Stay

"But then you never asked her to stay so why blame her for walking away"                           - Midnight

• Kane •

She's smiling
That's good... right?
"So, where does this leave us Vallow?" She asked, sipping her drink

•Inara's Outfit •

"What do you mean?" I asked
"I mean, you didn't hate being around me, now you've asked me out properly, so... where does that leave us?" She asked

"I like being around you?" I offered, making her smile wider
"Be serious" she laughed
"I am" I said genuinely
"I like being around you. I like being with you. You... you're funny, you're nice, you're easy to talk to" I said

"Really?" She asked, I nodded
"I feel... happier since we started this. I used to fucking hate school and now that's my favourite time of day" I said truthfully
Home was a nightmare
And when she gets into my car, my day begins

When she leaves me at half three, everything in me sinks
And I dread going home
I dread lessons without her
I dread a day she'll be sick and leave me to face the day alone

"I like you" I concluded
"I think that's the most you've ever said in one go" she said simply, seemingly lost on what to reply
"Yeah" I said low, dipping my head
"But... for the record... I like you too" she said

I looked up, she what?
"Everything... lifts when you pull up outside. I never thought I'd trust anyone let alone like anyone after I dumped Tommy... and he stomped on my life" she said

"But you're sweet Kane. Despite yourself and everyone around you, you're the sweetest boy I've ever met. And you make me feel... wanted" she explained, thinking aloud
"You make me feel pretty and you make me laugh, I love spending together and I know to begin with everything was fake. I know we... but after everything that's happened, we're more than that aren't we?" She asked, looking to me for confirmation

I nodded
"Definitely more" I answered
Her cheeks tightened, her glossy lips smiling at me as her bright eyes connected with mine
Before she leant across the table, grasping my face in her hand and kissing me softly

And I revelled in it, I damn near dragged her across the table
But I held myself back.
And when she pulled back, my life felt worth something
Because she wants me

She likes me
And I have no fucking clue why.
But I never want to fuck that up.

• Inara •

"You really are the bad influence" Kane mumbled, a mouth full of cake as we each picked at the piece we agreed to share
"I never forced you, I asked if you wanted to split it and you said yes, that's verbal agreement" I argued
"You'll never be a good lawyer if your case is to blame it all on me" I joked

He eyed me
And I suddenly shut up
Because his eyes told more than he often did
I was going to regret that.

"Just you wait Petal" he said simply
I sat back, watching him.
"Are we all done?" The waitress asked
I nodded
"Are we?" Kane asked
"Yeah... I can't be out too late" I said, holding his eyes

"Can't you?" He asked, trying to figure me out
"Thought your parents are away" he said
"They are" I smiled.
He didn't seem to be picking up what I was trying to tell him

That I wanted to go
That I wanted him to come with me.

•

"Walking me to my door now too?" I asked, opening the front door
He stopped short of coming in, so I turned to face him
"Kane?" I said

"Yeah" he said, oblivious
"Do you want to come in?" I asked
He looked back at his car, then at the clock behind my head on the wall
"Sure" he said unsurely, stepping in

"What do you want to do? Watch a film or something?" He asked confused, looking into the living room
"Kane" I said, earning his attention, before I pushed myself up, kissing him

His hands found my waist as mine grabbed onto his shoulders.
"Kane" I whispered, pulling away
"Do you want to go upstairs?" I asked

"Upstairs" he repeated, I nodded, looking for the answer in his face
Did he not want to...

He slowly nodded, seemingly unsure if I meant what he thought I did
I took his hand, taking him up the stairs to my room, passing the daisies he brought me and shutting the door as he looked at me lost.

I stood against the door, as nervous as he seemed to be until he neared me
Slowly but determined
"Kan-"
He cut me off, kissing me harder than before as his hand found my hair, the other pulling me close to him by the hip.
I moaned against him, holding onto him

I tugged at his buttons, undoing his shirt and pushing it off of his shoulders as his hand slid up my thigh, pushing my dress up slightly
He groaned as he met my naked hip, my underwear between his fingers.

