Elisa's POV

I'm a stitch away from making it.

After the time that I found out that I'm already a mom, I felt that certain happiness that I never felt before. Specially that Patrick's got to be the father of this angel. I am really happy, but after that, I never feel anything but pain.

I'm in vain for leaving Patrick. And worst, he don't even got a chance to know what I'm suffering of. Or he don't even know that he's already a dad. I know God won't accept me in heaven if I continued to make secrets but its for their sake. My baby and Patrick's.

Last night, I just collapsed and I'm so lucky that I still get this strength to go out and take a walk with Sophie. My knees are trembling and I get this weakness in my chest. My tummy swells and my eyes were really sore.

I walked through the garage, where Sophie was standing there, looking worried at me. I smiled weakly as I felt my tummy grumbled again. I looked down to my tummy.

Angel, please don't be so mad at me okay?

I walked next to Sophie and she smiled. She took the keys out from her pocket and opened the car's door for me. I smiled as show of my gratitude and then she just shrugged.

I sat down, lay my head in the headboard. I looked at her in my peripheral vision and she was really having troubled thoughts.

Two more weeks. More less days with Patrick.

"H-hey," I stuttered, not audible enough for Sophie. I just shrugged the thoughts away. This pain really demands itself to be felt. But this is really hard for me. I can't have the guts to see anyone sad in my zone. I know I'm so selfish to keep it for Patrick, but, I really wish I just could make it through with all these secrets.

As Sophie was driving in to the horizon, I was just staring at the moving blankness. I can't picture anything in my mind right now. Just Me, my secrets, my pain, Sophie and Patrick. Are they gonna be fine to the way I wanted? The way that I'm gonna disappear in their lives? And this baby...

The whole house was completely silent. Sophie left me because I ordered her to go to Patrick, so he could visit me if he's not that busy. I know I owe favor to the girl a lot. But I know she's willing to help. Specially to what she have heard.

I've been keeping this thing since I became a model. Its more exhausting to hold, but I keep pushing it away. I need to live with this challenge in my head. I need to fight this cancer.

When I looked around the room, the room that Patrick and I did the thing. The thing that I never regret. At least, I found the man that I really love. The man that who could stick up with my imperfections and who could see me as I am. He's such a gentleman, and so adorable. His looks are so charming and I can't just look for it for the whole time because.. I will miss him. Also my best friend. Tiffany Sophia Blews.

I picked my cellphone in the back of my pillow, just to call my ob-gyne. I need to confirm this specific thing that I have in my mind. This is for the sake of the baby.

"Hello?" The other line greeted, it was my personal doctor and luckily, she's also an ob-gyne specialist.

"Uhm Dr. Brown!" I greeted with all enthusiasm that I might. She chuckles when she remembered my voice and let down a sigh.

"Elisa... I heard what happened to you last night." She warned me. I took a very deep sigh.

"And that's why I'm up to call you." I trailed off through the cellphone, hugging the soft pillow next to me.

"I would like to consult you about my baby." I said that made her sigh in the other line. She's really important person to me that I almost call her mom. She looks at me in the same way. She treats me like her own child.

"Could I do anything just to save this baby?" I cried.

"There's a thing that I should've told you last night Elisa."She mumbled through the phone.

" what's it?" I asked her and she just sighed in response.

"Just come in my clinic tomorrow, just bring your best friend with you if she wanted to help you with this mission." She said and I sobbed harder. Another reason for me to beg Sophie's help.

"Hey Sophie," I mumbled and she pulled over. She looked at me and checked my forehead. I weakly pat her shoulder and smiled.

"Would you give me a last favor?" I asked her and then she smiled. The sweet smile that I would really miss.

"What's it?" She asked me and I smiled. I hugged her and I cried again. I'm tired for being weak. I'm tired to beg for another favor but its no use if I'm just keeping this for myself.

"Please let's go to the ob gyne fast, the doctor was waiting for us already." I said and looked away, I never wanted to be emotional. I'm really tired and I really hope to pass away from any of this.

She pulled at the driveway, I opened the door with all of my strength but I really can't do it. Please. Just make me do this last mission and God you could take me where you ever wanted me to.

The patients was in the waiting room and I am really thankful that I made an appointment with her. My personal doctor has many tasks to do but she always put me first. Specially that I'm really in need.

My throat suddenly became itchy, it was like I am going to puke. My tummy became so sour, its like my tummy was reaching for my throat that urges me to puke. The acid in my tummy grew so strong that makes me shake my head rapidly, causing my saliva to bubble up a little inside my mouth and I think, I really need to puke.

"Eli are you okay?" Sophie asked me, her eyebrows were slowly colliding to each other and I really want to resist that I'm fine. But then I suddenly wrap my arms around my stomach, searched for the nearest trash can.

"Ugh." I retched, spilling all of the acid in the trash can so that I could empty my stomach. I really feel so disgusted, but the exhaustion became abundant to my system so i suddenly fell to the ground.

"Elisa, it will be fine. Just go to your ob and then well be home. I promise, I will take care of you." Sophie sat down in my level, I sobbed.

"Thank you Sophie." I sighed as I stand up, hugged her and wrapped my arms in her shoulder. When I wrapped it, she seemed to understand so she walked, and when she walked carefully to the blank hallway, the colors in my eyes were slowly fading away.

***

"Hey," she greeted, I saw her in the other bed and also wearing a hospital gown. She was lying there, she has dextrose in her hands.

"Uhm, what happened?" I asked her with all the voice that I might, she smiled.

"The baby was already here in me," she said and flashed her alluring heartwarming smile.

"H-how did it happened?" I stuttered, she looked at the blank ceiling.

"You know what, we better sleep now, its a tiring process by the way." She uttered.

"Oh... Okay," I said as I shut my whole system down, I'm really weak. I need to space out for a while to think about how am I gonna die in a not painful way.

(Thank you for reading!)