{Note :- Please read the Important Note that is an earlier update before proceeding with this update in case you have skipped it.
All characters unless mentioned otherwise are over 16 years of age.

The story picks up directly after Special 8.}

Lan Wangji had been very perturbed when he had gone to Lan XiChen after He had given away the Yin Iron to Uncle Qiren.

He had told Zewu Jun that he had wanted to leave Cloud Reassess in the evening instead of early the next morning.
When Zewu Jun had asked the reason, he had remained silent.
Wangji had never been the one to ask for anything, so now that he had asked for this, Zewu Jun had agreed.

Before Wangji had left Zewu Jun had spoken, "Wei Wuxian left a little while back. If you hurry you may be able to bid him goodbye."

"Not necessary." Wangji had said before walking out the door.

Wangji had missed the sad smile that had played on Lan XiChen's face.

Wangji had gone to the library and after that he had gone to his room.
He had taken out the secret box and removed The Gift. He had stared at it. He had felt his heart go heavy.

He had held The Gift to his chest.
"Wei Ying." He had murmured in the empty room.

He had then put The Gift back safely and gone to his wardrobe. He had taken out a book. The book was in a terrible condition. It looked as if someone had tried to put it back after it had been torn apart into hundreds of pieces.
Wangji had sat with the book in his hands.
He had flipped page after page of the book, his ears had turned red... his hands had trembled slightly... his lips had quivered...his heart had started to pound in his chest... he had started feeling very hot.
When he had flipped through the entire book he had put it back in the wardrobe.
He had changed into dark blue robes. They were simple... devoid of the subtle patterns that distinguished the Lan sect members from other sects. These were the only set he had had that were not completely white or light blue.
The robes did not look like they had belonged to any man of Lan Sect.

He had walked out of Cloud Reassess as the last rays of the sun had left.

He had crossed a few cities to reach Yiling.
He had removed a mask from his robes and worn it before walking towards a beautifully lit street. Only part of his face was visible under the mask.
"The Chun Hua' welcomes you." A beautiful voluptuous woman had said looking at Wangji, when the Light Bearer's feet had stopped in front of the Brothel.

Wangji had hesitated for a few seconds before he had finally entered it.
Wangji had ordered the most beautiful girls and boys to be brought in front of him.
But Wangji had asked for something else.
"I don't want to see their faces." Wangji had said.
"Then... will you select based on their figure?" The Madam had asked.

"No, I should be able to see their eyes and lips." Wangji had clarified.

The madam had understood him. Afterall, a brothel gets many weirdos who make different kinds of requests. Wangji had probably not been the first one to make such a demand.
The madam had presumed that Wangji had been one of them, 'A weirdo'.
She had promptly gone inside to fetch the most beautiful girls and boys.
After a few minutes the girls and boys had the walked outside to stand in front of the young rich master.

Wangji had looked at the girls one by one, neither his heart nor his body had wavered even a little bit at their sight. Then he had turned his eyes towards the boys. None of them had interested him either, that was till he had come across a boy who had a very timid posture. He had not looked up even once. Wangji knew that posture. The boy had not wanted to be selected by Wangji. But as Wangji had continued to look at the timid boy he had felt something deep inside him move.

Wangji had turned to the madam then and asked for that very boy.

The Madam had shown them to a room separate from other rooms.

Wangji had closed the door and sat on the bed.
"Young Master, what do you want from me?" the boy had asked, sounding scared when Wangji had not made any move.

When Wangji had not answered, the boy had tried to come closer.
"No. Don't." Wangji had said without looking up.

"Do you want me to leave then?" The boy had asked sounding relieved.

"No. Don't." Wangji had ordered.
He had then walked towards the boy resolutely.
He had stopped a feet away.

"I want...may I.." Wangji had trailed off looking at the boy's lips.

"Do you want to kiss me young master?" The boy had asked. His eyes had widened.

"No." Wangji had said stepping away once more.
He had turned then and returned to bed.

