Jace

Clary goes to her room while Alec and I start making breakfast. "That was a lot Jace. Are you okay?" Alec ask gently.

"Yeah, I'm" Kaelie, she....why does it still hurt so much? It's been four years, but I was with her for seven...... "...no, I'm not. Can I have a second?" I ask unsteadily.

"Yeah, sit down, take some deep breaths," Alec suggests.

"I'm going to splash some water on my face," I decide. I manage to climb the stairs, though my tears impede me. I close the bathroom door and sink to the floor. She was my first...everything. She was my first girlfriend, first kiss, first love, first person I.....and she just left me.

Suddenly, the door opens. Clary rushes inside. "I heard someone crying," Clary explains, concern laced in her voice. She kneels next to me and pulls me to her chest. "It's okay, just let it out."

"S....she left me. We had seven years together and then, she j...just left. She was my first....everything, and I hers, but it was like it meant nothing to h..her. The late night conversations about our f....future together. How many kids we'd want to haveeee. Where we'd want t...to live. Places we wanted to go to...together before we had kids. The different things we'd te..teach them, m...morals and values. H...how does someone just walk away from that?" I rant though tears. "From the person you've said you l....loved for seven years. From the person who's s....seen you at your low...west and stuck by you. From the person who h...held you every night. From the person who would've done anything to make you happ...py."

"Oh Jace," Clary whispers in my ear. I let out another sob and clutch her back in my arms.

Not another word is spoken as I cry on Clary until there are no more tears and my body stops shuddering.

"Breakfast is done," Alec calls.

"I'll leave you to freshen up. Come downstairs when you're done please," Clary comments as she exits. I nod.

I'll be okay. I take deep, calculated breaths. After a few minutes, I have calmed down enough to splash some warm water on my face and quickly dry it. Then, I march downstairs.

Alec is bringing in the pancakes, while Clary sets the table. I grab the bacon and fruit off the counter and set it next to the pancakes. No one comments about what happened in the bathroom, and I'm extremely grateful.

After breakfast, Alec has to go to work. I try to convince him to call in, but he said he's upto working. Clary lays down on the couch with a movie while I start paperwork.

I go to my room and get the files organized. Before I begin, I set a timer for five o'clock, so I can make Clary and I dinner. I open the first of many expense reports.

Several Hours Later

Ringggggggg

I turn off my phone and close the manila budget folder. Then, I walk downstairs carefully, as to not wake Clary.

I decide on hamburgers, fries, and asparagus. I put the fries in the oven. Then, I start cutting the asparagus and frying it. My mind focuses on making food, so it can't wander.

As I'm pulling the hamburgers out of the oven on the broiling pan, I hear footsteps. "Jace," Clary whispers.

"Yeah, it's Jace," I reply. "I'm almost done with dinner. You could take a seat at the table if you want."

"Okay," Clary mumbles.

Her hair is all over and I can't help but laugh seeing it. "How was your nap?" I ask teasingly.

Clary frowns slightly. "How bad is it?" Clary asks lightly.

"You look...well rested," I chuckle.

"Oh great," Clary pouts.

"Don't worry, you look adorable," I comment. What? Crap! I shouldn't have said that. What if she freaks out or something?

Clary blushes, but she doesn't reply. Honestly, I didn't expect her to. Time to change the topic. "Do you want some asparagus?" I ask holding the plate.

"Yes please," Clary replies. We pass the food to eachother and dig in.

"I'm sorry," Clary whispers.

"Sorry?" I ask confused.

"Yeah.....I'm sorry I left. I'm sorry I worried you. I'm sorry I hurt you," Clary begins. "I don't contribute Jace, not really. I just...I want to feel like I'm earning my keep."

"Clary, you're pregnant. You're job right now is to have a healthy pregnancy, delivery, and baby," I explain. Clary doesn't respond, but slowly eats her food. I notice she isn't eating much.

"Are you feeling okay?" I ask gently.

"Yeah, I'm just not very hungry," Clary mumbles. "Bean is being a bit restless."

"Do you want me to make us some tea? We could watch a movie and take it easy," I offer.

"I think I just want to go to bed," Clary quietly replies. I nod and clear the table. I hear Clary leave as I start the dishwasher.

Before I go to bed, I check in on Clary. She's on the bed, and it looks like she's asleep. I change into a shirt and pajama pants. Then, I lay my head on my pillow and drift to sleep.

I open my eyes. Why am I awake? I check my clock and it's 2:37 in the morning. Then I hear it, it sounds almost like a cry. I spring out of my bed and rush to Clary's room. Is she having labor pain? I should he more informed about this. What if this isn't normal? Does she need to see a doctor? As I open her door, I realize she's sleeping. It must be a nightmare. I carefully sit at the edge of her bed.

"Clary, wake up. Wake up," I urgently try. Clary whimpers. I turn the lamp on and gently shake her shoulder. "Clary wake up."

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I do not own any of the Mortal Instruments books, materials, etc. All credit belongs to Cassandra Clare.

Author's Note:
I hope you all like it! Please leave comments, votes, and feedback. I'm going to update, when I do and it'll be random.

Originally posted: 3/2/19