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Park Jihoon

After our last date. Our relationship... Became distant. I didn't remember that I didn't find a way for me to talk to him when I was still a trainee. I always make sure that I chat him even though it's 1am.

And this day was his debut. He even got to debut this early, while I remember my debut almost took a year. I can't deny that I envy him. I love Guanlin. He's important to me, but I don't know if I'm still important to him.

I watched him greet his fans, his happy face never fails to make me smile. Even though it hurts. Guanlin's performance was great, I heard he wrote the song. He's talented, maybe I don't deserve him.

Maybe I should give up.

When he finished his stage, I didn't look at him. I don't want to be hurt. My heart always aches when I watch his trainee video. I'm missing him. I'm missing us.

I'm losing hope. I remember when I chatted him while he was still a trainee. At first he still answer them like before, same 1am routine. But as time goes by, his replies took weeks even months. Everyday I endured waiting. I waited for his every I love you's and I miss you.

Even though it took a long time, I am still hanging. I love Guanlin, what can I do? I can't just move on, since his last chat was a month ago with an, "I love you, Park Jihoon, please wait for me." And so I waited.

Until this very moment, I'm waiting. I'm not a martyr for nothing. If it's for my Guanlin, I'll do it. I'm just waiting for him to do something about our relationship.

I want him to fix us.

As we climbed the way to the stage, I can feel his eyes burning holes at my back. I feel my hopes soar a little.

I love performing, it's something that makes me forget my problems for awhile. But ofcourse, after performing it will all come back to me.

I know Guanlin is still there at the backstage, watching me.

"Jihoon, are you fine?" Someone said ruining my state in a daze. It was Jinyoung.

"Yes Jinyoung, why?" I asked him trying to smile. It was for our fans.

"The MC is asking you a question." I turned my eyes to the MC Yoon Jisung.

"I'm sorry, can you please repeat it?" I asked with manners. He nodded and smiled.

He reads the questions, "Are you seeing someone special right now?" My heart skipped a beat from the question. I can't help but to blush.

"Oh look! Jihoon's blushing, you are right?" Jisung said smiling like the mc he is. I just nodded, even though I'm not sure.

"Can you share who is it to us?" I feel my stomach having butterflies. I'm nervous, I don't know what to answer.

"Just say secret." I heard Jinyoung whispered.

"It's a secret!" I winked at our fans, who screamed because of my wink.

"Ooohh! Looks like our Jihoon here wants privacy. Hahaha!" Jisung said to the fans. But seriously I'm nervous here.

"Thank you PD boys, see you later for the results! Goodluck!" It was our cue to exit. As we go down the stage, I still see Guanlin in my peripheral.

I was about to go inside our waiting room when someone grabbed my hand.

"Jihoon, wait." It was Guanlin.

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I'm sorry but Cliffhanger :'D
THE END IS NEAR!!! TnT