Overdose

I didn't see you do it but I saw the aftermath
The mess
The destruction
The pain
The reasoning is unknown to me and the ones who love you
I remember coming to visit you afterward
I wanted to cry so hard
My eyes filled with tears but the things you taught me stopped me
Embarrassment over showing how I feel overpowers me
Too scared to cry for you
Too scared to feel
Too scared to say I love you
You tried it again and again
After a while I stopped feeling anything
I stopped visiting
I stopped caring
I never stopped loving you but my feelings stay confused
Why do you hurt yourself?
Knowing you have so many who love you
You claim to love us
Yet you do nothing but hurt us