"The party was mine." Eyes blown wide as he stares at the elder boy, Renjun purses his lips. "It wasn't anything awfully planned towards you guys, honestly."

"I literally hosted it for fun, Haechan was bugging me about it anyway. Decided to go back to my old ways when... You know." Renjun hesitates to specifically mention his past relationship.

"We didn't know Jeno and his friends were going to be there." Renjun added, and from his voice thanks to being friends with him for years, Jaemin knows he is being honest.

This is the moment both of them will be honest towards each other. No more hiding anything.

"Patrine wasn't in a good state and she needed a getaway, Amy went with her if anything happens... Jeno said Amy called him for backup because Patrine was totally out of it." Jaemin manages to mumble.

Renjun nods briefly as he listens carefully, for once in a long time he isn't interrupting and is actually letting the other person speak, finish their words before assuming.

"Jeno didn't cheat on you." He begins to say, bringing the main problem back that has Jaemin tense up for a reason.

Keeping quiet, Renjun takes that as his cue to continue and tell Jaemin everything.

"I was drunk–"

The first three common words has Jaemin clenching his jaw, an uneasy feeling in him to which Renjun notices but understands.

He guesses negative thoughts are already filling Jaemin's head.

"Haechan and I... We made out–" now this was a shocker to Jaemin. Although he jokes about his two friends ending up together in the future, he didn't expect it to be now.

"It was unexpected, and I'm still confused about it. It was just a messy situation, main point is we shouldn't have been drunk when it happened." Renjun sadly smiles.

"I pulled away first and got emotional– I got scared because it's been a long time since my last love life, I didn't know how it felt and it was just a lot to take in."

"Jeno was in the bathroom where I was headed planning to hide in there. He asked me what was wrong and..."

‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾flashback☽༓･*˚⁺

"Injun?" Jeno's face is full of concern when he opens the door and was face to face with a teary Renjun.

His ex boyfriend looks so fragile right now, it hurts him.

Despite their messed up relationship, they've recently been talking in secret– Renjun begged him to not say anything about their meetups.

Obviously Jeno understands, people will gossip about it immediately. They both want to be more exposed if everything is ok.

Not when it's still a little awkward and in a midst of process.

They've been trying to reconcile since they got paired up with each other. And truthfully, Jeno is so happy to be friends with his ex boyfriend again.

He is all for good terms.

So instinctively, he rushes to Renjun's aid and pulls him in the bathroom locking the door so no one could disturb them.

Hugging his ex boyfriend tightly, he listens as Renjun explains to him what happened, hiccups and sniffles filling in the bathroom.

"I like him, Jen..." He sobs, soaking Jeno's neck. "But I'm so lost... I just– it's been so long since I liked someone after you."

"I know, Junnie..."

"And it's scary, because Haechan is special to me but then we just made out– drunk! He probably doesn't realize or will remember this."

"He might not even liked it, forgetting about it as if it was nothing. But to me... Jen– to me–"

Jeno rubs his back soothingly, trying to calm him down with his breathing. "It's okay, I understand, Jun."

Pulling away to look at Renjun's puffy face, he flashes him a sad smile. "I felt the same way with Jaemin..."

"I was scared too, Jun. I didn't want to waste it– I really wanted it to work because he made me feel so loved despite what other people say about me."

"I didn't show it much, but truly, everytime Jaemin goes home I feel like the next morning he will push me away along with what we had."

Renjun sniffles and reaches a finger to wipe Jeno's tear trailing down his own cheek, the brunet boy didn't even notice he was crying too.

"We're both fucked up. Toxic bitches like everyone else says." They share a laugh, bitter just like the drink Renjun had earlier.

Jeno keeps him close, being there for him as they hide in the bathroom. Massaging Renjun's tensed neck that suddenly had him moaning.

Sharing another look, they snicker quietly, knowing fully well that harmless sound echoing in the bathroom walls will surely be talked about in school.

"You should talk to Haechan..."

Renjun shakes his head at the idea, "not now..." And he's so thankful for Jeno's understanding nature when all he does is kiss his cheek.

"I'll keep you updated then."

Renjun nods this time, knowing what Jeno meant. The brunet boy will stay in the middle and talk to both boys.

He will try his best for this... Whatever Renjun and Haechan have to work.

‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾End of Flashback☽༓･*˚⁺

"Both Haechan and I have been avoiding each other," Renjun purses his lips. "I talk to Jeno privately to ask for help, hence we hide in rooms far away from eavesdroppers."

"And the moaning part is so stupid for them to assume anything sexual," Renjun rolls his eyes at that.

"Besides, Jeno is not the type of person to go behind anyone's back." Harshly stating that has Jaemin gulping.

"He doesn't even go back to his boyfriends that easily, especially with shit like that." Renjun quotes with his fingers. "Not like they were actually his boyfriends, they treat him like a toy."

Jaemin bites his inner cheek before inhaling sharply. "Why... Why did he keep these things from me?"

Hearing his quiet tone, Renjun frowns and scoots closer on the bench. "He didn't want to, but I kept begging him because you're always out in the open, anyone can hear you."

"And I was still ashamed of it that I didn't want you to know."

"That my two friends have feelings for each other?" Jaemin teases with a light chuckle.

Renjun rolls his eyes again and weakly punches him on the arm, "friends?" Raising a brow, trying not to be hopeful.

But when Jaemin gives him a nod, he felt like some weights have been pushed off his shoulders, making him breath more calmly.

"I'm really sorry for what happened, Jaem." Renjun sighs, "after our last encounter, Haechan and I talked and realized you guys were right... We were just holding a grudge and being petty assholes."

Jaemin reassures him it's all fine now, he can see it. Renjun and Haechan are changing in a good way.

"I'm sorry too, I got insecure and shit, paranoid what they said was true because I wasn't there... For once." He smiles bitterly.

"Now... About Jeno..."

"Oh," Renjun blinks at him. "I suggest to listen to him and give you guys some space, until your heads are more clear."

When Jaemin frowns in disappointment, Renjun purses his lips and pats his shoulder. "Jeno loves you, trust me. He's just doing this for a good reason, and he isn't wrong."

"Gosh, I hurt him... I didn't mean to."

"He knows." Renjun gently says, "that's why he didn't break up with you. Just needed a breather."

"Jeno dislikes assumptions. You know he is also paranoid and insecure about it like you."

"Must've why he got offended when I assumed the rumors were true." Jaemin chuckles sarcastically to himself. "I should've listened."

"Cheer up, Jaem. It won't be long until you two are okay again," Renjun drapes an arm around his shoulder.

"I suggest you do the first move, Jeno's secretly shy." Flashing him a teasing wink.

Jaemin laughs and nods nonetheless. "I want to see him though."

"It's been minutes and you're already love sick." Renjun exaggerates, faking a gag.

"Don't act like you're not as well, Haechan is literally right around the corner." Jaemin barks back that results his friend to flush.

"Shut up."

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Thoughts??

Yay they're friends again :D

But nooo Renhyuck is going through shit :((