Prison within my mind
Thoughts run wild
Moving in whatever direction is wants
Beyond my control
I try to do whatever I can to feel normal but I can't
I constantly think of the past and wish I could stop myself
Stop myself from making a bad decision
One that causes me this pain and confusion on a daily
If I didn't do that would I even have these problems?
Would I suffer less?
Would the suffering come later?
I want it gone
I want to be okay
I want the pain to leave and finally feel like me again
What went wrong?
Why did a chance at fun cause nothing but pain and agony for months maybe even years to come?
What did I do to deserve this?
Can I just feel like me again