[letter ten]

dear shawn,

i wonder why i didn't realize i've always loved you...i realized i fell in love with you during our college years but i was too stupid to realize it...i pushed my feelings aside thinking it was from all the drinking...maybe if i would've acted all those years ago then maybe you wouldn't be in this fucking hospital bed... You've always been with me from the days when Howard would slap me around and scream at me how much of a fuck i was to now... i made a lot of mistakes but you never judged me, yeah you would shake your head but you'd give me a hug and tell me how you still loved me....you're always been by my side...why wasn't i there for you? im so fucking sorry

love, tony

p.s. please forgive me