So lets get started with a new episode..
The story of broken trust and lost love : raglak
and ragsan episode 2
Ragi pov:
Omg the great Lakshya somani's request......
attitude guy..... he sent me request how could I
believe...... oh god I am dancing......dancing like
a maniac, I don't know why but it feels good
when somebody whom we have had feelings
proves you that we exist for them...... though I
don't accept the fact that I feel for him can not
suppress the happiness that I am having now.
No wait..... why am I so happy..... he is a
boy..... and these people are not trustable..... I
should just delete his request and block him.....
don't know what his intentions are......what he
is up to.
But but
I don't know why but I could not resist and I
accepted his request.....
This was the first time I went against my
mind...... but my heart do feel a nervousness
about its consequences. Nobody knows what
will I face in my life because of him.
To myself:
It may be because a ray of hope fell on me that
yes I could be in love again......
LOVE what the f*** it is a crap...... how could
you ragu......
Ya I could not fall in love again..... these
relationships and all are just a name sake......
Ragu beware.......
I was then thinking about my flashback with
sanskar........
Flashback______________________________________
Yeah yeah I am in love....... I was dancing like a
maniac..... today he proposed me..... my sanky
proposed me....... Omg..... he is so courageous I
didn't know...... he proposed me in front of my
gang of 18 and many more outsiders who could
not help but to peep inside the circle out of
their curiosity......
Thinking about how he went on his knees and
gave me a rose made me blushed more and
more.....
I remember we met for the first time 2 months
ago on a road accident..... I blurted and
shouted on him, though I realized lately that
the person I was shouting on is so damn hot.....
Though our first meeting was a drastic incident
but gradually with the passage of time I
realized my love.
While thinking all about my first love sleep
conquered me......
It was morning and today I have to go on a
lunch date with sanky..... no my sanky...... oh
how exited I am
I chosed a high waist jeans and a grey crop top
with open hair..... I have a good quality of hairs
and for this award goes to my mother.. she
champi my hairs on every alternate days.....
ugh the smell of that oil isn't bearable though.
I did a light make up with a cherry red lipstick
on my lips and smokey hot eyes..... with black
high heels
Coz its was my first date I was a bit nervous
...... m a sort of introvert girl therefore I was
feeling shy as well.... I am not experienced in
this field..... and to increase my tension my
gang was there..... we are the best gang of our
school though we have had some loop holes....
But among my gang only two were my best
friends sapnu and sid..... though these two mad
people are not talking to me as for the fact they
had two reasons... first I didn't told them about
my feelings before sanskar proposed me... yes
here they had a reason, being a bestie I should
have told them about this but I had a valid
reason to nullify this is the second reason that
they don't like sanky baby...... well
My thoughts were broken by his call.....
Sanky: where are you baby.....
Me: just coming 15 minutes.....
Sanky: okay janu waiting..... muahhh.
Call ended
And I was hell nervous when I reached
there...... my heart was pondering so hard, it
was all ready to explode.
We were in a private garden which was fully
decorated just for me...... ah this feeling "of just
for me"....
There he was with black shirt and grey
brijish...... with sunglasses..... omg looking
damn hot..... his nose is his best part..... I could
take off my eyes from him but I had to because
he caught me when I was staring him so
deeply.He smiled while I blushed.... Ugh why
did I do that?????
Next We chatted..... we had our lunch and then
we just stand to go and there my foot slipped
and I fell backwards.
I closed my eyes..... I was so nervous thinking
that what will he think about me that I could
not even walk properly....... But I was surprised
that why didn't I reached the ground and then
I felt two muscular hands around my waist
holding me tightly.....
Awww the perfect moment...... yes he.... my
sanky saved me....... We had a very deep
eyelock
And then I don't know why why I hugged him,
it seemed that I could not abide the fact that we
were so close just some mm away...... and he
hugged me back within a second...... more and
more tighter........ we could feel each others
heart beat. I am telling you my heart would
have exploded there itself.
