Mercy

"Maybe it's not about the happy ending. Maybe it's about the story" - Albert Camus

Warning • Smut
• Inara •

He was kissing me. Warmly, deeply
His lips were working over my neck whilst my body felt... electric
It never felt so... good with other people
But as he kissed his way over my neck, his hands gripping my hips, I pulled him closer

His hands worked over my shorts, hooking them until his thumbs rubbed against my bare skin
"Kane" I moaned, running my hands down his chest
Before his slid up, over my waist, pushing my top up

"Fuck" he let out, kissing down to my chest, before he hesitated
"Kane?" I asked
He looked down at me, chest heaving, eyes unsure
He was... unsure?
"Are you okay?" I asked, taking his face in my hands

He nodded, staring down at my body
Was he... nervous?
I pulled it off myself, leaving my chest bare to him
And he only continued to stare

"Kane are yo-"
He kissed me, cutting me off

And I kissed him back, wrapping my arms around his neck
Before he kissed down once again, kissing over my neck and to my chest.
Soft warm kisses that didn't match the boy giving me them

A gentle grip on my waist that didn't match his hands
His big arms
But it felt so right.
His mouth covered my nipple, before his tongue flicked over it
And my skin rippled with goosebumps

His hand grasped my other breast, kneeding it within his palm as his mouth moved lower
Over my stomach, before his hands slid down and grabbed my shorts again
And he looked up at me again

The same hesitance in his eyes
Did he not want me?
"Can I..."
I nodded, my shorts running over my hips, down my legs, leaving me naked

And self conscious.
As Kane Vallow looked over me
In the dark light
In my own bed.

His big arms hooking under my legs as he lowered himself down, kisses now on my thighs
Consuming my legs in warm wet kisses and shocking my entire body
He was going to...
"Kane" I said warily
Before his tongue ran along my clit

And my breathing stopped, my head fell back
And I forgot how to breathe

Until he did it again
And a moan escaped me
"Kane" I moaned, looking down at him, at his eyes on mine
At his mouth on me.
And I melted beneath him.

• Kane •

She moaned, over and over like a fucking song
And I liked it
I like the way she sounds. I like the way she feels
And I love the way she tastes

Her thighs in my hands are just... everything
The way her legs were wrapped around my head

I'd gone from running away, leaving my house after a fight with dad
To driving in the rain, standing on her doorstep and talking myself in and out of knocking on the door
To here

To tasting her and hearing her moans.
Her legs tightened, her hand tight in my hair and she arched her back as I licked her
As I moved my arm and pushed two fingers into her
Slowly fucking her as she grabbed her sheets

The sheets that smelt like her
Like her shampoo
Like her perfume
Surrounding me, drowning me.

I felt caught in a trance as I chased her high, as I craved for her to come undone on my tongue.
"Kane... fuck. Kane" she moaned, eyes squeezed shut, hair a mess.
As her legs shook and she cried out as she came.

• Inara •

He slowly pushed himself up, lying beside me as he pulled the blanket up for me
I lied still, staring up at the ceiling
He just...
We...

"In honesty... I've never... I've never done that before" he admitted, making my head roll to the side to look at him
"What?" I asked surprised
"You heard me" he said shortly
"Then... why did you..."

He said nothing
So I said nothing
We just lie there
Side by side. In silence

Until his hand took mine, entwining our fingers
And I smiled
This was... confusing
And I didn't know what it meant

But I was happy
Happier than I've been in weeks
I shifted closer to him, and his other hand grasped my hip, pulling me into his side
My head resting on his shoulder
"Night petal" he mumbled sleepily

"Goodnight" I whispered.

• Kane •

I woke up with Inara against me. Naked
The sun shone in the windows, way too fucking brightly
I laid still, staring at everything around me

Wondering how the fuck I got here
How all I had was Koen two weeks ago
And now I'm lying beside Inara Knightly.

She stirred in her sleep, her eyes opening
And every nerve and bad thought I had came flooding back into my head as I felt self conscious
As I had no clue what she was going to say.

She looked up at me worriedly, shifting herself away
"I'm sorry" she mumbled
"What... don't be" I said, she sat up, holding the blanket to her, but I could see the back of her
Her... naked... back
All the way down to h-

"I... I should probably... shower" she said, looking down at the covers
I sat up
"Yeah... I'll get dressed" I said slowly, gaging her reaction
Did she... regret it?

"I... can you look away for a minute?" She asked awkwardly
And I couldn't help but laugh
"What?" She asked
"Nothing" I said

"No, what?" Her eyes hardened, determined
I don't know where the confidence came from as I watched her hard glare
Her... her cute flushed face

"You came on my tongue last night and you don't want me to see you naked?" I said
And her face truly blushed red
Her eyes flickering, her hands gripping the sheets tighter

Just like... last night.

"I... don't do that" she said instead 
"Do what?" I asked, leaning closer
She searched my face
For mercy.
"That" she said lowly

"What?" I said, looking at her lips
She didn't move, she sat frozen before I moved in, kissing her
Harder than I did before
Eliciting a surprised moan from her mouth before she kissed me back.

And then she pulled away
"Kane" she whispered, opening her eyes
"What... where does this leave us?" She asked
"Honestly... I don't know" I admitted
Say something.

Say anything
Tell me you want it to leave us... together somehow
"Okay" she mumbled
"Okay" I repeated, nodding to myself
"I'll uh... I'll get out of your way" I said, getting up

She watched me, saying nothing
"Here" I said, handing her something to put on
"Thank you" she said quietly

When I was dressed I didn't know what to say
How to act.
I had never stayed at a girl's house
I had never... done what we did.

"I'll go then" I said, heading for the door
"Kane" she called
"Yeah" I said
"You can come back... if you still can't go home" she said

I nodded
"Thanks" I said
She smiled at me
That fucking smile that made me want to stay

That made me want to beg to stay.

• Inara •

When I had showered, I still felt like I was in a state of numbness
No thoughts were processing except for the night before.

And then as I sat in my living room, wondering if he would be back, there was a knock on my door

"Hey" Ivy smiled
"Oh... hey" I put on a smile, opening the door wider for her
"Wow okay. Try and at least sound like you're happy to see me" she laughed, following me in.

"I'm sorry, I thought you might have been Kane" I said
"Kane? Why?" She asked, sitting down
"I just... I thought he'd come back" I shrugged
"Come back?" She smiled

"What's going on? What don't I know?" She pushed
"He just... he came round and we hung out" I lied
I'm not telling her why he came round
I'm not spreading his personal business

"Hung out?" She asked
"We... he..." I sighed, leaning forward to whisper in her ear
"What?" She shouted
"Ivy" I groaned
"You two? I thought you were just pretending. I thought you didn't like each other?" She said

"So did I but it just... happened" I said
"And?" She asked
"And what?"
"And how was it?" She clarified

"Oh, it... I mean it..." I chuckled
I didn't want to talk about this with her
"Inara?" She sang, urging me
"It was... good. Really good" I smiled.

"You have to give me more than that" she said
"No" I laughed

• Kane •

I chanced going home that night
To get some clothes
To drive back to Inara's and stay with her again
To hold her and sleep through the night again
For the first time in months.

But when I got home, dad was sat in the kitchen, waiting for me. Drinking
And when I shut that front door, he only heard a call for a fight
A fight he always invented in his head

And I didn't often fight back
He was still... my dad.
But when I tried to get up the stairs, only for him to follow me, I wasn't optimistic I was making it out of the house tonight.

• Inara •

I settled into bed, checking my phone for the fourth time since I came up here
Nothing. And no Kane
Maybe he was alright at home tonight.
He must be.

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