Rajveer
You see her standing still across the windowsill in your room.... And a shiver runs down your spine... You are mesmerized to look at your vivid dream turned into reality... Of how she would be in your room.... And how you would have all rights to hold her... And caress the innocent lock of hair kissing her face.....
You shrug yourself out of your dreamland as the reality... Though seemed so much like that dream of yours.... Was different..... And all you can do is perhaps be content with the fact that she is in your proximity..... Cause her proximity is all you ever wanted..... And right now if not anything else.... You can make do with these little moments of comfort where you gaze at her to your heart's content.... And she tries to decode the hidden messages your longing gaze sends her through.....
"ahmm...someone seems to be in a deep thought.."
Your words break her trance and she gazes at you the very instant... Her eyes locked with yours.... And she is unaware that you are wondering.... How beautiful her face looks in the filtering moonlight....
" wo... Maa ko yaha lane ke liye thanks.... Mera matlab he.... I don't know how could i be so careless about her" you witness her all jittery and guilty..... "in dino me itna sabkuch ho gaya.... And maa had to suffer a great deal...."
"tumhe thanks kehne ki jaroorat nahi he.... Mene ye sab kisi meherbani ke taur pe nahi kiya... Tumpar na sahi par mera unpar to haq he....."
You bite your tongue as you witness her eyes welled up..... Damn why does every conversation you initiate with her has to get messed at the end..... You didn't intend to hurt her.... That's the last thing you would wanna do...
" i am sorry.... I had disappointed you.... Me wo sab nai kehna chahti thi... I really didn't mean to hurt you...".... You nod in complete understanding.... Knowing what she is referring to..... Somewhere deep down inside... A feeling of warmth spreads in you.... As you witness the fact that there was still a bond.... A sense of belonging that she had for you... Even now as the things are messed up to this extent....
"i had been a lousy daughter... Meri zid ki wajah se maa baba ko bohot akelapan sehna pada..."... She broke out... Unable to help herself... Just like old times..... And you were glad... She needs to vent out all that she has locked up inside her all these years... And you know that despite of everything.... She still trusts you with her feelings.. Her pain.... "kabhi kabhi hamari chuppi ki wajah se hum bewajah hamare apno ko chot pahucja jate he..... Par ab jab mauka mila he .....sabkuch theek karne ka.... To isme jhijak kesi naina....."
"aap sahi keh rahe he sir..... Chuppi bohot takleef deti he..... Aur ab me maa ko aur takleef nai dena chahti....".... For the first time in all these days... You finally feel that some distance between you has been covered.... You keep a hand on your shoulder and she smiles reassuringly.... And you melt inside.... Unable to take your eyes off her.... There is something delightfully intimate about sharing this room with her.... A sense of belonging.... Of having a family that you always craved for... Yet you warn yourself not to get ahead of yourself.... You ll have to be extremely patient with her as what's culminating between you two is very fragile.....
You wipe a lone tear escaping her eyes and she closes her eyes leaning at your touch as your fingers linger on her face..... You find it difficult to stop yourself and are about to pull her in an embrace..... And you do... For a brief moment... And she lets out a sigh.... As if exhaling all her worries..... How you wish this moment never ends..... How you wish to be like this forever.... Comforting her in your arms... Holding her close to your erratically beating heart and letting your heart beats convey every thing that you couldn't say to her in words...... (imagine this moment with this song)
Kitne dafe dil ne kaha...
Dil ki suni kitne dafe.....
Wese to teri naa me bhi mene dhundli apni khushi...
Tu jo gar haan kahe to baat ho gi aur hi....

Sudden beep of your phone ... Breaks the beautiful moment... And you curse inwardly... As she tugs at your t shirt to get separated from your arms... And leave her reluctantly......
You take a look at the phone ..... And reality strikes you...as you see the name on the caller id.... Its nandini....
She glances at your phone for a moment and then looks elsewhere.... Perhaps to overcome her embarrassment about the former action of hers of to cover up for her anger.... You doubt that she has seen her name.....you chose to ignore the call.... Wanting to enjoy her peaceful proximity for a little more while.....
"wese... Tumne bataya nahi.... Which side of bed do you prefer....??...."
And you witness her going all red on your question...... But you dare not shift your gaze from her crimson cheeks.... And how you wish you could plant a kiss at her reddened face....
" umm... Me couch par manage kar lungi... "
She backed off to avoid the upcoming tension.... But hell no... You would not let her be in discomfort....
"cadet sing...you are currently in my bedroom.... And i am the one to decide....and manage....in here..."
You suppress your smile and mock her already embarrassed self... And she stares at you wide eyed... "i am sorry sir.... Par mujhe nai lagta ki me aapke saath..... Wo...."...
