........
........ Its pouring cats and dogs...and they are  fully drenched..
Driving the army jeep furiously speedily....

They were out as they got an inkling of a few local spies.... Some addresses and clues of where the infiltrators might be....

He was eyeing her continuously... As its her mistake because of which they have got in this situation
........
A few hrs before.....
They were in a remote area nwar pokharan.......in a deserted palace...

"lt singh.... I said get in the jeep...."

Just a minute sir.... Yaha kuch naklee passports and transmission set ups he... Hame is area me kuch der aur rukna chahiye.. "

She stubbornly refused to heed him...as they were stuck unarmed in a potentially risky area.....

"naina.. We are unarmed.. Aur yaha pe rukna khatre se khali nahi he.... We can't arrest them in this state....."

"yes... But we can at least find some clues here..." she ignored his cautionary statement..... And carried om her work... Until they heard a gun shot
He fired in response only to find themselves in a trap....

"sirji... Ye. Do fauji he yahi pe... Chaan been karrahe he...."

"nikaaal salon ko bahar.."

They were tied up.... To the chairs in no time...

And there were about 5 armed men
Standing around them...

"kya karna he... In. Logon ka...."

"karna. Kya he... Boss ke. Aane tak. Ruko..."

"me to bolta hun... Is fauji ko uda dete he..... Aur is ladki ko leke chlte he... Raat ko adde pe..."

He was eyeing them with bloodshot eyes... As  they started to untangle naina.....

Just as she protested... And kicked one of them in the balls....

" sali haram zaadi.. "

All their focus went on her...and at the very moment..... Rajveer got hold of a knife lying on the floor the thumb of his foot....

And calmly severed all the knots and got hold of the gun...

A gun shot...

Blood dripping from. The  shoulder...

" run..."

"no i can't leave you in this state.."
Dimaag kharab he tumhara...

"beech raste me saath chodna aap ki aadat he sir... I m not leaving you in here..."

He said trying to collect him to stand up properly.....
"lo shuru ho gaye laila majnu...."

One pointed gun at naina....
And other at rajveer..

"bhoon de salon ko....."the man ordered....

But.... On one kicck on solar plexus.... And he was knocked on ground....

" good move... "rajveer  said..
And winked at her..... Snatching the gun....while she disarmed the other guy....

soon they were all able to escape........

Driving super fast....

" your hand.... We should stop somewhere... And get it looked at... "

" just shut up...."

But.... As they drove further.....

It started pouring heavily....

They Are in silence... Often eyeing each other from peripheral vision...

She is concerned.. As his wound might get septic..... But.... He is adamantly driving..... Real fast..... Jerking around.....making her uncomfortable on the seat.

"stop... I said stop the jeep..... Major rajvver sheekhawat.."

"what..."

She indicated towards the lodge by the road side....
And he knew there was no other option but to listen.....

****, ***

She is dressing his wound in the hotel room....

Not once are his eyes meeting hers.... Neither is she taking any effort to look at him....

As she notices thar he has to take his singlet off to tend to rest of his wound
*****from here it is written by mahaam di.... *****

.Windows are banging
And sky is threatening with it's lightning
It's raining anger....from the sky

She is doing his bandage.....
Silent and looking scary.

He is now and then watching her trying to check her mood.

Her slightly damp hairs....due to rain
Her moist skin....
Her clothes which are wet enough to highlight her curves.

And this proximity
Her blows on his skin.
Her care as she is nursing his wound

Her finger tips occasionally touching him.

He is unable to control his adrenaline rush

She is sitting strict
And he is examining her facial expressions.

As she was wrapping the cotton bandage...
Few hair strands came dancing on her face without invitation....
Making it irritable

He saw her struggle with hairs strands on face....
And he felt an urgent need to do the honour

He raised his hand and arrested those strands for trespassing and sent then back behind her ears....

She went for a mini pause....
Her heart beat raised....
Feeling his touch
And this intimate action ....
Only he is allowed to do this.
Had there been any other man ... He would have been kissing ground....
But he was always allowed to do whatever he pleases...

To love her.... To leave her... To marry someone else.... She smiled sarcastically at the thought.... That she is currently sitting with a married man.... In a hotel room.... Pining for him....

"kya hua..."

He asked quite amused.... What could have made her smile....

"kuch nai.... Ye dressing ho gai he..... Once the weather is a little okay.... We can leave..."

She went off to dispose the soiled cotton.....

And he was busy calculating her reaction....
A weird silence between them as she sits and dries herself near the fire place.... Reminding him of a similar night ... Where there was no one but just a tranquility... And two people.....

His heart beats picking pace...

Just as his phone rang....

She got up to hand him over the phone.... But as she saw the name on the screen... Reality hit her hard like a hammer...

"nandini mam ka phone he... She must be worried about you.... I am sorry... To have dragged you in this situation..... Away from her....." she didn't realize when her tone got so sarcastic and venomous.....

