Originally posted on 21/04/2023

Hi guys. How you doing?

I'm doing okay-ish. Honestly, I'm not motivated these days to write anything.

There are billions to trillions to zillions of reasons why I put this on hold. But here me out. My dear lovely laptop gets too hot to type on it. And the heatwave... it burns in the day.

So I decided to write this in the night. Lo and behold, the f*cking darn INTERNET doesn't work. বাল একটা(fuck it).

On top of it, I don't have a dedicated place for writing, and I'm a nit-picky perfectionist. And I need a workplace to work in a good, comfortable posture. And there won't be any compromises. Cause, I've done that and not doing it again.

Its evening right now. I managed to gather some motivation to give you guys some update. 

I probably published the last chapter 2 weeks ago. And I was thinking of making weekly post here. But I was fighting with the above reasons lately.

Since the last chapter, another week went by, and we had Biryani. Again. But I enjoyed this time. So that's a plus.

A little thing about me. I'm from India, West Bengal to be specific. And Summer is deadly here. Temperature's going 38 degrees(min) to 45 degrees(max). Sometimes weather gets cool. So its bearable. 

But the first floor(British Eng.) becomes an oven in the daytime. Heat rash, my life-long "friends", came to visit ever since the peak temperature. And they said they ain't going anytime soon. 

I read an article which talked about "El Niño Effect", its warm phase, and how it might cause less rain in India. On top that, C0r0na জানোয়ার(meaning: animal, used as slang) is back. Most cases are coming from Delhi. But it can spread. And I'm worried.

If you're a BTS or ASTRO fan, the next paragraph is for you. If you're a hater, thank you & leave.

And if you don't have any idea what I'm talking or genuinely curious about, stick around.

This week... on 18th April 2023, Jhope(BTS) got enlisted for the mandatory military service. 

And yesterday, Moonbin(ASTRO) passed away. My deepest condolences to his family, friends, loved ones and AROHA. May his soul rest in peace.

I'm an ARMY(BTS fan). I came to know about the bad news from armys on stan Twitter. I'm very sensitive about su!c!de. So, even someone, stranger to me, passes away like this, I feel heartbroken. As if only we could've saved them, made them feel they count on us...

And Jhope's enlistment ceremony, many armys including me, expected to hear jin's voice, and... got disappointed. I know you can't make any public appearance right now. But voice? Hearing the voice isn't an appearance, in my dictionary. ব'এ আ'কার লোকজন!

And little message to Jinnie, I know you'll never read this. You say that BTS & ARMY's relationship has no happy ending because it never ends. I believe that any relationship can have ups & downs like the above. So please don't get upset or mad at us. But we understand why you didn't appear in the video. It's okay. We are really grateful that you took the time to make videos for us while you're away. Hopefully we get to see your monthly video in May. Take care. Don't beat yourself up when things don't go the way you want. If you feel sad or wanna cry, find a safe spot and let out your emotions out. Its important. This isn't weakness. This is human behaviour. And I believe, only a human can save another human. All of us ARMYs are proud of you and want you to come back safe and soon. And one more thing, in "the SEOM" game always give us whale, otherwise you'll not be our bias💜

And little message to Hobi, I don't know how to explain. It's been only 2 days, & out of nowhere Equal Sign is playing in my head. But honestly, it hasn't come on my Spotify shuffle in a week. What is this telepathy, Hobi? Are you okay? Is something bothering you? I hope you're doing good. I believe that you'll fulfill your duties with grace. Take care. Don't beat yourself up for unexpected things. All of us ARMYs are proud of you and want you to come back safe and soon. And one more thing, in "the SEOM" game always give us whale, otherwise you'll not be our bias💜

Frankly speaking, I wanted writing to become my hobby. But my inner demons, weather, device aren't helping much. Plus, I need at least decent internet to write in Wattpad. So, is there any way out? 

I don't know right now. But I hope my future-self has the answer.

Thank you for stopping by.

Take care and I hope to see you in the next chapter.

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[Updated on 20/04/2024]

As off today, all the BTS members are in the military. And a lot has been going on. But I'm less active online these days. So...

Some ARMY are boycotting BTS because HYBE hired Scooter Braun as the only CEO of HYBE America. For context, Scooter Braun has shared postes that supports Zionism and Israel. And folks who follow news, know that it's a sensitive issue. For boycotters, either you support the genocide or raising your voice against it.

