College.

College is essential for life.

A car is essential for college.

Work is essential for a car.

Time is essential for work.

Time that I don’t have.

“Do what you enjoy”

“Do what makes you happy”

But what if it no longer makes me happy?

What if I lose the joy?

What if I lose that freeing feeling

What if I lose it altogether?

I can’t stop.

I’ve worked too hard.

Just a few more to go.

It will all be worth it.

Just get it done.

But wait,

Where did it go?

Where are the memories?

The singing and laughing?

Being the star,

Visiting that world

The one just for me

They’re slipping away.

No more playing.

No more sleepovers.

No more freebies.

No more freedom.

Just keep going.

It has to be done.

There is no other way.

Forget about then,

Think about now.

A light shines

From somewhere above

It has a nice feeling

Like the sun on a cold day

Or a warm hug made from love

Breathe.

No more going.

No more rushing.

No more forgetting.

Just be.

Be in His presence

Let Him heal you

Let Him love you.

Let Him free you.

Be free.