I broke the hug as I felt shy thinking about my
action...... but he grabbed my waist and pulled
me towards him...... then I saw him staring at
me...... I was so so much blushing and his touch
made butterflies scroll in my stomach..... he
cupped my face n came closer more closer...... a
bit more towards my lips..... I didn't resisted
but I was nervous// my lips were shivering.... I
closed my eyes coz I felt him coming closer..
But then he made me surprised, He kissed me
on my forehead.. while I was happy about the
fact that he understands me so much.....
But I felt bad for him...... I don't know why but
I got the courage and kissed him there on his
lips.... But I became more nervous and broke it
in a second and tried to go......
But he held my wrist.... And pulled me towards
himself....... I bumped into his chest...... he
chuckled as he stroked my cheeks and made me
look into his eyes.....his eyes bore into mine......
I was sensing he was coming more closer..... we
closed our eyes..... firework seemed to explode
Then our lips met...... we had a liplock which
was slow initially but became passionate with
the passage of time....... We broke this sucking
after 5 minutes not because we were done but
the fact was we were out of air now.. I was
feeling a bit shy opening my eyes......
I opened my eyes and saw him looking deeply
into my eyes...... but I dared to see him and
hide myself in his chest...... he smiled at my
antics.... And said I love you baby
After sometime we went back to our
destinations..... he had to go to his office as he
was a intern and I went back home...
I came to my room and thought about whtever
happened.... I smiled like a maniac..... it was
my first experience..... my first date..... my first
bf..... and my first hug...... and slept while
thinking about him......
Flashback
ended__________________________________________
Thinking about my first love first bf Iwas
crying......
My mind: Why are you crying suhani u hate
that person right
My heart: because first love have a special
place in life..... it was the first time I come
across this feeling...... this feeling is a sort of
remedy to all your problems....... This is the
feeling which makes you understand how you
can also love a person who is not your blood
relative...... yes I accept I cannot forget
sanskar..... he will always hold a special part of
my heart...... but he can never be forgiven also
for what he did to me.....
And see within a second my smile faded and
tears are rolling down thinking about him..... I
threw my clock in my frustration..... yes I
accept I miss him.... My heart is somewhere
empty without him....
A peep sound broke my frustration.
There I saw an unread message..... I opened
it...... yes it was lakshya somani's message...
Laksh: hi
Me: hi [ though initially I didn't want to reply
but he was my classmate so I need to]
Laksh: why are you ignoring me
Me: no its nothing like that....... Shayad I was a
bit busy....
Laksh: okay..... and say what are you doing
Me: nothing..... just solving some maths
question....
Laksh: acha can I ask you a question.....
Me: ya
Laksh: do you have a boyfriend??
Me: no I hate relationships.......
Laksh: okay.... Same I don't have a gf but
unlike u I love relationships....
Me: everbody has their mind set.
Laksh: why are you so stubborn..... and
serious.... Be fun loving...... u have so much of
attitude
Me: no sorry..... its nothing like that....
Laksh: no its okay......
Me: okay bye
Laksh: okay bye tc gn sd
Our chat ended....... After that day we didn't
chated again....... I didn't want to get close to
anyone.... Neither I had trust on anyone nor
my heart was free to love because I think I still
love sanskar
though i didnt understood what i really want
but he always use to sit next to me in maths
class for months.... I pay no heed to his
presence and avoided him as much as I
could..... I was so confused and messed up with
my feelings... whenever I start thinking about
laksh, face of sanskar comes with his betrayal.
we didn't interacted much...... may be he
understood that I am ignoring him......
but my bechara sa heart wanted something
else..... yes I started to feel for him like I used
to feel for sanskar...... but I didn't had courage
to come uo and accept the fact though I still
feel something for sanskar......
the day came when I understood my feelings
for him
christmas eve..it was 11:55 i got his message
hy dear happy Christmas...
i was suprised coz as much as i know him he
never talked to anyone like this...
i said same to you and we chatted on some
various topics like first time I saw him flirting
and there came a topic on which something
special happened....... it was like:
laksh: I am a man and a bloke so nobody could
reject me.
