A/N

Hi there! I'm SirenSong55, the editor of this book. I love all things HP, especially Dramione, so this book was/is a pleasure to edit. Before you start reading, I wanted to assure you that I consulted Always_a_slytherin (the original author) on every detail I changed, so this it still the book you love. And if you are a new reader, I assure you it is a book you will grow to love, as I did. However, if you would prefer to read the unedited version, Always_a_slytherin will make sure to keep that copy around. With no further ado, I present, chapter 1:

Hermione's POV:

"Ron," I said sternly, as I pushed my boyfriend off me for the third time that night, to no avail.

"C'mon Mione," he mumbled drunkenly into my neck. "Don't be like that."

After a party in the Gryffindor common room to celebrate the beginning of term, Ron had dragged me up the stairs to the girl's dormitories despite my protests. As soon as we got upstairs, he had shoved me on the bed and clambered on top of me. I had tried to stop him, but my protests had fallen on deaf ears.

"Ron." I snapped, and he stopped kissing my neck. He had been making advances on me the whole summer, and I had rebuffed him every time, but he was getting more determined. It was getting harder and harder to keep him away from me.

"What?" he asked. Clearly irritated, his features were twisted into a snarl.

"I don't feel comfortable," I answered. "I'm... nervous."

"What's wrong Hermione? Is it me?" He asked. His words were concerned, but his eyes were hard. I knew he was fed up with my hesitation.

No, it was me...

"No, not at all. I'm just not in the mood" I said.

"You're never in the mood" He snaps. "All summer you were like this, what is up with you?"

"Listen, let's go have dinner. We can continue this after." I say, hoping to please him.

"Promise?" He asks.

"I promise," I say. Liar, I think to myself. But luckily, Ron believed me, and we headed off to the Great Hall for dinner.

Ron and I walked hand in hand to the Great Hall. When we arrived, Ginny and Harry were sitting together, laughing about something. Dinner was well under way when we strolled into the hall, so Ron immediately left my side and made a beeline for the pumpkin pasties. I took a moment to the entrance of the Great Hall to look around.

After the war, the school had been rebuilt, and new students invited for another year. The school also offered an optional extra 8th year to those who had missed 7th year in the war. When I looked around at all the old faces, I was comforted. Maybe everything would be okay.

I looked back to my boyfriend and two best friends to see them discussing Ron's latest homework assignment.

"Ron, this is your last year, and I will not have you mess it up by not doing your homework" Ginny scolded Ron.

"Ron she's right, just get it over with, " I say while putting food on my plate.

"You're meant to be on my side," Ron complained, and Ginny smirked smugly. "How do we have homework already? We only arrived yesterday."

"I always agree with the educational point of view," I say, and Harry rolls his eyes. "And it's not my fault that the teacher's got straight to it." Ginny giggled, and Ron snorted. I smiled at the familiarity. It was good to be back at Hogwarts.

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"Are you guys ready to go back to the common room?" Harry asks after we all finish eating.

"Yes, we are," Ron answers for me and I glare at him. "Right?" He looks at me.

"I suppose" I sigh.

As we walked back to the common room, Ron, Harry, and Ginny chatted amicably. I was silent, staring at the ground, musing about Ron. Why was he pushing me so much? Didn't he love me just as I loved him? Wasn't I enough for him? I was snapped out of my reverie by the drunken slurs of the portrait of the Fat Lady.

"P-password?" The Fat Lady hiccups. She's clearly had too much to drink, the floor in her painting is littered with broken bottles, and there is a wine stain down the front of her dress.

"Are you alright?" I asked. She ignored me, clearly too drunk to focus. All the paintings were celebrating the rebuilding of Hogwarts, and she was no exception. I rolled my eyes at Ginny, and she giggled.

"A. Rickman," Harry said, and the portrait swung open to let us enter the common room.

The common room is lively, full of people laughing and smiling. I'm glad that everyone seems to be getting along, maybe this will be a normal year after all. I was just about to take a seat by the fire when Ron wrapped me in a hug from behind and put his lips next to my ear.

"Follow me to my room," Ron whispered, stroking my cheek affectionately.

"Wanna do something fun together?" Ginny asks, and I shake my head.

"Ron and I are gonna... hang out," I say, trying to calm my blush.

"Ew. Well, I'll see, you later." She says and walks towards her bedroom.

"You are going to sleep aren't you?" I say.

"Yup," She replied, sending me a cheeky smile.

"Hermione!" Ron yells demandingly, and I huff.

I walk up the stairs and into his shared room when he suddenly attacks me with kisses. It felt all strange again. He leads me towards the bed, and immediately I wanna chicken out. I didn't want this.He tries to pull off my robes, and I slap his hand.

"Come on you promised." He whispered and attached his lips to my neck. I immediately pushed him away from me. It just felt so wrong, but whenever I saw his demanding expression, I felt a wave of fear and guilt. What if he left me if I didn't do this with him?

"I'm sorry to let's try it again, come," I say and lay down on the unmade bed.

With a cocky smirk, he lay down on top of me and sloppily planted his lips on mine. Suddenly, I noticed something poking into my leg. My eyes widened when I realized what it was. I felt that familiar red come to my cheeks.

"You okay?" He asks.

"Yeah I suppose. It's just that I'm kinda uncomfortable." I say, and he brings his lips to mine without listening to me.

His lips move furiously against mine, and his tongue tries to get access to my mouth, but I don't allow him. He frowns against my lips, but I don't relent.

With a huff, he pulls away from the kiss, and I ask. "Did that.. uh...please you?"

Still frowning, he gets off me and says "Well you better go off to bed."

I do a double take and ask "Really?"

"Yeah sure. See you tomorrow" He says and turns away from me.

I walked out of the room feeling really confused, but pleased, I didn't know what was wrong with me. He seemed so keen on doing "it." Ron seemed determined the entire summer to get me into his bed, but with his family around, I always found ways around it. But now that we were at school, it was getting harder and harder to avoid him.

I walked through the common room, saying a quick goodnight to Harry and went up the stairs to the girl's dormitories, eager to get to bed. I was really tired.

When I got upstairs, I saw Ginny asleep and snoring lightly in the bed beside mine. Goodnight Ginny, I think to myself as I got ready for bed.

Once I was comfortably tucked beneath the blankets of my four poster bed, I stared blankly at the ceiling. I was frustrated at myself, for not just letting it happen with Ron, but at the same time I was relieved. What was wrong with me? Surely he loved me, so why couldn't I just do that with him? He wanted it so much, and it would make him so happy. So why couldn't I?

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Warning: Contains mature content such as bad language and sexual themes. Also, mentions of rape and triggering themes.