Imagine #99: Thnks Fr Th Mmrs (Part 5)

Y/N's P.O.V. 

I walked out of the coffee shop as fast aa I can before I can even hyperventilate in there. Yes, I may have let all of my thoughts and feelings out, but it doesn't mean that the pain will be gone just like that and honestly...it just made all these feelings worse.

The thought of me letting go of the person that completes me...just like that...truly put me in this so much misery.

I walked away, keeping the tears within me. My head looking down to the ground as the tears that can't be stoppes flowed. I hate that I'm having difficulties in breathing now. I have an asthma and it's only a matter of time before it fully attacks me.

Thankfully I was near my house and soon enough I arrived before I can even pass out. I looked at my pale self in the mirror and god I look like a freaking mess...messier than I thought. This life, my life...I don't even know what's happening anymore.

"Take me back...just please take me back. Even if it's just a sweet dream, I want to go back there...and never wake up again." I said to myself while I sob so hard. My breath is living and I didn't even bother taking my inhaler. I just...don't know anymore.

I don't want to look like someone who relays on Patrick so much that when he's gone...I'm empty; but really I look like that now. I'm practically alone, clearly drowning before, but when Patrick came he just saved me. He became my strength and because of him, I'm alive. I know I had to keep going but thinking of him not on my side anymore really makes me weak all over again.

"What is this? Just...take me back or take every memory away, I can't live with this..." I continued as I slid down while leaning on the door. My eyesight is getting blurry as seconds past. I couldn't even breathe anymore...maybe if I let it take me, I'll find the bridge that will lead the way back home.

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"Do you really want to go back, Y/N? You actually wished for this..." I suddenly heard someone...and I think that's my voice too.

I tried to open my eyes and the moment I did, I was blinded by the brightness around me. It was a white empty vast room, if I would describe purgatory this will be how it would look like. I stood up and looked around, but all I'm seeing is white...maybe I really did die.

"W-who are you?" I asked and my voice echoed.

"You...from the other timeline you wished to change." I heard the voice again and now I'm sure that's really my voice, but what she said doesn't make any sense.

"What are you talking about? Where am I?" I asked in confusion. I wasn't seeing the person who's talking to me, I'm just hearing her.

"You wouldn't understand if I tell you. All I'm saying is, you wished for this, Y/N, you should be happy that things chang---

"Happy? You call this happy? Look at me, if you're me you will understand, you will feel this misery!! Where are you?!" I asked in frustration. I didn't even have the time to think where am I or what this is, I just want to talk to whoever or whatever she is.

Suddenly, I heard her laugh. The laugh that I always make when I want to be sarcastic...yet sad.

"Trust me, I know as much misery as you do." She said.

"Why are you...talking to me like I'm a different person...You said you are me and what do you me from different timeline?!" I kept on asking.

"You were too persistent to know...but I really couldn't blame you, Y/N. You reached this realm...between timelines...maybe from a dream or something." She explained but everything still seems blurry.

"Just please explain me everything! Is it true?! All of those memories, it's true right?!"

"Yes, indeed, everything is true...but not in your timeline." She explained but it brought me hope.

"Then take me back where it's true. Please, I'll do everything!!" I said eagerly.

"You said the same thing, but that time you want to go away from it." She explained.

"You're lying. I would never ever wish to be away from that life! That was the way how my life supposed to go and now I feel like...all of my life is just a wrong replica." I explained.

I think Multiverse theory is indeed true and I think I really got lost in all my timelines, but this voice tells me I wished for it...something impossible to happen.

"Desperate times comes desperate measures, Y/N. Trust me, we don't want that to happen." She explained and I just sighed.

"What can be the possible reason for me to wish for it huh? Nothing! I can think of not--

"Look behind you." She cut me off and the moment I did...I think I saw the worst version of me.

I'm in a wheelchair, almost every part of my body wrapped in bandages. I couldn't even see my own face. It's like my whole body was pulverized and these bandages are keeping me intact.

"W-what...happened?" I asked in disbelief.

"I told you I know much misery." She started to talk. "This is the reason, Y/N and you're lucky you're not seeing Patrick right now."

"What? What happened to him? What happened to us?" I asked.

