*Double update since I don't know when will I get the time again. So enjoy!*

[Also, Mature Content Ahead! Read at your own risk!] 👀👀👀

All day I felt restless and as I entered my room, I flopped on the bed. There were still lingering thoughts in my mind. I trusted Arashi but I was still baffled about his grandparents. 

No matter how hard I tried, the empress wasn't impressed. Arashi was teaching me everything yet it wasn't enough and I felt tired. My whole body was exhausted but my mind still replayed the name Akio said. 

Yukina...

Arashi had never told me about her. Did he use to love her...? 

My heart clenched as I buried my face. It hurt even when I knew it was childish. She wasn't here or I had never seen her. I had never heard her name from anyone. I knew whoever she was, she wasn't around here but there was still a lingering feeling in me which wouldn't let me rest. 

My belly tied into a knot and the intense feeling I had been feeling grew more. Was she beautiful? She was a princess after all...

She must be very worthy compared to me. And at that thought tears rumbled around the corners of my eyes and my heart beat increased. 

I didn't know what I was feeling at that moment. 

Was it jealousy? Was it my low confidence? I couldn't decipher. 

I gasped at my own question. 

Now that I think about it, I felt jealous when I heard he loved someone. My eyes got moistened and I buried my face again in shame. 

Arashi had treated me well and he made me feel good about myself... Because of him I got my self esteem but I also got greedy. 

I was so greedy that I confidently said to Akio that Arashi was mine. But what if he had to marry Akio or some other princess because of the status? 

My lips quivered and a snuffle left from my lips. 

"What happened?" I heard Arashi's voice, "Are you crying?" 

I was startled and I had forgotten that he was about to come. 

He sat on the bed and his hands fell on me as I tried to wipe away my tears. He immediately turned me around and yanked me toward him. I didn't want him to see me like this, in my pathetic state. 

I looked down, avoiding his eyes as he placed a finger under my chin and tilted my head up. "What is it?"

"It is nothing..." 

"Bianka, don't lie. I know something has happened..." He said, his voice getting cold. "Tell me if anyone said something to you or treated you poorly..."

He stopped for a moment and said, "Did uncle Shiroichi say something to you?"

"No..." I mumbled. 

"Then grandmother?"

"She always says everything..." I said and added, "It is nothing."

"Rei would not say anything to you... Then whom did you meet today?" He muttered to himself as I eyed him and tried to give him a smile but I failed miserably.

"Arashi... It is nothing..." My voice was weak.

"Then why were you crying?" 

"I wasn't crying because someone said something to me... I was just..." I looked away, "I am just ashamed of myself." 

He looked at me for a moment. "What?"

"I don't know what other words I would use to decipher this. The most preferable word is Jealousy...I guess?" 

I wasn't looking at him but I felt his closeness as his breaths fell on my neck and unknowingly I leaned toward him.

"Why are you jealous?" His husky voice bloomed around my neck and his lips touched the sensitive spot behind my ear. My whole body shivered at his touch but I wasn't flustered. 

I felt this unusual want of having him. I felt greedy. The moment Akio said he would have to marry someone else, I felt angry and greedy. I was so jealous that I felt he was only mine and no one could have him. And I was scared at that thought. 

I looked into his eyes as his eyes were burning in the darkness and I said, "I don't know what is happening to me anymore."

Both of our breaths were in a battle as our faces were close and we weren't blinking. I was losing myself and I was scared yet it felt so right.

My voice shook as I confessed to him. "I am ashamed that I feel jealous over you and I am biased at my own feelings that I feel greedy over you." I added as my tears started to run. "I didn't know I had those feelings inside of me. I had never experienced those things before and now I am feeling everything all together and I am scared!" 

I sniffed, "I am feeling like you are only mine and no matter what position I have, the only person who can have you is me. Am I getting too selfish?"

Arashi didn't say a word as his hands tightened their hold on me. "Then you should call me selfish too for wanting you only to myself."

He pulled me closer so that there was no space left between us and I clenched my fists against his clothes tightly pulling toward me so he wouldn't go anywhere. 

"You don't know how much I have to restrain myself when I see you. You have no idea, Bianka, how greedy you have made me." His voice was breathy and the way he said my name made my knees week. 

"Then you won't get offended if I get too greedy over you?" I asked as both of our breaths were uneven and our hearts thumped in rhythm. 

"I would be happy if you get greedy. You have every right to get greedy, Bianka..." He said before crashing his lips on mine, "Because I am yours as much as you are mine."

And that was what it took me to lose myself as I was desperate for his touch and I kissed back. Our lips moved synchronously as he put his tongue in me, devouring every corner. 

My tears were flowing loosely as my body flooded with the fresh wave of euphoria. He was mine and I didn't want anyone to have him. I felt too possessive and I wasn't feeling scared anymore. 

Arashi's hands roamed above my clothes and reached the obi as he swiftly untied it. My yukata became loose and a moan escaped from the back of my throat as he threw away the obi. 

Our lips were still in the battlefield as he slowly tugged me toward the bed and I laid down on it. He was on top of me as he pulled away his lips.

He looked at me, his dark eyes smoldering in the darkness where the dim light of the lamp gave prominent shadows over his cheekbones and nose, making him more beautiful than ever. His long strands fell on me loosely as I twirled my fingers in them. 

We both were heaving for air as he asked, "Are you sure?" 

I nodded. "Yes. Take me, please?"

And his eyes burnt as he leaned forward, his hands opening my yukata slowly. I felt the chilling wind on my skin as the material was robbed away from me and my breasts were exposed to him.

His eyes washed over me and heat crawled on my neck and cheeks as my chest rose up and down rapidly. I was shy but I wanted him. 

His lips came closer and he placed a wet kiss on my collarbone as I moaned. My eyes got closed immediately as he hovered over me.

He untied his robe and threw it on the ground. It fell somewhere with a soft sound and it was the most musical sound I had ever heard. His bare body came before my eyes and I took in everything. His cuts, scratches and all those wounds he had were all so beautiful that I couldn't look away from him. 

He leaned on me as our bodies touched and lightning shot through each cell in me. I wrapped my hands around his neck, feeling every part of him.

Arashi's hands held my body as we both felt our heartbeats beating together as one.

That night we became one and all those emotions I had in me, Arashi made sure to blow them away from my head.

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A/n: Alright! And that's it! Fufufu

Ahhh! I can't give much details anymore!!!! It was supposed to be PG 13, people!

And my cheeks are red now! 

Now! Don't complain! I am going back to study! *my flustered self