I know it's not nice of me to vent out personal stuff. But it just wouldn't let go of my mind. Last week, seeing someone precious to you lost their way again. How? Trigger the same event and it would traumatize you.

Why do you feel guilty for others that look like their hurt when you yourself who's more obvious in my sight is actually the one hurting themselves?

How many times has it been since we both moved on that path? Right, since the time we couldn't count how much the pain hurts.

Why are you trying so hard to work and be friends with others when you know their just using you for their enjoyment. Sure they're nice friends but there you are. Always listening to them, giving out advices, always smiling for their sake yet inside, your broken into very tiny pieces that makes me hard to fix it once more. The tears you wanted to shed aren't there to let out cause you lost them at a younger age.

Your not the only one hurting, even I'm hurt as hell. Bullcrap, I don't care if I start swearing about it. I don't care if it makes you a bit uncomfortable that I just intend to say it here publicly but what I know is that my old role will always trigger for you. Yeah, that role. A hero and a bully.

Crazy right? I became a hero for a single person and end up beating the shit out of others who dares to do so. So please, everyone is waiting, our friends are too. (Maybe?) But more than that, I'm waiting for you. I'll be the hella bad ass knight err knightress? Definitely not a word, I know.

In any case, if your ready. I'll be here for ya. Always. Forever.