He took the phone.... And disconnected the call....

" you should probably take it...."she remarked again....

" its okk.... I will speak later with her..... Tum batao.... How have u been.... All these years.... "

She smiled...

" a little less fantastic than you were....i   am really happy for you.... Nandini mam aur aap ek sath bohot khush lagte he..."

"tumhari zindagi me bhi to naye logon ne apni jagah bana li he..... I mean... You can also think of settling down now.... Abhi is a nice guy..." he replied back with same biting sarcasm..... "now that there is nothing standing in between you two...."

she got up from the bed.... Glaring angrily at him..

"aap kehna kya chahte he..there was no such thing between me and abhimanyu sir...."
"yaa right..." he spat again....

And once again nandini calls...

"haan nandini.."

"yaa... Weather kaharab hone ki. Wajah se... I have to stop somewhere... Kal subha tak... Nahi... M ok...yaa..i ll call u back"

He disconnects the call.... And calls the room service to order some food... As they both are exhausted and starving...

"aap mere aur abhimanyu sir ke bare me esa kese soch sakte he.."
She again restarted the topic... Not being able to gulp the fact that he is the one accusing her...

"kyun nahi... Usme kya problem he... People can change... Unke preferences... Waqt rehte badal sakte he... Isme itna hesitate karne ki. Kaunsi baat he..."
This time his tone revealed sometjing of hurt and jealous anger..

The lighting from the skies making it evident... That the howling winds.... Would uncover many unhealed wounds..... Wrapped under the veils...

" yaa... I completely agree with you sir.... People can change... They have all the right to choose what is better and convenient for them... Like you chose nandini mam......again..there is nothing wrong in it..you see we both were stuck in same situation"
"kabhi kabhi... Jo hame chont dete he unhe bhulana itna mushkil ho jata he.... Ki aage badh ne ki himmat nai hoti... That's what was wrong in my case u see..

Shayad isi liye... Aap ki tarha.... I couldn't choose a convenient way out..."

"i married her because i had no choice...." he howled loudly...." There is no way your situation is same as mine.... Aur rahi baat chot dene ki... To tum kis baat ko lekar naraz ho.... Ke mai ne nandini se shaadi. Kar li... Ya... Tum abhimanyi ke sath aage nahi badh payi.. "

At this she started burning like wild fire...

" haan..
Isi baat se pareshaan hu.... And by the way... Aap to khush he na apni zindagi me... Despite of what you have done...
You can get away with any damn thing... Be it a murder... Or a betrayal.... Aap se koi kuch nai puchta.."

She started turning tables..

" . How come i am the one who betrayed you... Tumhara mission to pura ho gaya tha na.... And tum khush thi
.
Uski baahon me... So why all the bitter ness.... As it is you hate me... "

" leave it... "as he clutched her hands tighter.... And his nails dug.... Her  arms...

" you have a sick mind.... Captain sheekhawat.... Mujhe aap ko koi safai dene ki zaroorat nahi he.. "

" if i am so sick and displeasing to you... To kis baat ka dukh he tumhe... Nafrat karti ho na mujhse... Answer me god dammit... To why does it matter to you.... Ki mai shaadi shuda hun.... Why is it hurting you... "
" its not hurting me... "
She shrugged...
" to fir ye kad vahat kyu... I shoud be the one to be embittered...i was the one who was blamed and hated.... "
" lets stop this... We are going to get nowhere out of this conversation... "

" i said answer me.." his eyes red. Scary...

"stop it.... Please..."
She pushes him back... "leave me alone..."

"no i won't... I won't until i know... Ke tumhare dimaag me aakhir chal kya raha he..
"

"why does it matter to you.... Aap apni.... Zindagi. Me khush he... Isnt that enough..."
She pushes him back... And he gets infuriated...

Twusting her arm back..... He arrests her as she is. About to. Leave...
"sir you are hurting me.."

"no you are hurting me god dammit...

He sighed.. Complaining like a desperate man...
" jawab do naina..why. Do you really hate me. To that extent... .... "

" i don't.... I don't hate you.. "she. Shouts...

" i hate myself..... Ke maine..
Aap jese insaan. Se itna pyaar kiya.... While you have always cared about yourself.... "

He was shocked.. And air couldn't ventilate through his lungs.....
She loved him...

He couldn't gulp down the fact.. It was unlikely.... Wasn't she in abhimanyu 's arms that night... How could it be that she loves him...
And as she let out a sob...
"i fell in love with you....
. I fell in loved with the person who killed my brother... And i hate myself..." she kept sobbing while he looked at him teary eyed....

"and you know what's funnier.... He doesn't give a damn about it..." she pointed out the irony....
And let out a bitter chuckle.... And that was it... He pushed her to the wall and sealed her lips.... Roughly..... Before she could utter some more bullshit....

She tried to resist at first... But as he bit her lower lip... She gasped... And he entered her mouth....

And soon their tongues entangled.... Fighting for dominance....

