Dear Diary,

He always finds a way to take me back.

It had been a very long time since Yoongi last had the chance to relax and not feel like he was going to be hurt. It was such a nice feeling. He really enjoyed being at Namjoon's house. He had been introduced to a small fish that lived in a decorated tank in Namjoon's bedroom. Of course, Yoongi had felt uncomfortable entering the bedroom, so he'd just stood in the doorway as Namjoon went to the tank to feed the fish.

"This is Styx. He's my buddy." Namjoon said with a wide grin.

"Sticks?" Yoongi didn't understand the reasoning behind such a name until Namjoon spoke again.

"Fish Styx." Namjoon couldn't resist laughing as he said that. It brought him satisfaction and joy to see a tiny smile grace Yoongi's lips.

Unfortunately, their time together didn't last much longer. Yoongi got a text from Hoseok that made his blood run cold. Staring at his phone as he saw the name on the screen, he knew he was in trouble. Fear filled him. What was Hoseok going to do? How angry was he? Why was he angry?

"Hyung? Is everything okay?" Namjoon cautiously stepped over to Yoongi, hoping nothing was wrong, but he could tell by the way his expression changed that something was definitely not right.

Not taking his gaze away from his phone, Yoongi cleared his throat before speaking."Hoseok texted me." He opened the text and felt like all the color just drained from his face."Oh my god..." In the text was a video. Yoongi was scared to watch it. What had Hoseok sent to him?

Namjoon didn't know what to say as he watched Yoongi tap the screen, sound coming next. The sounds that came from that video sent a mixture of feelings through Namjoon, none of them good.

Yoongi stared at the video in horror for a few more seconds before pausing it, a hand covering his mouth in shock. Another text appeared below it.

"Hyung..." Namjoon was afraid of what was happening. The sounds from that video were massively inappropriate, moans and skin-slapping. It sounded like a full-on porno but with voices he recognized.

Upon reading the new text, a new sort of dread fell over Yoongi."I have to go home." He couldn't stay here, no matter how much he didn't want to leave."Are my clothes ready? I have to go."

"Hyung, what happened? That video he sent you..." Namjoon took a step closer to Yoongi but felt hurt when the shorter guy backed away from him.

"Hoseok has a camera in the bedroom." Yoongi almost couldn't even say those words."He recorded...our sex." Getting so upset over this, he felt like vomiting."He said he'll post it online if I don't go home. Namjoon, I really don't want strangers to see that. I have to go back to him. If he posts that..."

Namjoon reached out and grabbed Yoongi's shoulders."Hyung, look at me." When Yoongi looked at him, Namjoon knew he had to do something about this. He had to try even harder to get Yoongi out of this situation."We'll find a way to get through this. I promise. Go back to him for now, but be careful. I'll do all that I can to find a way to free you from him."

"I'm scared." Yoongi admitted, though it was obvious.

"I know. Maybe you can try to figure out where the camera is. Cover it up, but make it look like an accident." Namjoon suggested."Or just avoid it." Then, he got an idea."Or take it. Bring it to me."

That caused Yoongi to tense up and widen his eyes."What? I can't do that. He'll get so mad."

Namjoon knew the risk, but he also knew how much that could help them."But the camera has proof on it. If he's been recording everything in the bedroom, it probably has footage of when he..." He couldn't finish that sentence. He didn't want to hurt Yoongi with his words."You know...I-it's evidence." If he could get that camera, he could get his hands on the evidence of Hoseok raping Yoongi."And don't delete that text. It's also evidence. It proves that he's blackmailing you."

"I'll keep the text, but..." Yoongi lowered his gaze to the phone in his hands."I don't know if I can get the camera. If he catches me trying to find it..." He didn't even want to think of the consequences.

Letting out a soft sigh, Namjoon knew he was asking for a lot from Yoongi. He needed to tone it down."You're right. Sorry. Don't do anything that might put you in danger. We'll find another way." How else could he get his hands on that evidence? What other evidence could they get? Surely, this text wouldn't be enough to rescue Yoongi from his horrible situation. It could maybe prove to Hoseok's friends that everything they'd been told was a lie, but what if they still didn't believe that Hoseok was an abuser? After all, there were apps that could be used to create fake texts. Besides, Namjoon doubted Yoongi would be okay with the others seeing that video, which was basically a sex tape.

"Please just get my clothes. I have to go before Hoseok gets angrier at me." Yoongi really didn't want to be rude, but he couldn't just stand around and discuss plans right now. He had to return home before Hoseok would lose his temper. If Hoseok lost his temper, things would not turn out well at all for Yoongi.

