You are slumped with files on your desk and honestly are cursing under your breath..... All the work you have been assigned to you purely clerical.... And you couldn't help but wonder is this why you trained your ass off for..... Honestly you are about to die of sheer boredom... And you miss your first posting.... And wonder why are people so keen on this particular posting.... There are perks of being a hot shot army officer in delhi... But this isn't nearly half as stimulating..... Your mind and body seems to get rusted due to lack of adventure...peaceful life doesn't suit you anymore.... You are used to explosions and fireworks..... And this place has none.....

Think of explosion and here it is..... What's up with god these days... He seems too concede to your wishes too quickly now a days.... You wonder as you listen to col. Sinha your senior... Who wants you to work for him in an upcoming investigation.... And you are hell excited...
"capt. Singh your work on tracking down the militants in jammu base was commendable.... We ve been keeping track of all your investigations.. And we do suspect some links of the head of these militant operations is connected to delhi...."
You wonder in surprise as he declares that you have been watched over all this time.... You bite your tongue.... Although he as declared that your work was commendable.... You know exactly how many army regulations have you broken while doing it....
" thank you sir... I had just been doing my duty.... And yes i did suspect that all these militant agencies had a link to urban areas.... Some political agencies... Who finance them.... But despite of all efforts... I couldn't find enough details regarding the matter... "
"So.. Captain singh... I want you to assist major sheekhawat and dig in deeper in this issue....."...you glare at him awestruck as you notice he had been silent all this time .. Just calmly listening to your conversation with your col. Sinha.... And he finally intruded .
" i beg your pardon sir.... But you have given the responsibility of this investigation to me.... I would prefer if you also give me the liberty of choosing the team members for this investigation...."
"What do you mean sheekhawat... Don't you want captain singh to be a part of your team...?... And if i may ask you the reason" ... He glares at you while you stare at him awestruck..... "there is no personal issue as such sir.... But i would rather prefer someone a bit more experienced on my team... Someone i would rather be comfortable working with....."
"So i see you have already selected your team.... Do you mind specifying who that person is... As i am curious to know after all this time there is someone who you finally feel comfortable working with..." not only col. Sinha.... But also you are quite curious to know that mighty person who he prefers over you..
.. Honestly you feel irritated and angry over the fact that he not only doubts your professional skills but also has an audacity to declare infront of a senior that he won't be comfortable to work with you...
You are forced to keep shut as right now you are standing infront of a senior.... But he definitely owes you an explanation...
You fail to understand why he builds up a hell lot of suspense in every single thing....
"captain... Nandini gupta sir.....".... He declares and you lose all your patience and calm...
"its completely alright sir ..... I don't mind backing off ..... As i ve realized it is important that major sheekhawat's comfort level remains unhindered during the investigation..."
Your mockery and biting tone of voice depicts everything including hurt and betrayal.... That name has ignited fire inside you... And the fact that he has audacity to mention her infront of you has taken your anger to a completely different level..... That you don't even realize that you just mocked your commanding officer infront of his senior.... And right now he can take a strict acton on you on basis of your conduct.....
But somewhere... It wasn't a professional issue.... You were hurt.... At the fact that he doesn't consider you capable enough... To work with him....
. In his cabin....
"excuse me sir... These are all previous reports regarding the investigations that i had done in jammu.... Hope they would be helpful"
... You try to be calm and discreet.. Trying not to let your personal feelings get in way of your work.... That is what he kept saying you all the way while training you....
"thank you naina.... And thank you for understanding ....." he mutters in serious wimpy tone... And you lose all your sanity .....
"sorry sir.... I beg your pardon.... What is it exactly that you expect me to understand.... While you just declare that you are not comfortable working with me...."
Naina.... You are not ready yet.... This investigation is not as simple as you think it is ...".... He sighs and answers as if he had expected you to question him....
"yes sir certainly i cannot match in skills and experience with captain nandini gupta.... I totally understand ..... And there is no reason for me to get pissed at the fact that you still prefer her over me...."
He stars at you as if he doesn't believe what you just said....
" naina... I think you are misunderstanding me... Captain nandini was pre assigned to accompany me in this mission.... And sudden interest of seniors in giving you her place led me to think that there is some serious monopoly and politics going on ...."
"Yes... I completely understand sir ..... But some part of me does still believe ke.... Aap ab bhi muhe apne layak nahi samajhte ...."... You mutter in disappointment making sure that your words remain unheard by him....
And leave his cabin... Wondering what exactly is his problem.....
Just as you approach the door he retorts... And you realize that he heard what you intended not to say out loud ....
"tumhe layak na samajhne ki mere paas koi wajah nahi he naina.... Aakhir tumhe sabkuch sikhaya bhi to mene he.... So you see doubting you equals doubting my own professional skills ...."
You stare at him slightly shocked at his audacity..... So indeed he is not too different from all other men out there.....chauvinist......self important... And countless other adjectives you use for him as you head back to your desk.... And he smiles smugly.... At the endearments you use for him.....
But what struck you like a hammer was the mention of that bitch nandini.... So technically he is comfortable to work with his ex girlfriend who dumped him and regretted thereafter..... But not you.....

He prefers that nandini over you.... Now all your doubts regarding him having feelings for you have been cleared....it was all a misconception of your silly heart that led you to believe that he still feels For you.... He doesn't.... And now its crystal clear..... But if that were the case.... Why all this effort ..... To keep you close.....
Ughh you will die of confusion one day....