Warning: Don't read if you don't like reading about depression, mental health, and suicide.

My first friend on Wattpad was BeninaDaizora12. She was a very kind and caring person.

Unfortunately, she suffered from depression and most of her stories were very sad. I felt sorry for her and wished that I could help somehow.

One day she got a puppy which was meant to help with her mental health. Unfortunately, the dog had to be put down after three months.

Sometimes she wrote messages on her message board saying that she didn't want to live and it scared me. It seemed like her friends and followers on Wattpad were the only people keeping her going.

A few months ago, she deleted her account. I was shocked when I found out. She had taken breaks from Wattpad before, but I never expected her to leave. I really regretted not finding out some other way of keeping in touch with her.

I don't know if she is okay. I'm worried that she may have committed suicide without her online friends who would tell her how much they all care. I hope that she is still alive, if not mentally healthy.

Someone else sent me a sweet message on my message board today, and I am supposed to send the message to ten people who are special for me.

Benina, if you are still somewhere around, I hope that this message will eventually reach you. You are one of my closest friends on Wattpad, even if you are not here anymore.

A smile is the best way to face every problem. Keep smiling, because life is a beautiful thing. Smiling because I know what you're capable of.