Sometimes I think my life is reaching a halt.
I look back and realize it's all been the same circle of shit,
A circle I have yet to see an exit to.
It's like a roundabout from hell, but then again they all are.
It feels like I've just stopped, never to move again.
As if I were a planet itself, forever stuck in orbit.
Never moving out of the norm, staying in the same loop of shit.
I meet people, I do new things but in the end I reach this same spot.
The spot where I think back to good times, when I was happy and solid.
The times when that one person made me soar, made my heart fucking skip a beat.
And I look at everything now and it all seems so bland, like I'm looking through a filter.
A filter that takes in the good, and pushes out the bad.
It might be because I'm typing this at 1 AM, but my feelings feel so.. empty.
Happiness, a figment of my imagination. Love a rush or dopamine, or whatever the fuck it is.
Sadness, the only real thing that I can always count on to be there.
I say I love, but at times like these, at my "numb times" I question do I love?
Am I, Slozalokavich, capable of love?
Am I, Slozaloakvich, capable of feeling happy?
And I have yet to answer those questions, just like before.
Because as I said before, I think my life has reached a halt.
Never to move again, only to loop back into the same pit of despair I now find myself in.
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