i dont ask you to take me places anymore
because im hoping you will forgive me
for all the emotion i have done
for what i have become

its stupid because i hate pain
i dont take you for granted or vain
but i feel rejected
by the most important thing i need

i dont want anything to change
but i can feel a shift in atmosphere
you are different than before
it isnt an easy shift

ive cried four times
you dont know about any of them
and crying is ugly
and it feels close to death

i dont know how to tell you
without you rejecting me
and bypassing my emotion
off as nothing

im sorry i dont know how you feel
i dont feel very real
but i guess life moves on
and you pay attention to the important ones

our relationship is so broken
i cant just stop and count to ten
i have so many words unspoken
here's one; i feel forgotten

i dont have anymore fight

that must be a sight

and if i find my light

maybe i wont kill myself tonight.