Chapter Eighteen 

i always have 

3rd person pov 

veah and dora sat down together as they stared at the sky. it was two against one and veah was scared of what would happen? even when they had more people, one of them always died and they were stuck with one less, they kept losing people left and right. she know couldn't stop thinking about molly and how she treated the girl, she knew that molly wasn't wrong when she said that she kicked her out of her life but she had every right too. 

veah now blamed herself for all of this more then she did before because it was her fault. if she hadn't kicked molly out of her life it wouldn't have happened and she would still be alive, and everyone else would be too, if she just hadn't pushed her away, but she did. Molly was obsessed in a way that made her seem like a stalker and veah didn't want to be around that she didn't want to have a friend who made her feel like she was being watched every second of every minute of every day and that's what Molly made her feel like. 

She blamed herself more than normal. Molly made her seem vulnerable, and like it was her fault when it wasn't. it wasn't veahs fault, but she continued to think that because of everyone around her dying. She was mean and rude and cutthroat and hurt people for the idea of hurting them without thinking about what could cause and now she sat there, thinking about the fact that her being mean caused people to die. Her, deciding that her mental health and her safety was more important than a friendship made people die, and it sucked. She knew that Molly was in love with her. It wasn't something Molly had. She actually made it quite obvious, and no matter how many times veah rejected her she didn't care she kept pushing and trying, even though had veah always said no. 

"what are you thinking about?" dora asked veah as they stared at the sky together. veah reached her hand out to doras and she held her hand 

"it's my fault. I stopped talking to Molly because she made me uncomfortable and instead of her talking to me about it, she started to murder people because I stopped talking to her. This whole time everyone has been telling me that it's not my fault and that I didn't cause this, but I'd actually did. A part of this is actually my fault." veah told her and dora shook her head 

"no, v it's not. She was obsessed with you and instead of her talking to you about it she started to murder people. She was insane and it's not your fault. You wanted to keep yourself safe in case something like this happened and it did happen she turned out to be a psycho murderer. Who knows how many times you would've rejected her until she got mad at you and murdered you too. All I'm saying is that it isn't your fault and it never has been. Sure she murdered people because you stopped talking to her but that's not your fault that's hers." dora said 

"I just feel bad this whole thing could've been avoided if I just" she said and dora cut her off 

"if you what? Continued to be friends with her, if you continued to deal with the obsession, and the stalking and the lovebombing and everything happening. Do you really think that that would've changed anything? You rejected her because you wanted to be safe and she took it the wrong way and that's not your fault and it never has been." dora told her and they stood up together as they began to walk together. 

"thanks for being here. I know that it sucks to be here when we could probably die but you're the only person I have right now and I don't think I could lose you." veah stated and dora turned to her with a smile on her face 

"I'm glad it's you that I'm stuck with v. If it wasn't you when it was someone else, I think my head would've already exploded by now, but since it's you, it helps" dora responded and the girl smiled as they stopped and turned to each other. veah looked at dora and dora looked in her eyes as they leaned in and kissed each other. veah had been waiting for this moment for longer than she could ever imagine. She had always thought about kissing Dora, and how it would feel, but she didn't think that it would happen when they could die.

She was glad that it was happening now, because if it wasn't, she would have to deal with the fact that she never got to tell the person she was in love with that she loved them, but now she could. or so she thought. her hands rested on doras neck as dora held her waist and she kissed her. they could feel the heat radiating between them and they kept smiling into the kiss without a care in the world until dora let out a scream and veah pulled away to see that the girl now had a gunshot in her back and she fell to the ground. veah held her close as she knelt down next to her 

"no no no no no no no door. Come on this can't happen you have to stay with me." veah tried and dora sighed. she lifted her hand and looked v in the eyes 

"I love you neveah tala torrez, I have always loved you and I always will. you mean everything to me and I want you to know that. i love you" she cried and veah cried harder 

"why didn't you say anything?" she asked 

"I was too scared of rejection but I shouldn't have been. i love you v" she said and veah leaned down as she kissed her one more time 

"i love you more pandora" she told her and she heard dora take her final breath. this was it, this was the end. 

veah wants blood and shes going to get it. 

-ABBYS NOTES-

wee love confession during death, its the second time I've done this, whats wrong with me?