I pulled him down to me harder, kissing him with everything in me
Everything over the past few weeks that had been building up to this
Earning another groan from him as his other hand grabbed my thigh too, pulling me up to him

My legs wrapping around him, his mouth on my neck, my dress at my waist
I fumbled for his belt desperately as he carried me over to my bed
Lowering me down until he was on top of me, kissing my chest, pulling my dress up and off me, leaving me in my underwear

I undid his belt, pulling him closer once again.
I felt like I couldn't get enough of him
Like his kisses electrifying my body wasn't enough
The way he touches me, kisses me, makes me moan.

"Kane" I breathed out as he took off my bra, kissing down my chest, his tongue flicking over my nipple whilst I desperately reached for him
I wrapped my hand around him, slowly stroking him as he leant his forehead against my shoulder, taking a breath

"Fuck" he let out
I tried to catch my breath, before he kissed me again, harder and needier
We both needed it
We needed each other.

He quickly pulled my panties down my legs, leaving me bare beneath him before his hand found me, rubbing against me slowly... teasingly before pushing two fingers inside of me.
"Fuck" I cursed, my grip tightening in his hair
He slowly... agonisingly tortured me with his fingers

I was wet and desperate.
For him.
"Kane, please" I sighed
He tore his lips from me, before he left me altogether, standing up
He watched me. Confidence and nerves fighting in his eyes
And I watched him in innocent awe as he undressed

As my eyes cast down and his never wavered
Before he was back on top of me, kissing my neck, open mouthed warm kisses along my skin, turning into a harsher feeling, leaving hickeys

I felt him against me, I felt hot and aching
"Are you sure?" He mumbled against my throat
I was too caught up in the feeling of him to even hear
"Inara, are you sure?" He asked again, breathlessly, pulling back to look me in the eyes.

I nodded
"Yeah... are you?" I asked
"Yeah" he echoed in a whisper
A silent moment of looking at each other for confirmation, for comfort and assurance before we reconnected our lips

Before he slowly began to push inside of me, hands digging into my thighs as my own grip tightened on his arms, nails digging into skin while I tried to cope with the pain
With this new feeling

He kissed my cheek, then my neck, waiting
Waiting and comforting me with a warm assault on my skin before he began to move
As the feeling became less intense. Less painful
And I started to feel what I had before, the want
The need
The aching to feel him
"Kane" I moaned, his movements quickening

"Kane... harder" I sighed, head thrown back as he pounded into me. Hard and slow

• Kane •

Fuck
The only word replaying over and over in my mind every time I pushed into her, every time I felt how tight she is.
It was too much. It was all too much as I tried to last

As the world worked against me because she was just too perfect
The way she moans
The way her eyes squeeze shut.
The feeling of her nails digging into my arms and her legs wrapped tightly around me

She couldn't be fucking real.
And how the fuck did I manage to get her time if she was?
She was too good for someone like me
She was better than people like me
And she chose me anyway

She wants me
And fuck I want her

I want this.
I want to feel her beside me when I wake up
I want to feel her kisses

I want to revel in the smell of her perfume as I mark her throat.

"Fuck... ah... Kane" she moaned, her entire body closing around me as she gasped, her hands holding my face as she came
As she moaned into my lips and tightened around me so fucking hard, I immediately came after her
I groaned into her neck, never feeling anything like this moment right now.

Never feeling her like this.
She really is fucking perfect
And as I lay beside her, hot and exhausted, all I wanted to do was hold her
To pull her into my arms and sleep peacefully like last time

But I didn't. Because I didn't know what this was to her
I didn't know what I was to her

Would she want me to leave?

"Kane" she said, rolling onto her side as she looked up at me
"Yeah" I let out, catching my breath
"Will you stay?" She asked
I found myself nodding before I even knew I was

And she smiled. That fucking smile that made me want her so badly
And she moved closer, resting her head on my shoulder and giving me exactly what I wanted
Her
In my arms.

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