So on the 24th I had this dream.

I was in New Orleans visiting my dad. I told him Happy Birthday. And he was talking to construction workers about some water leaking problem. And when me and my mom ate leaving. He takes my hand and I look at him. He has tears in his eyes. He looks like he is saying forgive me. Than I wake up.

Wierd right. Anyways today all I could do is feel useless.

I feel useless like I'm nothing. I'm tired of fake love I really am. How could someone just leave me alone. All this time I treat that person as a hero yet I'm nothing. I wish I could hate this person but I CAN'T my heart stops me. I just want this person to love me like I love them yet they don't. You wanted to know. You have an amazing relationship with your dad yet with mine its the complete opposite. When your dad says he loves you to you I could infer its true but when my dad says I love you to me..... It makes me LAUGH becuase honestly I don't know whether to believe him or not. And honestly its tiring I'm tired of not being loved. I'm tired of being nothing to him.

Thats how I felt today. I mean I send HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND WHAT I GET IN RETURN IS THIS

❤
😍😍
Ilove hija Hija= Daughter

Anyways good night/day!