EUNA

It's my first day going to school as a senior. It was just a usual day but aahhh! I couldn't get more excited! Knowing that Suga is my classmate in one of my subjects and yes, he is my crush ever since I'm in freshman year. I don't know if the term 'crush' is still suited for the situation but, oh well. I'd still consider it.

I'm now walking in the school hallways when I hear screams everywhere! I swear my eardrums will explode anytime if I stay for a day with these girls! Ugh, I turned around to find out who this guy is andㅡ

OH

MY

GOSH

"YOONGI!" I screamed and oh, he's wearing that cool black blazer I love the most, the one with the red lining inside. Oh my gosh, I swear he looked extra adorable today!

I screamed for his name at the top of my lungs expecting he would look back and smile at me, as absurd as it sounds, yes I'm expecting that he would, I mean, come on! How can you resist his gummy smile?

"ASDFGHJKL!" I cringe at the thought.

Well, Yoongi is one of the most popular guy in school alright, with his charms, confidence and extremely good looks. He's always placed number one in everything he ever did.

I looked at my watch and oh god, I'm late for my first subject! I'm busy over here fantasizing over Suga that I forgot I have classes to attend to! And then I realized that I'm the only girl standing here. Ugh, If it wasn't for him I should've gotten there minutes ago. I swear this is getting out of hand.

I run for my life when my eyes caught the school lockers. I took a glimpse from my left to right to make sure no one was looking and stood in front of Suga's locker, wondering whether or not I will able to stomach what I was about to do.

I stand in front of his locker for a long second, trying to collect my thoughts and tap into my inner strength.

"Here it goes." I slid a peice of paper in the tiny space. It's a paper heart actually and I did this a lot of times! It's a way to show him that I like him, I wonder if he ever guess who this secret admirer is that continuously floods his locker with a bunch of paper junksㅡ I mean paper hearts.

It's not much of a secret that I have a crush on him or whatever you name it, It's just that he didn't know. Or did he?

The bell rings and I have no choice but to rush inside the room. I've never been tardy my entire life and I'm about to break my perfect attendance streak for this one little crush.

My heart is pounding in my chest as I push open the door and walk inside. At once, all eyes are on me. Everyone's aware of my scandal by now and my face heats up as I see them smirking and whispering to each other.

"H-Hi. I'm sorry I'm late." I said, gasping for air.

"First day of school and you're late." My teacher said as he glared at me.

"I said I'm sorry." I mumbled as I clutched my bag even tighter. Ugh can this day get any worse?!

He gestured his hand telling me to take a sit and make my walk of shame. I bowed my head as I settled myself in the far back of the room. Well, it's the only seat available so yeah.

Classes were boring and I'm extremely worried because chemistry was one of my weakest sides and I had a lot of trouble studying it. It was honestly very irritating how I couldn't concentrate on the material and now I have a lousy professor whose voice is as low as a smoker who works as trucker in a field. Okay the reference is weird but it's true! It makes me sleepy during his class!

"Ugh!!!" I shrugged as I bowed my head on the desk and covered it with my arms. "If only Suga is here," I mumbled

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I tilted my head and opened my eyes. My vision is still blurry from a nap but I managed to see the person next to meㅡ

Suga.

How come I didn't recognise him earlier? Ugh, I usually go better than that. I was about to lose myself and scream butㅡ

I was startled to see him doing something on his phone. Smiling. I hate it when he do little things that breaks my heart into pieces. What is he doing? Is he texting someone? Is he seeing someone that isn't me?

I know everything about him. Well, almost everything. From his family background to the size of his lips. Yes, I admire everything about him that's why. But I'm not a crazy stalker or something. I'm just his admirer. One of the hundred girls here in school.

So if he ever do something that will hurt me, it breaks my heart into tiny little pieces.

*bell rings*

I stood up and ready myself to leave but before I did, I took a glance at him at the corner of my eyes. He casually swings his backpack strap across his shoulder and walks out the door without a second glance. Ouch. He didn't even look at me, no 'goodbye, baby' or 'see you later'.

I'm crazy. Why would he? He didn't care about me anyway.

***

I saw him passing me again today. He's wearing that grey over-sized jacket I love so much. Well, I love almost all his clothes alright. I love his fashion sense.

"Hey! What's new? Are you and Suga together now?" Elise teasingly asked as she poked my sides. Ugh, I don't get this girl sometimes, if she wasn't my bestfriend I swear I'll leave her right now and say I don't know her. Evil me.

"No, not yet." I answered smiling. I love how she ride my fantasies and jokes about my fake relationship with Suga you know that? Atleast I have one friend that's as crazy as me.

