I have always had a problem with depression and anxiety; I have had severe anxiety my whole life. I always am worried that I am bad or I get nervous if a choice will be the right one and I miss out on a ton of things in life. I don't know, most of my memories always seem to be filled with regret. I always feel like an imposter when anyone says I'm nice or kind, they are always wrong, I never let anyone see the real me, I just always try and pretend that I have a better life than I do, try to convince myself that I can be happy and live a happy life. So far though, that hasn't happened.