Me: oh really you and a man.... Hhaa u r boy
lakshya
Laksh: don't laugh I hate you.
Me: whatever
[Though that I hate you pinched me but I
didn't react]
Laksh: so go out in this cold whether.
Me: what??
Lakh: as your punishment girl.
Me: huh you go why should i??
[and i was smiling and laughing there on his
cute talks in a........ dark room hiding all my
fears
he was making me feel as if i really exist
and he replied just one thing and gave me such
a happiness which i could not feel in that past
1and half year]
Laksh: chal okay TOGETHER FOREVER.....??
what say
Together FOREVER....... What does he wanted to
say....
i was sitting there smiling and blushing having
goose bumps all over the body.... i felt that as if
he would propose me the next very moment.....
but suddenly he went offline....
I was sad that he went without bidding me bye
next day he apologised to me for the whole
chat because he was drunk and because he
have a crush on me and therefore couldn't
control and sent these sort of text to me
but it was now clear that he don't love me at
least not fo know...
after that 8 months passed we didn't chatted or
interacted for a single time..... may be his guilt
was not allowing him to make a way through
and say a HI to me..... and I was angry on him
so I would also not do it..... though I still feel
for him
today I had my competitve exam to enter in CA
course...... i came out being happy for i thought
i would pass and just thenwe crossed each
other..... after so many months he gained up
courage and smiled..... i did the same and we
went on searching for our parents who were
waiting outside the examination hall
that night he messaged me you forgotten me??
and i replied no no how could I forgot you....
it was the happiest moment for me literally....
but a sense of insecurity pinched me.
and we chatted till 2 but this time we shared a
lot about each other.
we have to end it as I was feeling sleepy
For 2 months we chatted regularly and there
came 23 july my result date
It was the night of 22 july
i was feeling nervous so i decided to go
online...... and talk to him because I know
though I had trust issues he is the only one
whom I share everything and feel complete
with.
there he was active but i dared to even say a hi
may be it was my ego or whatever but the
conflict of thoughts between me ended as i
heard a pop sound on my phone
yes it was his message with good wishes for me
and i also wished him
may be i wanted myself to be his lucky
charm.....
the whole night I didn't let him sleep and as a
best friend he knew he has to be with me as I
was hell nervous.......
The most dreaded day was here our results
were declared and yes we both cleared...... he
was definitely a bit more intelligent than
me....... Uh..... I am not feeling jealous rather I
should be proud of him he was the ranker of
my city Mumbai......
Days rolled by happily as I knew he just have a
crush on me so I didn't shared my feelings with
him.
May be that was a secondary reason......
primarily I could not also forget sanskar.
But a ray of hope was always there that may be
he will also love me some day...... and may be I
would dissolve sanskar's every memory then.
Ugh...... some day???????? But when
My friends knew about my love interest so they
just use to tease me up and as always I use to
ignore them while blushing and hiding my
smile...... hiding from whom my friends him or
myself ? I could not answer this question uptill
now.......
But everything has to get itself changed it's a
rule of nature......
There he met a girl from our classes and made
her his best friend I really felt jealous . I could
not share him with anyone. I thought him to be
just mine but this was not the end and soon
their rumors of being in a relationship started
to take a road...... on a road which was made
out of sacrifice of my love.......
I tried to console myself saying its just a rumor
man its okay
It was my birthday...... he offcourse was the
first person to wish me as I was his bestie and I
felt too happy even though this is a small
designation given to me in his life and that was
the time I gained courage and asked whats
going on are u in a relationship
And he denied....... I was so happy but soon a
thought took over this happiness that may be
he is lying.....
A month passed by and the day which I really
wanted to disappear from my memories
came......
He made his relationship public. Ya he was in a
relationship.. he lied to me, I thought I was his
bestie..
I was shattered I could not take it anymore
I lost my love again...... I cried and cried and
cried and I cursed aashi for taking my laksh
away from me
But soon I realized was he really my laksh......
