"just try to remember the good times, focus on the good things in life"

how am I supposed to focus on the good
when they were the good?
they made boring things fun
they made me smile when in a bad mood
they were good.
and how am I supposed to remember them without mourning them?
all those bright memories of laughter and kisses
now tainted grey
how?!

I brokenly whisper this with anger and grief
hopelessly searching for some relief
I just want her back