While you gained a partial coherence after grieving for  a few days.....

You were helping your mother who was about to leave the country as she was completely unprepared to live alone in the same house as she has lost her beloved son and husband....

You had never been able to fill in for either one of their loss.... And you had noticed that the look of disappointment she often gave you had been for first time changed...... When you agreed to fulfil your father's last wish without any protests...

That was perhaps one of many decisions you had agreed to marry rajveer..... But his reasons.... Despite of all speculation.... You were having a hard time figuring out.....
You desperately needed to talk to him... But he informed squarely.... Just after the mourning that he has to leave immediately on some urgent mission..... You were again left with your wretched self drowning in a pool of questions and confusions....
Damn him... If this was the case why did he bother agree to marry you in first place.... Just to shove another big ass  favour  on your face....
Your hatred for him was increasing ten folds now as his oh so mysterious way of reappearing in your life to create another havoc in already messy life of yours was bugging you.....
True... He had helped you through toughest times of your life... But that was it....perhaps his help and reassurances were not meant solely for you... Maybe he considered you as a  liability, or a responsibility.... And if that were the case its high time you clear all his misconceptions.....

You picked up a peice of paper and started pouring it the hatred out.... Hoping that your words though polite were cold enough to bite him through his skin...... He deserves to get bitten..... Yes he does.....

You tugged that parchment in his jacket pocket just before he left...

Rajver
You have hated silent journeys as they leave you alone with your thoughts..... And every single time you allow yourself to peep inside.... You are surrounded with memories....of her....
Her face lingers in front of your eyes every time you close them....
These silent nights.... With an acute scarcity of sleep..... All you can do is take a ride back in the lane of memories wishing to live each and every moment again..

You open the door every morning to look at her bright eyes glinting with a lot of faith in you
"cadet naina singh reporting sir..." she would blurt as you shoot her a pretentiously cold look..... Slightly nervous as if trying to gauge your mood..... You know there is no reason as such of her coming to report to you.... As promptly as an alarm clock...... Even if you were her mentor..... You know she makes excuses to be around you... And its not just her..... Your heart thumps loudly in your chest as you feel her barging in without knocking..... Your face would light up in a smile..... As you hear her voice.... You loved her eyes....her crooked nose.... With reddened tip trying hard to hide the anger as you scold her yet again..... Over silly things... While all you ever wanted was to kis the tip of that aquiline nose.... Corner of those frowning lips.... Her eyes.... Her forehead... Which creased slightly when you teased her... Made her run errands.... You loved to tease her..... You would smile at her secretly at her innocence....
How you wished to keep her safe.... Away from all trouble....
You fell in love with her far before she could ever imagine.... You loved her spirit, her determination, her tendency to live on extremes...... Her fierce nature.... Which effortlessly hid the softcore, bubbly girl hiding behind the facade....
You dreaded at the fact that she lived on extremes.... And had a constant tendency to put her ass in trouble..
Damn that sexy ass always landed up in places where it wasn't supposed to be... And you had dearly loved it so for the sake of her sexy ass and her cute self and also the fact that she was your best friend's little sister .....and also your protegee..... You always ended up diving in like a superman to be her saviour... And you enjoyed it.... And also the rebellious and extreme nature of hers.... Which kept you on your toes...... There was never a dull moment in life when she was a part of it.....
Every thing was implied and understood until the day you dared to be stupid enough to cross a line.... You violated the boundaries that were supposed to be in between a teacher and a student.....

At the new years party.... Second year at kma.....
The so called new year party which your gang of troublemakers so eagerly organized.... After kissing your ass for five days before you signed the permission letter..... You sometimes get flattered at the sort of authority you had.... But their disappointed little faces would have been such a sight to watch the whole year as they would frown at you.... If you refuse to sign the permission letter..... But these suckers were smart enough to step on your weak nerve..... As just one day before the party they sent naina with that coy smile..... In your office.... As a final attempt to  make you agree.....
Every one except this innocent creature standing infront of you knew that you would jump of the cliff for that smile..... Damn these cadets are too smart....
She was dressed to kill that day... Totally unaware that your eyes were prying on her ever since she came in....
Your brain had stopped to function as you saw her dressed in a skimpy black halter neck one peice.... Accentuating.... Her curves.... Her bare shoulders.... Her long legs... Her sleek neck and her eyes slightly smoky..... Usually you wouldn't like it when she put on make up.... But that day she looked like a seductress..... And you should have been court marshalled for prying on your cadet like a pervert....

All sort of inappropriate thoughts clouded your head which was slightly  mushy under influence of wine....

She was enjoying herself as she was the star of the evening... All her friends cheering her.... As she managed to convince me.....

Huda flirted with her long enough to convince her to dance and she agreed... But tonight there was an uneasy feeling inside you as you saw her with him.... Maybe it was the frustration of holding back your feelings for so long... Or the jealousy of seeing her enjoy someone else's company....

You had been more than liberal about your intake... And left the party as soon as you could... To avoid saying or doing something stupid....

As you slumped across the pillar controlling your erratically beating heart..... You heard a voice....
"sir... Sambhal ke... You are drunk..."

She held you as you were about to lose your balance and land on ground....
"cadet naina ah singh...... Is it.... How come you are not inside  .... You were enjoying yourself when i last checked...."

She shrugged ..... "it had gotten a bot boring inside... So i thought.."

"so you thought why not go out and bore your sir instead....."

You replied... Slightly complaining....

"alright sir let me drop you to your room first...."

You protested as she held you buy your shoulder...and dragged you to your room
You protested as she came forward to adjust you on your bed..... She came forward to tuck you in.... Lovingly patted your cheeks as was about to leave....
You held her hand... Asking her to wait... An insecure child in you wanted to be comforted.... And reassured.... You had been a loner all your life... Yet it was after a very long that you craved for company....
"kya hua sir... Is something bothering you..."
She asked whilst ruffling your hair.... There was a dreamy feeling about the way her fingers felt as they ran in your hair
"no...nothings bothering me.... Its just a silly  girl.... Who is completely clueless about how i feel about her..... I don't know how to tell her..... What she means to me..."

"perhaps you should try telling her.... Maybe she's not as silly as you think.... Maybe she's just waiting for you to tell her how you feel...."
She replied.... With such sweetness...that could completely melt you down....

"how about i start now....."whispered huskily in her ear..... As you traced her lips with your thumb.....and she closed her eyes in anticipation... You stared at her face.... Glowing under soft glow of the lamp..... Too numb to respond... And she hesitantly came forward and brushed her soft lips with yours..and quickly withdrew as she realized she was about to do.... ... ...
You pretended to not remember a thing the following morning...... You started behaving coldly..... Rudely with her ...... Hurting her.....  things had changed drastically after that night.....

Looking at her after so many days you ran completely out of words to say... You have messed up her life out of measure.... And you desperately wanted to fix it..... You know she's having a hard time coping with life even as she pretends to be strong.... You know she needs you..... And you need her.... To make each other complete and meaningful..... And you know that it is very very difficult to undo all the hurt and misery you have put her through....

You still had hope left ..... Which was about to crumple as the you noticed the parchment of paper.... In your jacket pocket ...... You opened it only to witness that you have made her stone cold.... And she probably hates you now.....

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