Whenever I used to see them with together
being happy I wished that I wanted to be that
girl...... I could not resist crying...... but I didn't
came in between because I wanted laksh to be
happy always. I loved him truly and I wanted
him to be happy. I don't have any grudges on
him because he never said he loved me.
There was only one question in my mind that
even though I came in his life first then why
did she took him away from me........
But I realized that love is not about begging or
stealing it's a feeling
It may remain one sided some times
"Ishq saccha vahi jisko milti nahin manzelien
Rang tha noor tha jab karib tu tha"
I stopped talking to him from that day....... But I
want to keep him with me as a sweet memory..
because I know now I could not love anyone
just because my love is my sweet memory now
From last 6 years we..... laksh and me just have
two topics to message either it's a birthday or
any special occasion .......
He messaged me many time with intention to
talk to me but I couldn't reply because I don't
wanna become weak and I don't want to
undergo emotional breakdown again...... and
again talking to him and killing myself because
now there is no hope for me that he may ever
love me.....I just want him to be in my
memory.. memory which now affect me so
much.. these memory help me to overcome the
memories of betrayal that sanskar gave me... I
wanted to stop myself from thinking about
sanskar but off course I couldn't do that he was
my first love.. we had some special memories..
Yes I just have one shikwa with him that he
didn't bid a good bye to me........
.
.
Present
It's a bright and a beautiful morning...... first
day of my job after being a CA now its CA
ragini maheshwari
Without laksh somani and sanskar inani
around me... but yet in my memories.
laksh is now with his another love I think her
name is shanaya but whateve I don't care.....?
really?
Yes I do care yr I still love him I love him to
the eternity
My love has always increased for him there is
not a single day in these 6 years when I did not
cried for him...... as he is my happy memory
because he never gave me pain as sanskar
did..... I always remember him when I a find
myself alone n lonely...... but I don't want laksh
in my life because I know he would not love
me and that will break my heart more
Though we don't have much memories but jitni
bhi hai muje encourage karne ke liye kafi
hai.....
Now again I started thinking about him...... ah
Paas aaye..
Dooriyaan phir bhi kam naa hui
Ek adhuri si hamari kahani rahi
Aasmaan ko zameen, ye zaroori nahi
Jaa mile.. jaa mile..[ thinking about how I fell
in love with him but still could not tell him.....
the love I am having for him could never be
reciprocated......]
Ishq saccha wahi
Jisko milti nahi manzilein.. manzilein..
[ thinking about my broken trust, lost love and
the love which never faded in these years.......]
Rang thhe, noor tha
Jab kareeb tu tha
Ek jannat sa tha, yeh jahaan
Waqt ki ret pe kuch mere naam sa
Likh ke chhod gaya tu kahaan [ thinking about
our first hug..... though it was a friendly 1 but
still it holds half of my heart..... thinking about
how we use to chat and how I was happy
within my small world that I made with him ]
Though I didn't expected too much from him.....
but whatever it is if we love someone than
automatically we want that person to
reciprocate to the love which we had given to
him.......
Hamari adhuri kahani..
Hamari adhuri kahani [I am smiling and crying
bitterly..... he has always been a sweet memory
for me, a memory which made me what I am
today]
Beep beep..... my alarm clock grasp my
attention.... omg
Oh I forgot I am getting late for my office
ummmmm....... I started getting ready
[ authors note: there she is miss ragini...... with
full attitude on face.... A bold look
Wearing a see green translucent cotton shirt on
a grayish black brijish cum trouser with black
moccasins that made her look bolder and a hot
red lipstick..... with her hair tied in a bun made
her look damn hot
She was selected in one of the top companies as
their CA and CS among 20 CA}
I reached office in my car......
There I was allotted my cabin and I couldn't
believe what I saw......
Guess what she saw......
Precap: the person whom ragini saw..... who
can be the person...... why did he came......
what he is doing there...... he is sanskar or
laksh..... a shocking revelation....... raginis
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