i am hurt
i am in pain
i am numb
i am drained

i cant tell you
i cant do this
i cant say that
i want more than this

i wish i was
a better image
in place for a future
wrapped in no vintage

i am tired
i am crying
i cant feel anything
i must be dying

maybe one day ill tell you how i feel
and i can say that what i feel is real
theres no synonyms for lonely
but only me and the empty

so dont cry for me
i am not even happy
so suicidal am i
time flies by

dont try to find me
if i leave
because somewhere ill be
is dead.

just dead.
so fuck you too.
especially for not caring.
dont think these words are 'daring'

i am in pain.
i cant even talk.
i wish i was listened to.
maybe i wont try my luck.