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By the time Yoongi got back home with his car, he knew Hoseok must be fuming mad. He'd received another text, asking what was taking him so long. He'd only texted back to say that he was on his way. When he entered the house, it was eerily quiet."Seokie..?" Yoongi called out with utmost caution. His heart was pounding so hard that he thought it would break his ribs. Making his way through the house, Yoongi peeked into each room, looking for Hoseok. He soon found him in the bedroom, just sitting on the bed."I, uh...I'm home..."

"Come here." Hoseok commanded, patting the spot on the bed beside him."I have something for you. A couple things, actually."

Shakily, Yoongi approached the bed and seated himself next to Hoseok."Yes, Seokie..?"

Hoseok smirked devilishly."You don't get things that easily, Hyung. Give me a kiss first." He knew Yoongi hated kissing him. Hell, he was completely aware that Yoongi was revolted by him, but that was something that made this even more fun for Hoseok.

Yoongi knew that he shouldn't disobey. Leaning in, he pecked Hoseok's lips."I-is that good?"

"Are you sorry for what you've done today?" Hoseok was entirely unamused, in a very bad mood.

"Yes, Seokie." Yoongi didn't know why Hoseok was mad at him, but he would be sorry anyway."I'm sorry."

"Hm." That answer didn't satisfy Hoseok."I don't think you are." Pulling something out from beneath the blanket, he revealed something he'd hidden."I think I need to make you sorry."

Yoongi's eyes grew wide with fear at the sight of the knife."S-Seokie, please..."

"Hold out your arm." When Yoongi didn't comply, Hoseok narrowed his gaze and pointed the blade at his smaller boyfriend."Hold. Out. Your. Arm."

Despite his fear, Yoongi did as he was told, terrified of the knife that was in Hoseok's hand."Please don't..." he pleaded."Please..."

Rolling up Yoongi's sleeve, Hoseok looked at the healing cuts on his forearm."How cute. You like the pain I give you so much that you've begun to do it yourself." Pressing the blade to Yoongi's skin, Hoseok made a shallow cut, hearing his boyfriend whimper."Such a little slut for pain." He made another cut, licking his lips as he saw dots of blood form and escape.

Yoongi wanted to pull away and run, but he was too scared. If Hoseok was willing to do this, what would he do if Yoongi tried to run from him while he held that knife?"I'm sorry..." Yoongi whined out as tears stung his eyes while more shallow cuts were made."I'm sorry, Seokie..."

"I don't know why you're acting like I'm hurting you." Hoseok played innocent, even with the knife in his hand."I'm not hurting you. You're hurting yourself, you self-harming freak." Since Yoongi had already harmed himself, Hoseok could use that to his advantage. If Yoongi tried to show these cuts to anyone, Hoseok could lie and say that Yoongi did it to himself.

"Please...Please stop...Seokie please..." Yoongi broke down into begs as he started to cry."I'm so sorry..."

"Well, since you're being good, I'll go easy on you and give you the second thing I prepared for you." Hoseok pulled out another item from beneath the blanket, handcuffs."Haven't you always wanted to try something a bit more kinky? I know you have." Not caring about the blood coming from Yoongi's cuts now, Hoseok was ready to move on."Strip. Now."

Yoongi couldn't disobey. He stood and pulled off his clothes, tossing them into the hamper, so as to not anger Hoseok more by leaving them on the floor. Once he was nude, he didn't resist as Hoseok grabbed his wrists and cuffed them behind his back. He was in fear of what was coming.

"Sit on the bed, back against the headboard." Hoseok instructed. He watched with pleasure as Yoongi did what he was told."Spread your legs and bend your knees. Let me see it all."

It was so humiliating for Yoongi to do this, yet he did it. He had no choice. Sitting on the bed against the headboard with his body on full display, Yoongi felt mortified when he saw Hoseok pull out his phone. He wanted to disappear as his abusive boyfriend started taking pictures.

"You know, I think something's missing from this." With a sadistic smirk, Hoseok knew exactly what he wanted."Smile, Yoongi-baby. If you smile like a good little slut, I'll take off the handcuffs, and we'll get some sleep."

Smile? How was Yoongi supposed to smile in this situation? He didn't like this even the slightest bit. It was humiliating and awful. His arm hurt, the fresh cuts stinging. Tears were still staining his cheeks, but he knew he had to do this. With force, he managed to make his lips pull into a crooked smile.

That was good enough for Hoseok."Aw, I knew you'd enjoy this." Taking one last picture, Hoseok was pleased."Alright. I'll take off the handcuffs."

Once the handcuffs were removed, Yoongi tried to get off the bed, but Hoseok grabbed his arm."C-can I tend to my arm..?" he asked shakily.

"No. Lay down." Hoseok moved the handcuffs and knife to the dresser and turned off the light. Climbing onto the bed, he snuggled against Yoongi. He waited for everything to get silent before he spoke again, wanting his words to sink into Yoongi's brain."You better not be caught at Namjoon's house ever again."