"Kookie, can I hold your hand?" I look back to look at Jennie who just exiting the car behind me. She looks stunning in red, if only my feeling to her was still the same I'll probably so thankful to the god for that. But it's different now, the fire not there anymore, I merely holding her carefully out of responsibility, out of my pity toward her family's reputation if the media know.

"I've told you to not be wearing heels." I said shortly while escorting her inside the ballroom, which is instantly taking the attention.

"I am sorry, but the dress won't match with the flat shoes." I shake my head; this is what I found troublesome. When her pregnancy is so weak, but she keeps on doing things that is risking it. Sometimes I wonder if she is ready to be a mother.

I wonder, if she really wants to keep the baby.

"People won't argue with a pregnant woman."

"Nope, I should look amazing every time I met people." I scoff at her remark and smiling after that because the owner of the party, Mr. Yeo, the third richest person in South Korea this year.

"Good evening, Mr. Yeo." I greet him, bowing lightly and giving him a hug back. "Happy birthday, you should be healthy."

"Oh god, can you just ask the god to give me a little piece of your handsomeness, or luckiness, Mrs. Jeon." I can see Jennie smiling brightly beside me. "Such a beautiful woman." He praises Jennie again and she chuckled lightly.

"Probably because of my pregnancy, I guess." I hold my breath when Jennie finally breaks the news in front of the public make the older man widening his eyes and just like our own father hugging me tightly and proudly giving us advice. I can tell everyone is happy with the news, while I feel empty, and lonely.

"Evening, uncle Yeo." I snap my head and looking at my side as Mr. Yeo loosening the hug. I was widening my eyes when I look at the niece of Mr. Yeo, the number two of the richest person in this country, hand extended to reach Mr. Yeo hand, before they hug each other.

"Kai-yah." I feel that Jennie squirming beside me.

"Having fun?"

"Not as happy as I meet my favorite niece, when is the last time we met again?" they then laughing.

"Happy birthday." Mr. Yeo nodding happily, I can see the twinkle in his eyes, he adores this bastard that much, I wonder if he will do the same when he knew what the Kim Kai did in the past. "And I think you won't be bothered if I bring my special one." My jaw tightened as I saw someone behind him, I can't see her, but I just know her. "Lalice Manoban."

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"Should I pretend that I never know what history Kim Kai had written in your past?" Jungkook softly asked as they are faced to face standing near the stair. She was excused to go to the toilet, and Jungkook simply following the woman leaving Jennie busy talking about her pregnancy with the other guest.

She doesn't avoid his stare, because everyone knew them now that aside of hate, Lisa is still loving and longing for the man more than any other emotion she could feel. She looks straight in his eyes, even if it makes her heart aches so bad. She composes herself pretty good, she doesn't cry, she doesn't even look sad, it just, like she can feel nothing.

"I can't believe you stand beside him, was your love that deep to the man who hurt you too much?" she scoffed and chuckled a little as she looks down, sighing.

"Then where I should stand? Beside you?" she then asks the question that he could never answer. "I heard the medicine is working this time for your pain." She jumps on another topic because she can't stand watching the very sad eyes of him. "That's a good thing." She smiles genuinely even though she felt broken realizing that he will never need her anymore. "Good things happen to you one by one, it just like all of your sacrifices get paid with the right amount, in the right time." The aches feel so strong in her chest, in her head that she looks away to take a deep breath, looking for Kim Kai to bring her home.

"Was it a sin if I am still dreaming having you, as my only painkiller?" and she was taken aback as she looks back at Jungkook who stares at her with his bambi eyes. That beautiful thing, which is hold the universe in them, the things she'll never bored of to look at for hours, or even for the entire of her life.

"Life must go on, you know that." She said the words that like a sharp knife cutting her whole being. "You got your first love, she loves you back, you even got your wish come true. The baby. The happy wedding. You'll have the little you are running around your house, while your wife makes you food. What's wrong with the life you got to still dreaming about me?" She gulps the hard lump; it feels like as if she is eating a rock. "What's good of me for you to dream of with?"

"I am cherishing you."

"I know." She nods eyes stinging with tears. "And thanks for that. To make me feel precious, loved. But in the end, we must face the reality, right? Even a good dream must meet a the end. I am just a mistress."

"But I lo-"

"I was looking for you." Kai is circling his right hand protectively around her hips as he looks at the woman with a real concern that makes Jungkook feel something nearly exploded inside of his chest. Anger. Madness. "I am afraid, don't do that again." Jungkook inhaling a sharp breath as the incredible aches starting in his chest.

Kai then watching the man who had a sweat on his temple in front of him. He bows lightly as he leads Lisa to walk away. Lisa is willingly walking with Kim Kai leaving the man he loves. But not even meters away, she could hear gasp surrounding the hall as a loud thump heard. Her hand is trembling, and with no hesitation she turns around to see Jeon Jungkook laying on the floor, unconscious, and blood start to come from his nose.

"Let's leave." Kai whispers on her right ears but she couldn't hear anything anymore as she watches Jennie is crying mess hugging the pale Jungkook. Lisa step in, letting go of Kai's hand, and kneeling beside a hysteric Kim Jennie.

"Call Kim Seokjin!" she said make Jennie to come back to the reality, her mascara stained her eyes as the tears keeps on flowing, and it hurts Lisa so much realizing of how much Jennie changing her feeling toward Jungkook. "Quick!" she said again make Jennie nods her head, took her phone from her clutches as Lisa observe Jungkook. As someone was trying to hold her back from touching Jungkook's, her sharp eyes looking at the man hardly. "I am a doctor."

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As the night become a day, Lisa could never close her eyes not even a minute to take a rest. She helps Jennie bring Jungkook to the hospital but had to leave for peace. Even thought she had a war inside of her mind to stay, but she had to discipline herself. She can't back to square.

She sits with her family, had breakfast as her eyes keeps on looking at her phone. She wishes at least Kim Seokjin will give her a track about Jungkook's situation.

"Kai said that you run Jeon Jungkook to the hospital?" the eyes of her parent's drift to her as Bobby start the day with that kind of question.

"He needs an immediate medical procedure."

"Along with her wife?"

"Then what should I do? To let him die just like that?" she said now raising her intonation that makes her father cough to stop the thick air. "Sorry." She said after that. "I've murdered someone, I don't need the second time, thank you." She then put her spoon as she stands from his table.

"You didn't touch your breakfast honey." Complain her mother.

"I'm full."

"And you won't getting out with Kim Kai anymore."

"Bob-"

"No. Or I'll really marry you."

"You are crazy, you are about to destroy your life."

"I don't care as long as I can make you save."