Elise and Suga are close since their childhood days and I don't have a problem with that. In fact, she's one of the reasons why I know a lot about Suga! Amazing right?

I wander my eyes around and saw him. Yes, him! Oh my gosh.

He's in front of his locker and examining the paper heart I slid there. I felt my hands shake in panic, what if he doesn't like it?

And then he smiled.

Oh my goodness he smiled!

And when I realize I was slightly smiling, I quickly erased the smile on my face.

"Do you like Krissy?" Elise approached him and I swear my heart beats so fast that it would jump out of my chest anytime soon. Krissy is a cheerleader, she's been linked to Suga for a while now and I wished she could be a bitch just so I could hate her. She has amazing voice and an angelic personality. Why would anyone hate on her?

I cursed under my breath. Please say no. Please say no.

PLEASE SAY NOO!!!

"Come on!"

I was dragged away by Margaux because it's almost time for my History class.

"Wrong timing! No!" I removed my hand on her grasp and continued to listen whenㅡ

He looked at me and smiled.

Oh god.

I felt so awkward I had to look the other way. Idiot. That was my chance! I didn't know what to do!

"Yes." He said.

My life is ruined.

"Since when?"

I'm shattered to pieces.

"A long time ago."

I

Fell

Hard.

I embarrassed myself again by dropping my books in shock as he walk by.

But he didn't help.

Why would he help.

He will never love a girl like me.

***

It was so painful but I had to accept the reality. I didn't own him in the first place but why do I feel like this? I prepared myself for this day but why did the pain still stings? It's been days since I've gone to school and here I am, standing in front of his locker again. I wish I could tell my true feelings to him before I leave Seoul. There are times that I feel like he's avoiding me and it hurts. I don't know why.

Before I slide the piece of paper I was holding just now, I'm feeling kind of anxious as well. Maybe I could start to write on envelopes or write some random facts just to make him look forward to it. I feared that one day he'll just tossed it into the garbage can and never think of it again.

I was just about to slide the paper on his locker when I felt a hand on mine. I turned around surprised and a little startled because no, I did not expect anyone.

But when I saw who it was that was behind me, my heartbeat fastened in panic and I immediatly glued my back in his locker.

I was caught.

"E-Euna?"

I was caught by him.

This is probably my worst nightmare.

"Y-yes," I coughed out, handing him the paper heart and I seemed to shrink even more. I feel like I wanted to disappear right into the locker.

Moment of truth,

"Thank you," I mumbled.

"Thank you for everything. Thank you for being my inspiration through out highschool. At first, I thought you're just another guy of millions that will break my heart and trust, but I'm wrong."

"E-Euna. Why are you saying-" I cut him off by starting to talk again

"Everyday, it changes. 'He's just a handsome guy', I thought. Every single day it changes 'He's a handsome and a kind guy' Everyday it adds up until the day it changes to, 'A handsome and a kind guy..' " I paused

"That I love more than myself." I scoffed,

"Why are you saying these?!" He responded

"Because it's the truth. I want you to know that I tried, Suga. I really did." I sobbed, "And I needed to say goodbye." I tried to smile and bite my lip to prevent myself from sobbing even more

"Why are you saying goodbye?"

"I need to leave. It's the best for me. I need to fly to Vienna to see my Mom and study there. I'm not expecting that you'll love me back but I wish, I just wish that you know that I existed." I sniffed,

"W-Why are you here?" I asked as I looked up to stop my tears from falling

"She already said yes." He answered

I felt like a thousand thorns peirced my already thorned heart. I feel like an emotional wreck, I tried fanning my eyes because tears are clouding my vision but It just won't stop,

"Who? Krissy?" I smiled once again as if he didn't know that I'm faking it

"Yes." He uttered "A-are you happy?" It's now his turn to ask.

"O-of course! I'm very happy for you t-two." I stuttered as my voice pained, I'm not sad right now but this means we still have another chance in another life.

I pat his shoulders and just uttered the words,

"Congrats." I lied, trying to hide the pain

I turned around, making my way out of this mess.

"Are you okay?" He asked

I didn't respond.

"E-Euna.."

I wish you the best with her, Suga.

"Euna!"

I really do.

***

"Welcome to National State University, Vienna! May you have a fruitful year! Go on and make some friends!"

I was startled when a guy suddenly appeared in front of me

"I'm Yoonsan. You are?"

I smiled.

What a wonderful day to start a year.

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This is 1/2 of the story so please do not skip the next part if you want to know Suga's side of the story okay? Okay. :)

Revelations ahead :) you ready?