It was half way through science class.
We'd asked the teacher to move seats so now i was next to you, not him.
Even though you guys aren't together i still despise him for how he hurt Yugyeom.

I was leaning my head on my hand, copying down notes.
I was too focused on getting everything onto the page that i didn't notice my sleeve ride up...
You stared at my wrist in horror.
I was confused until i followed your gaze.

I pulled my sleeve up as fast as i could, covering the crimson cuts.
You didn't say anything but i knew you were going to talk to me at lunch.
The rest of the class went by too fast and before i knew it, you had dragged me to the end of the oval.

Again nothing was said.
I could feel your eyes burning through my skin and the silence was killing me.
I felt tears prick the corners of my eyes.
In the blink of an eye you had your arms firmly around me.
It gave me a sense of comfort and safety.

"You promised me you'd stop..."
A few of my tears fell.

"I'm sorry..."

"Please hyung... Don't do that to yourself... What made you get to that point again?" At least he isn't mad...
But i can't tell him.
I need to lie.
He can't find out, not now.

"Its nothing Yugyeom..."

"Bull-fucking-shit. It has to be something if you're hurting yourself again." I pulled away slightly.

"Its ok, don't worry about it."
He sighed.

"I wish you wouldn't do this to me... I wished you'd tell me whats wrong so i can help..."
What if you're the problem...
"What?"
Fuck did i just say that out loud?!
"What do you mean I'm the problem?"

"I-I, um..."
Nothing left to lose, might as well tell him...
I sighed.
"Yugyeom i like you... I like you so much it hurts... I hated when you were with BamBam i was so unbelievably jealous... I couldn't help but feel a little happy when you guys broke up, selfish huh? Thats why i started cutting again. Becuase i knew i couldn't have you and the pain was unbearable. I understand if you hate me..." He said nothing.
I sighed and started walking away, wiping off a few stray tears.

"I don't hate you."