"You're right, that was supposed to be your life, your true path...and now you're just on a replica, but you wished for it. Every memory you have, every feelings you have...it's all true, but it lacks something...the reason why you wished for it to be changed." She started. "Everything was perfect like you remembered it...until the accident happened. It wasn't your fault or Patrick's, you just happen to be at the wrong place at the wrong time. Your car had been hit by a truck and it went rolling down the cliff tjay almost killed both of you instantly, that's when your life took a drastic turn. You and Patrick survived...but your body, everything, was wrecked. You couldn't walk, couldn't talk and couldn'r even eat. It's like you became a doll and as for Patrick, he was suffering the same thing...but worse. He's been guilty, blaming himself for everything  he looked worst than this...and his vocal cords coudln't even properly work anymore...it was over for him. He's only holding on for you." She explained which left you speechless.

You just stood there while slightly shaking as you listen and look at her. You can feel all the chills in your bones now too.

"You hated yourself too, every night you wished that it didn't happen...every.single.night. And somehow your wish came true...you can live in another timeline where this didn't happen, but the only solution is...you're not supposed to be with Patrick to prevent it from happening. It has been written that if you follow that path, that pattern, it will always lead to that part...the only thing that can solve it is to avoid being with Patrick. That's the reason you're in that timeline." She explained which made sense...Everything made sense, but it's unfair, why would this happen to me?!

"It makes sense...I was about to meet Patrick for the first time when I didn't attend the homecoming reunion. But in this timeline, I did attend the reunion and I met Martin instead of Patrick...this is the timeline where I didn't meet Patrick." I murmured to myself.

"You're catching up fast." She said. "That timeline where this happened kept going...just becoming more miserable each day. That pain in there kills you everything and your body just became a mere vessel for both of your troubled souls. Actually, Patrick was asking the same thing, wishing that that didn't happen because he couldn't stand seeing the love of his life like that. But you're more persistent, that's why you were the one who got here and you brought him with you and everything around you to be exact...but the consequence is, they will forget everything since this is a new timeline, only you will remember those memories from the original one." She explained.

I think my mind had just been blown into tiny bits, but at least I understood everything. I accepted the explanation because I know this is only the thing that cab explain what's happening to me.

"Now, do you want to go back?" She asked me like threatening me and I just looked at her.

"But why do I have to keep all the memories? Can you just remove them all?" I said already giving up.

"I also wished that it'll go away, but sadly  you have to keep them." She explained and all I did was laugh lowly.

"Well, I guess I have to keep up with this." I said in defeat.

"You have your free will to control this timeline now. I mean, make your life count in here. You don't have to live in that memory anymore. Remember, you chose to leave it."

"I understand. But really, thanks for explaining everything to me. I was starting to lose my mind." I said to her.

"You should probably wake up now. And as I said, you're driving your own life again in this timeline. That destiny had been changed, everything after this is a mystery now." She said and I just nodded.

Suddenly everything is getting blurry again and I think I'm waking up.

"You really shouldn't avoid the things that you want, Y/N. The things you're trying to avoid has already been changed. Keep that in mind." I heard faintly before I couldn't see anymore.

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"Hey, Y/N! Wake up! Please, wake up!" I heard someone as I feel that someone is shaking me.

"Hmmm. P-Patrick?!" I said in shocked the moment I saw him.

"Oh thank heavens! That's really dangerous! Can you breathe fine now?" He asked and I just nodded.

"How did you...why are you  here?"

"I followed you. You didn't lock your door, thankfully, I found you passed out here." He explained.

I was already on the couch and he was kneeling beside me. I tried to sit up and thankfully I feel fine now.

"Thank you, really. But you should go now, it'll be not good if someone sees you being this kind to someone." I explained, respecting that he's married now.

"O-okay, but please keep me updated. I mean...--

I suddenly smiled at him, accepting this all slowly.

"As friends...okay. Really thanks, Patrick. Even after what I told you." I said to him.

Patrick just left me his number and after that, he just left.

"Keep in touch, okay? Don't get this the wrong way, I was just--

"I know, I understand, Trick. Don't worry!" I said and wave him a goodbye and after that, I was left alone in my house.

Maybe, he's really still connected with me...somehow.

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