As he was kissing her wildly upside... He started undoing her top.... And the moment his hands touched her bosom...
She shivered...and came back. To reality...

Pushing him back...
He was crying too...

"i love you too naina..
Tum janti ho... Mene ye ummid bhi chod di thi... Ke kabhi wo din aayega.... Jab tum bhi mujhse ye kahogi..."

"i.have pined for you naina"

She looked in his eyes.... As he cupped her face... Telling her what she didn't expect to hear in her dreams....
She was feeling she would explode... Out of all the emotions she kept biried under herself.... All this time.

His eyes as if an oasis... And she was a dried desert...

They kept staring at each other... Like a thirsty man pining for water looms at a rivulet... Like there is no other thing... No other person.. To look at...

"i really love you..
" he said it again... Unable to trust his own luck...that he is finally able to say it out loud.... He would tell her as many times as he can...

Her eyes soften... As the desire and fire in his dark ones make her shiver... And she is about to cup his face..... To finally make herself aware what's it like to not be suffocated....
To breathe in peace.... To feel alive after all this time....
His phone rings..

Its nandini again...
But he is too lost... In the softness of her skin...... Her scent..... Her eyes....

But guilt takes over her... And she realises...that this life saving drug... No wonder..how badly she needs it... Can't be consumed.... He is married now.... Someone else has a right to claim on him

Noticing that she is withdrawing slowly he pulls her closer.... And starts kissing her... As he can no longer wait....

"you are married... We shouldn't be doing this..."she pushes him back collecting all her will power...

" i don't love her.... You. Are always in my head... Even as i touch her.... Even as she is close to me... I feel your presence.. Naina."

" no..no no..
Please stop..
"she. Is ruffling his hair.. A Invoulantarily..
And moaning.. As she is pinned with all his strength to the wall...
As he descends to rip her clothes... To feel her breasts.....burying his neck inside.... Not listening to her pleadings.... Like under effect of a drug.....

"please stop.
" she moans..
And shouts..
As passion is consuming them.....
Not able to stop. Him

Winds blowing furiously outside... Lightning making evident..... Of the fire created by the longing between two people. Madly in love....

"please let me love you... Please.... I can't live without you.... Please trust me.." he keeps pleading
"

Cadet singh...... Trust me

Do you...." he stops. And sighs... As. She resists with all her might.... Stopping herself from committing this sin...
"
But the surety and confidence in his eyes... As if he is doing nothing wrong... And she accepts defeat... And nods...

And he starts kissing. Her madly......and scratching and groping her.... From anywhere possible

Her clothes ripped... As she tries to take off his singlet...
He wraps her legs around his waist.... Letting her feel. The throbbing hardness.....jerking her on the wall.....

She shouts and moans....

Very soon. They fall on the bed... And he undresses her completely...... As his fingers gripping her breasts sometimes... And sometimes his teeth knocking the fleshy mounds... She is in another land... His teeth... Lips and tongue all over her naked body... While she entwines her hands in his hair..

Letting him do whatever he pleases.....

His fingers starts rubbing her folds as he bites her navel..

Her skin.markwd in a. Deep crimson hue... As he doesn't leave a single chance to show a complete dominance.. And she whimpers. In pain.... And moans in pleasure at the same time...
Its as if... He is venting all his pain and desperation on her skin.

And she is. Pleading him to stop..

While pulling him closer.... And asking him. To love her... Both at same time.

He comes. Up..

And smooches her... Sealing her mouth... And enters her in one long stroke..

That painful throbbing love of his.... She feels complete... As he digs inside her.... And she scratches his back.

Panting hard.....
His shoulders bleeding... Due to her nail marks. As he moves back and forth on her body.... And as the bed is too creaking ...... With his impatient blows.....
His impatient love making... Making her go mad.... She is shouting his name... Again and again
.

And he whispers countless times..
How much he loves her...

This subdued sinful act.... Being carried out beneath the sheets.... Ahy does it feel so heavenly... As if this is the only right thing to do..... This is the only real thing... And every thing else is a lie... Their love is only sacred thing.... Despite of it being so blemished and stained.... And incorrect... Why does that throbbing pain seem to be the only right thing in whole damn world...

***

She lays looking at the ceiling.... While he  laying in silence...... Eyes closed....

Tears filled in her eyes.... And her heart heavy..... Under burden. Of the guilt... Of a sin they have just commited..
.
He pulls her closer... Kissing her forehead..asks her to sleep.. And she closes her eyes to forget about all other things... And feel his warmth.... For a little while... Letting him comfort her..... And love her.....
For no matter how incorrect it is..
. Its soothing....medicinal...
.his warm. Naked skin... Feels like home....

No matter she wouldn't be able to look in the mirror tommorow morning.... Doesn't matter.... She would be called a home wrecker from now on....
For now... No one else exists.. But him

Doesn't matter... She has defied her morality.... To be with him....they love each other to that extent... And there is nothing that  they can do about it.....