about him, I would talk to your father.

"you think I knew he's coming? I'm surprised too."

mom: fine ask him then... and tell him to join us in dinner.

"ohh so that's why I love you so much?"

I said pinching her cheeks and ran out before she hit me. baby got a lot to explain! I enter the room and close from inside. mom will call anytime for dinner and I know father won't let me see him after that.

"you really run away?"

I asked sitting across him. he look so terrified I never saw this phase of him. taking his hand over mine I hold it tight but he still looks down avoiding eye contact.

"why you so quiet? tell me what happened."

I keep convincing him to talk but he won't move his lips to speak. he's still not ready to talk...

"we'll talk tomorrow. not let's forget all of that hmm?"

he owes me an explanation but seeing him this scared I don't want any. he had his reason but Atlas finds his way back to me so I should let all pass.

suga: it's all your fault.

he said leaving me dumbfounded.

"my what??"

finally, he face me with zero expression and said.

"it's all because of you y/n. I was losing my mind because of you!"

is the serious?? am I the one at fault after getting blocked and hearing no word from him for fucking 9 months??

"say that again and I'll ki--

"THE DINNER IS READY"

My sister's voice interrupts my streak. I inhale sharply to calm myself down, let's understand here too y/n.

"let's get you fresh and have dinner okay? we'll talk tomorrow."

I said and hold his hand again to show him the washroom. I gave him my losse hoodie and a track pant from demo works... which I also show in my interview as a designer.

I went out to help mom to set table while others are joining. what happened in these 9 months he changed so much?

all attention goes to suga when he came out in a pink hoodie and black pants. I'm so not in a mood to eat... he sits beside me and looks at me in guilt.

"here! eat this."

Emma said and service him food but he pass that on to mine. then Emma again serves and warns him to eat. knowing father watching all this he politely eats quietly.

we don't talk while eating... dad says it's bad so everything stays pretty quiet while the dinner goes... usually Emma talks about her college stuff but reading the atmosphere she's silent too.

dad: y/n give him your room and you sleep with Emma.

I saw that coming earlier so I nod them Emma and suga both look at me. one has a sad and the other had annoyed expression.

Emma: tell her to sleep in the hall... I like my personal space.

"fine, I'll sleep in the hall."

I have no mood to argue either and I know she will let me sleep at the end so why suffer my mouth?

suga: No, I'm going to find a hotel you should sleep in your room y/n.

all look at suga but I didn't. my eyes are still on my barely touched plate I'm hurt by his words but I won't let him so out for sake of his image which is now becoming global.

"yoongi! whatever dad says... we do!!"

I captured with my side vision he's gulping and rubbing his left sweaty hand on his thighs.... Very nervous.

my tone is harsh enough to let everyone notice I'm angry. I shouldn't behave like this dad will think it's because of suga maybe he said or did something but that's true... still I don't want him to think that.

after dinner I went to fix the bedsheet for him... he's standing in a corner trying to make move but still scared.

"you should sleep now."

I said stepping out but he grab my wrist and pulled me in closing the door. before he says something I cut him off with my words.

"why is it my fault?? you blocked me because I did something wrong? you didn't try to share the reason for cutting our contacts. I came back home and open my phone to tell you I reach home safely.... but what did I see?? I'm blocked from you."

tears tossed on my cheeks speaking and he still didn't utter a single word just trying to get a hold of my hand which I'm taking back from him every time.

"you don't know how I been through in all this time. after seeing you I thought it's done now because you back... but what I heard from you?? 'its all my fault!' then you shouldn't have come here I was already blocked... go get your success and forg--

suga: shut up y/n!!

finally, he said something with his old scary stares.

"No I won't because I'm fucking mad at you, you always saw my sweet version now handle this too!"

suga: I will carry your anger too just don't say I shouldn't have come!

"why? does that make you angry? I don't think so."

my tears went away and our argument starts properly... he seems angry just like me. I should continue this fight so I can sleep properly.

suga: Just because I'm silent doesn't mean I'm in guilt what I did was a compulsion.

"just say directly I was not that important... maybe I was a fling."

suga: don't say stuff like this y/n you are not a fling to me.

he replied controlling his unwelcome tears.

"okayy fine!! now stop crying!"

I can't fight if he's gonna cry like this! I jerk his hoodie and hug him tight. he hides his face on my shoulder wrapping his hand around my waist tightly.

"so you really run away? why?"

I asked still hugging him. he hummed leaving a vibration on my neck.

"why you did that? you could have just messaged me."

he slowly rest his chin on my shoulder and speaks... the damm vibration.

suga: I don't want to apologize in massage and I was losing my mind day by day.

"so now you ready to tell me what happens in all this time?"

suga: I'm not ready.

I broke the hug and cupped his cheeks softly.

"I understand... we'll talk later about that you should rest now."

I said and peck his lips. he wipes his moist cheeks from his hoodie sleeve and nods. I open the door to go after covering him in a blanket like a baby.

suga: y/n!

"hmm?"

suga: I love this hoodie thankyou and goodnight.

I smile and reply.

"it's one of the gifts you gave me last time, now goodnight."

I said and went out letting him sleep. I wonder which member helped him to come here...

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next morning.

suga pov:

I'm standing on a white floor but everything is dark except me the focus light is on me... what is this place.

suddenly a light came revealing...

Jin: So in the end, you left us for a mere girl.

I try to reach my hand towards him but suddenly the light went out and came to another place revealing...

hoseok: I still can't believe yoongi left us!

"I didn't hose--

a voice from my back revealing...

taehyung: so finally suga hyung abandoned us!

"No tae--

another voice from the left...

Jungkook: are we nothing to you hyung?

"Jungkook it's no--

another voice from the right joining Jungkook...

Jimin: is that even a question jungkook? it's so obvious we are no one to him.

"why you all sayi--

namjoon: you will be the reason for our group disband.

suddenly all appear together leaving me in the center making a circle. I didn't leave themm!! why are they saying this??

all: why did you do this?? why left us for her?

I couldn't bear anymore the wrong allegation on me from my brothers covering my ears I yell to quiet them.

"STOP!! I DIDN'T LEAVE ANYONE!!"

when I open my eyes the scenario changed and I get up discovering y/n looking at me with concern and a shocked face.

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(A/n: not me writing kdrama😭 next chapter will tell suga flashback!

Thanks for reading love you all 😚💜)