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I recently found out that my girlfriend, Boa Hancock, was cheating on me. It hurt. A lot. I spent two years of my life with her. All that time spent building my relationship with her, and it only took two seconds to destroy it. I saw her making our with Arlong. What was worse was that Arlong was dating Nami, and I am now faced with the decision of weather or not to tell her. I probably should. I know it will hurt her, but it'll hurt her more of I let her go on dating him while he's cheating.

I'm aware that to most of my friends I seem depressed, or in some kind of state of depression. I'm not. I'm just confused. I spend more time to think than I used to. I distance myself more. I only do this because I don't know what else to do. It's as if Hancock was my anchor and without her I'm just floating aimlessly without direction. I need to find which direction to point to.

There are certain people who understand my problem. Zoro, Robin, and Franky understand. Maybe it's because they're  older. Maybe it's because they've been in relationships. Or maybe they don't get it at all and are just pretending to. Whichever one it is, I don't care. It ironic, the ones helping me are the ones doing the least. They don't ask. They don't ask or pry like the others. They don't stress me out and try to make me explain myself.

As I mentioned, in confused. But I'm also figuring out my feelings. Sometimes I miss Hancock. Sometimes I despise her. Sometimes I think I love her still. I'm angry at her a lot. But mostly, I feel heartbroken.

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