"Are you going to fuck me young master?" The boy had asked hesitantly.

"Don't use that word." Wangji had said expressionlessly.

"Are you going to make love to me then?" The boy had asked hesitantly.

"I don't love you!" Wangji had bitten out angrily.

The boy had gotten scared and put more more distance between them.

'I scared him.' Wangji had realized.

"No...that's not what I... want." Wangji had said getting flushed.

"Then... what will it be?" The boy had asked sounding relieved and added, "May I?" gesturing at the Wine, The Madam had sent with him.

"I don't drink." Wangji had said resolutely and then as if on an afterthought he had added, "Drink."

"Mn?" The boy had asked getting extremely surprised.

"Drink it... Recklessly...messily." Wangji had said looking intensely at the boy.
The boy had nodded and done exactly as ordered.

A few drops of Wine had clung to the boy's jaw.
When the boy had tried to wipe it away Wangji had stopped him.
"Don't." Wangji had said before he had walked over and kissed the boy's jaw.

The boy had gasped.
Wangji had not stopped. He had pulled the boy closer and hugged him.

"Sto... " The boy had started to say.. but Wangji had closed his mouth with his palm.
"Don't. Talk." Wangji had bitten out.

Wangji had let go and looked at the boy's eyes and lips again and without warning he had put his lips on the young boy's and sucked on the bottom lip.
"Ah!" That boy had moaned before trying to push Wangji away.
Wangji had been stronger, he had pushed the boy against a wall and slid his tongue into the boy's mouth.
"Ammm... " The boy had continued to struggle.
The more the boy had struggled the rougher Wangji had been.
After a few seconds the boy had realized that and had stopped struggling.

Wangji had immediately become gentler. He had pulled the boy closer and broken the kiss.
"I am not.. " The boy had started to talk again.
Wangji had closed the boy's mouth again before starting to suck on the boy's neck.
The boy had completely stopped struggling now, as if he had understood what was about to happen to him.
He had thrown his arms around Wangji and tilted his head ,giving Wangji permission.

"Mine." Wangji had said before picking up the boy and carrying him to bed.

Once on the bed, Wangji had settled on top of the boy and captured his lips. His hands had quickly loosened the top garments and pushed them aside.

Wangji had touched the boy all over his neck and chest and stomach.
'Soft... Smooth... Mine.' Wangji's mind had supplied.

Wangji had deepened the kiss and his hands had gone to the boy's sash holding his lower garments.

But before he had removed it the boy's hand had stopped him.

"Please don't. I can't. Please stop." The boy had said breathlessly.

Wangji felt like he had been doused with ice cold water. He had gotten off the boy immediately.

"What am I doing?" He had asked out loud.
The boy had backed up to sit on the edge of the bed and put his hand on his chest. After a few second when the shock had worn off, the boy had covered himself up.

Wangji had stared at the boy then.
"Sorry." Wangji had said, "That would be all."
The boy had tried to get off but Wangji had spoken again.

"Don't go." Wangji had said.

"Ok."  The boy had agreed hesitantly.

"Can you stay with me a while?" Wangji had asked.

"I am yours... for the night." The boy had answered.

"I don't know.. " Wangji had murmured  before tears had left his eyes and stained his face.

"What do you not know?" The boy had asked innocently.
He had wanted to know why the young master had started crying all of a sudden.
"I am alone. People always leave me." Wangji had said finally.

The boy had come closer and put his hand on Wangji's shoulder trying to comfort him.

Wangji had stiffened but when there was no other movement he had let his guard down and hugged the boy's waist and cried to his heart's content.

"I can never have what I want." Wangji had murmured softly.

Wangji had cried till only dry sobs remained.
The boy had held him through it.
Then the boy had handed over the remaining Wine to Wangji.
Wangji had drunk it.
Wangji had then fallen asleep within 7 seconds.

The boy had let go of Wangji and put him on the bed. Then he had picked up another jar of wine and had it in a go.