Regarding the "boycott", what infuriates me is that only ARMY aka BTS fans are involved in the "boycotting" fiasco; other fandoms aren't doing this sh!t. On top of that when these mfs started boycotting BTS, right before Jhope's Docu series and Suga's D-Day release.

Let me tell you dear Reader, I hope you know it already, Israel-Palestine war is an ongoing war for decades. But, from an outsiders' pov, I may say, "Both parties are wrong." But Israel b0mbing Gaza, invading in West Bank, doesn't seem logical to me, let alone humane. And saddest part is most developed nations are  providing weaponry aid for this genocide.

Unfortunately, Israel's hands are covered with bl00d of the same crime that their ancestors had to endure during WW 2.

And ARMY should leave Jungkook's pet Bam's Insta account alone. You can't force someone to be on your side. One year ago, Jungkook deleted his Insta account after several incidents of stalking by sasaeng aka obsessed fan. Let's not disturb Jungkookie. And it's Bam's account. There are other places to raise your voice. And if you completely disagree with me, it's okay. Do your thing 👍🏽

And now message for Yoongi, how are you doing these days? Your basic military training started recently. I hope you're doing well. I hope you're getting rest and you've made lot of friends at work. Today "D-DAY GOOD DAY" was released on YT. I can't explain how much missed your voice. Thank you so much Tangerine Garfield. Come back safe and soon. And if we ever meet in real life, bring tangerines & don't dress as cat otherwise my sister and I will get a heart attack. And one more thing, in "the SEOM" game always give us whale, otherwise you'll not be our bias. 💜

Message for RM, how are doing? I hope you're doing well. I hope you've made lot of firnds there. I hope you're spending your time happily, and not overworking yourself. I saw you band uniform. Your waist looked so thin. Plus you were wearing red. Regardless, all ARMYs were so happy for you; until... you deleted postes & dp on Insta. In last days, you have posted on your other Insta account. So, some are speculating that "RM4 is coming". I do agree with the sentiment. Anyways, take care of yourself. If possible, don't push yourself too hard. Take rest, if possible. And... don't loose your adorable smile. Do you know how precious you are? Take care. Come back safe and soon. And one more thing, in "the SEOM" game always give us whale, otherwise you'll not be our bias💜

Message for V, how are doing buddy? Have you seen your pics in black uniform? You look absolutely badass 😍😍😍 And in the football match, you were swo squishy & adorable. How do you manage your duality? And for the wound of glory, do treat it with ointment. It's beneficial in the long run. I know, you are a strong soldier and I'm proud of you. I just want you to be safe. I hope you're doing well there. Don't push yourself too hard. Take rest if possible. Come safe and soon. And one more thing, in "the SEOM" game always give us whale, otherwise you'll not be our bias.💜

Message for Jungkook, how are you doing? I hope you're doing well. I hope you made lot of friends there. Thank you for coming back on Insta & sharing the news with us on Weverse. I know it's Bam's Insta. Still... thank you for sharing Bam and your happy moments with us. Don't overwork yourself. Don't push yourself too hard. I know you don't like to be called cute, but you're born cute. Besides, I prefer cute. And I love your cute smile. Don't loose it, okay? Anyways, take care. Don't forget to take rest, if possible. Come back safe and soon. And one more thing, in "the SEOM" game always give us crunch, otherwise you'll not be our bias.💜

Message for Jimin, how are you doing angel? I hope you're doing well. I hope you've made lot of friends there. ARMYs are patiently waiting for you. Don't overwork yourself. Don't push yourself too hard. Always know that ARMYs are proud of you. Take care of yourself. Come back safe and soon. And one more thing, in "the SEOM" game always give us whale, otherwise you'll not be our bias.💜

And lastly, let's end the chapter with weather report. Sprinkle of rain has become a scarcity in West Bengal & other states of India. Everyday the temperature stays between 38°C - 45°C, but google says, it feels like 48°C. Why have I not become a pakora (cutlet) yet?

No, but seriously kudos to the Kulfiwala aka Kulfi seller, who has to roam around to sell Kulfi. The Kulfi carts bell is a nostalgia in itself. I wish they, and other people who have to endure the heat due to their jobs, can find a better way for living. Let's be hopeful, even its in vein. We all deserve happiness.

That's a wrap for this week.

Take care.

Bye.