You find her fumbling at the very idea of sharing bed with you..... While you are no less than nervous..... Wondering if you have overstepped... Or rushed.... Maybe you both need some time to completely settle in this new relationship.....
Your phone beeps again and you let out an angry sigh....
"i... Think i ll take this outside ..." you excuse from her ...

Nandin:aaj kal tum mere calls bhi ignore karne lag gaye....
You sigh.. Not willing to lose your temper..... Some aspect of life are ugly and unwanted and no matter how much you try .... Your past haunts you in shadows ...... Not letting your present breathe in peace.....
You gather up all the courage.... You won't let your past sabotage your present this time.....you won't run away or prefer silence..... "mere paas tumhari bakwas ke liye time nahi he...jaldi bolo"
Nandini:ab meri baaten tumhe bakwas hi lagegi na... Tumhare pas kafi saari cheezen he karne ko... Jese apni...
"nandini.... Apni had me raho... Aur agar tumhare pas itni raat gaye aur kuch karne ko nahi he .... To phone rakho....."
Nandini:are naaraz kyun hote ho... Baat tumhari pyaari biwi se related he..... Uske kisse kafi mashur he army me...jammu base par kafi adventures kiye he tumhari iss biwi cum student ne....
" ghuma fira ke baaten karna band karogi tum... Saaf saaf batao baat kya he...."
Nandini:sambhal ke rehna.... Past aasani se picha nai chodta... Filhaal itn hi... Baaki tab bataungi jab tum wo karoge jo me chahti hun.... Time aur jagahe bata dungi....
You grit your teeth in anger ...... She is a hard nut to crack.... Bit in order to get you work done you ll have to entertain her...
You sigh out your worries and enter back in your room to find her asleep on the right side of the bed... Curled up like a kitten.. Looking adorable....
Damn.... Now you'll have to give up on your side of bed too..... Sleep is far from your eyes as you sit there gazing at her lovingly.... Witnessing her lips pouted in a cute frown.... As if complaining about something.....
You want to take her in your embrace that very moment..... And keep this little bundle of trouble safe from eyes of the world . ...... For now you sit there ruffling her hair lightly careful not to wake her up..... You don't realize until morning when you fell asleep wit her tugging on your t shirt....and her head resting on your arm........ She stirs as the morning rays filter from the window.... Her fingers entwined in yours... You wonder how this shift in position occured over night.... You sigh in contentment... Cherishing the most beautiful morning of your life.... But life is a bitch... And you know the beauty of this moment will cease soon.... As you have to step back in reality.... So you free her curled fingers from your t shirt and move away with utmost care.... Not to wake her up.... And smile at this slothbear as you head towards the hall.. Finding maa brewing coffee for herself
"are beta... Tum uth gaye..."
"good morning maa... Aap ye sab kyun.... I mean ramu he na....."
Maa:are beta aadat he.... Tumhare uncle ko sharp 6 baje akbaar ke saath coffe pine ki aadat thi..... Naina jagi nahi abhi tak....
You supress a smile.... And nod in a negative.....
"ye ladki bhi na...." you smile ..... Bas thodi der me jaga deta hun use...
"beta wo.... Um.. Wo theek he na.." she adds hesitantly".itna sabku have achanak se ho gaya...uski life me.....par wo... Kya wo is rishte ko apna pai he ...... Tum dono khush ho... "
" haan ma... Aap bhi kesa sawaal puch rahi he.... Waqt ke saath sab theek ho jaega..... Hum saath rehna seek lenge.... And i promise.... Me use kabhi akela nahi padne dunga... "
" jaanti hun beta.... Par wo ziddi he.... Kahi use esa to nahi lagta.. Ke ye decision uspar force kiya he hum sab ne..... Hum sab bas uski life me thodi kushi chahte he beta ..... Aur me jaanti ho... Naveen ke baadTumhare alawa wo khushi use koi nai de sakta... "
You smile at her.... Though you know... What you have given her is confusion and pain.... And what she is now is far from happy.... But you have hopes.... At Least now that she is with you... You can try to restore all what she has lost all these years.... You will try to find her happiness and yours... Which is directly proportional to her smile.....
"aap fikr na kare maa.... Sab kuch dheere dheere theek ho jaega..." you reassure her or yourself you don't know... But both of you smile at each other reassuringly... And drop the conversation as teh slothbear arrives rubbing her eyes.. Half sleepy....and you can't help but smile
" good morning..... "she greet both of you whilst yawning... And you decide to tease her..." cadet singh .. You are late for your morning drill.... "in fake stern voice.... And ma smiles as she frowns... A little scared ... Taking a while to realize that its a sunday ..... A blissful one for that matter..... .