The boy had smiled a sad smile and a slight blush had colored his cheeks.

His eyes had fallen on Wangji who had not removed his footwear and was sleeping awkwardly.
"What made you cry like this?" The boy had said removing Wangji's footwear and placing his feet on the bed.

The boy had drunk so much that he had swayed.
He had climbed into the bed next to Wangji and stroked the young Master's face.

"What do you want?" The boy had asked a sleeping Wangji before he had leaned in and kissed Wangji's lips.

The boy had looked at the sleeping young master and hugged him. Pressing himself closer he had kissed the young master again.

Then he had gotten off the bed and walked towards the door.
"Don't go... please.... " Wangji had whispered.
The boy had turned and walked back.
He had gotten in next to Wangji.
The boy had stroked Wangji's cheek again.
Then the boy had removed his top garments completely and loosened Wangji's top garments too.
Wangji has stired in his sleep and slowly opened his eyes.
His eyes had fallen on the boy's lips again.
"You like kissing me don't you?" The boy had asked.
"Mn."
"Kiss me." The boy had said pulling Wangji closer.
And Wangji had done just that.

The boy had reciprocated this time. The kiss had become deeper...more passionate...yet more tender.
The boy's hand had travelled all over Wangji's back and chest.
Wangji had broken the kiss then.
He had looked at the boy innocently.
"Please don't ever leave me." Wangji had said hesitantly... like he had expected the boy to refuse.
"Ok." The boy had said before pulling Wangji close again and kissing his jaw, making his way down the young Master's neck.
Wangji had gasped and held tighter.
No one had ever touched Wangji like that.
The boy had started sucking Wangji's neck.
"Wei Ya.. " Wangji had moaned and thrust his hips between the boy's legs.

The boy had gasped. The boy had clung closer and bitten Wangji's neck hard.
The boy had then pushed Wangji into the sheets and straddled him, running his hands all over Wangji's front and peppered him with kisses.
"Do you want me?" The boy had asked.

Wangji had pulled the boy up and kissed him again.
Suddenly Wangji had broken the kiss and said, "Hold me...sleep... It's 9 pm."

"Ok." The boy had said before Wangji had turned him. His front to the boy's back and hugged him from behind.
Wangji had then peppered the boy's neck with kisses.

The boy had giggled.

Wangji had pinched the boy and then caressed his waist.
"Ah." The boy had moaned and then smiled.

Then he had turned his head and kissed Wangji hard and deep.
The boys had kissed till the kisses had reduced to barely there pecks.
The boys had fallen asleep in each others arms.

Wangji had woken up in a few hours. He had looked at the sleeping boy in his arms.
His eyes had fallen on the marks on the boy's body.
'I hurt you again... Wei Ying...' Wangji had thought still under the effects of alcohol. He had then transferred his spiritual power to the sleeping boy.

He had tried to find the boy's clothes but had been unsuccessful.
He had muttered a 'Sorry' at the boy's back before he had walked out of the brothel in a drunken and dazed state.

At 5 am Wangji had woken up. He had found himself in his jingshin in the same dark blue robes he had worn the day before.
'What did I do last night?....I went to Yiling... But then... '
He had tried to remember the events of the night before but had failed.
'Did I visit the brothel?' He had tried to think hard but nothing had come to his mind.
All he could recall was that he had thought about going to a brothel and take a boy or a girl to bed thinking that that would stop the things he had been feeling for Wei Ying.

But now that he had slept on it he had felt bad that he had actually considering going to a brothel. Because that would have been a mistake.

He had finally understood his heart.
He had realized that he had fallen in love with Wei Ying.
Wangji had been glad that he had not acted on his impulses...he had been glad that he had not been unfaithful.

But the truth was, that Wangji had indeed visited the brothel and he had indeed touched a boy.

{Note :- I realize that it was a sad update and I am sorry . But as I mentioned, everything has it's reasons.
But at least Wangji doesn't remember right... So that's good right... I mean... I am sorry.

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