and i told you to be patient
and i told you it wasnt time
and i told you to be open
and i told you to be wise

yet nothing changed
and if you cant respect you own
dont go disrespecting others
especially if you dont know

and i told you i was sorry
and i told you to stop
and i told you im in no hurry
yet all you did was nod

i said forget it
yet you didnt listen
i dont want acceptance
from those who cant respect that

i told you i was sorry
and you held me in a hug
and i told you i was gay
and still held me in a hug, but more silent

i told him i was sorry
i told him i was gay
he told me i was sinning
he told me in hate

can i ever be forgiven
by men stronger than me
i feel like ive been forsaken
by men who also believe in heaven

may 31, 2016