i'm sorry,
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jungkook tossed and turned on his bed, letting out an exasperated grunt when he couldn't find it in him to sleep.

but how can he?

his mind was still recalling today's events and it felt like as if someone had sucked all the air in him and maked it hard to breathe. his heart hurts so bad, he can feel the ache and the hollow feeling in him.

how will he be able to forget jimin?

jungkook curled up in the sheets as he clenched the fabric in his hand agressively, knuckles turning white as a tear fell down.

and so jeon jungkook cried himself to sleep.

jimin played with the pen in his hand as he bit his bottom lip, mind not processing any answers for the questions in the paper. the orange haired sighed as he flicked his pen away, bringing a hand up to his temple and closing his eyes.

"why?"

"why what jungkook? isn't it what you've been wanting all along? and now that i've done that, you should too. it's-"

"but you still love me. and i love you too hyung. we can still get together. you can-"

jimin snapped his head up, eyes holding disbelief as he scoffed.

"you're so naive and immature jeon jungkook" the elder male shook his head, wiping his tears that have fallen unknowingly with the sleeve of his sweater.

"so what now? you expect me to end it with jaebum and get back with you? you think i'm that easy of a person? you broke my heart jungkook, you made me feel hurt uncountable of times, you can't just take things your own way!" the orange haired voice cracked as he brought his hand up to cover his mouth.

"i- but i-" jungkook closed his mouth and formed his lips into a line as jimin's words hit him.

"forget it, forget about us, please" jimin muttered weakly before dashing off, leaving jungkook alone in the now empty hallway.

"i hate him, i hate him so much!"

jimin screamed as he threw the things on his study table, crouching down and gripping his hair tightly.

"i hate you" jimin whispered weakly before falling limp onto his bed.

"oh god, what happened to the both of you?" jin exclaimed as he examined the dark circles and eyebags on both jimin and jungkook's eyes the next day in school. both boys answered the older with a 'nothing' simultaneously that had their friends looking at them in confusion.

"i'm just really tired, got caught up with homework yesterday" jimin mumbled before resting his head on the table, closing his eyes.

"and you, what's wrong with you? why are your eyes red?" namjoon asked the youngest and jungkook sighed, shaking his head before slouching in his seat, fluttering his eyes shut.

"it's nothing"

"baby!" jungkook raised his head up to see im jaebum taking a seat beside jimin as he wrapped his arm around the other's waist that got jungkook gritting his teeth as he clenched his hands which didn't go unnoticed by his friends. jimin sleepily opened his eyes and whined when jaebum woke him up.

"aw, i'm sorry baby, what happened?" jaebum gaze into his boyfriend's tired eyes in concern, bringing his other hand up to caress jimin's cheek.

"tired" jimin muttered before letting his head fall onto his boyfriend's shoulder as jaebum pecked his forehead.

jungkook wants to puke.

it's like a chemical reaction is buzzing up in his body and working up his systems that he feels lightheaded as his heart hammers painfully in his chest.

"how about i treat you to ice cream after school? at your favourite park near the school?"

it is jimin's favourite park because it is jungkook's favourite.

jungkook felt his eyes sting as he excused himself to the washroom, not wanting to witness anymore of what is happening in front of him.

"jaebum, can you let go of me? we're in school and it's not appropriate, sorry" jimin looked everywhere except his boyfriend's face, missing the frown on jaebum's face.

"sure baby, if you're not comfortable with this then i won't do it" jaebum awkwardly said as he removed his hand from the other. "yeah, thanks jaebum"

"he doesn't like him"

"what do you mean? he looks so comfortable with that guy"

"he doesn't like him"

"stop"

"he doesn't like him!" taehyung finally snapped and furrowed his eyebrows because both of them are being difficult.

they knew, his friends knew, even they both knew even if they were oblivious that the look jimin gives jaebum isn't the look jimin gives jungkook everytime.

"forget it taehyung, he wants me to forget about him, forget about us, so i'll do it. i'll do anything for him as long as i can see him and see that smile on his face never faltering and i promise on my life that i'll protect him eventhough he's not mine because i love him" jungkook was crying by now but he didn't realise because he knew he fucked up too much and everything's just too late.

so sometimes, sometimes, jungkook just wished that what his annoying and weird bestfriend kim taehyung wants -a time machine- fucking exists so that he can turn back time and confess his feelings earlier so that now they would have been happily in love and he wouldn't be a crying mess every night.

"i may be the most amazing and carefree person in the world, but i'm not letting this go" yoongi said as he shot a look at jungkook.

"agree" hoseok said he drank his strawberry smoothie.

"but yoongi," hoseok started, taking a few steps back that had the older eyeing him suspiciously, "you're not amazing" hoseok finished before making a run out of the cafeteria, grabbing his drink with him as he heard a 'come back here you asscrack!' that had him running for his life.

and hoseok may or may not be smiling when yoongi caught and cornered him in the empty classroom, the other smirking in victory.

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but i promise i'll make up for it.