Sometimes it's better to lie to oneself and others than to admit things that make us uncomfortable or things we want to hide...things we are not ready to accept.
Sometimes the truth can be so hard to swallow that coming up with a lie looks like a better option.
Why is that?
Because we are not ready physically or emotionally to accept the truth and we are scared of how the truth will effect us and those around us... So we hide...we hide it from others and hide it from ourselves.

Now you guys are wondering why I am writing about these things... Trust me it will make sense once we continue where we left off.

Xiao Zhan's heart is beating really fast. It had been beating really fast since his lips had landed on Yibo's.

Xiao Zhan, who is a very straight man doesn't understand why he had accepted the challenge... why had he kiss YiBo?

'I could have ignored him... I could have pretended to get offended and left... I...I should have left... I should not have kissed him like that... And as if once was not enough...I did it twice...I crossed a line... How must he have felt??? With me attacking him like that...I went there to fix things....Fuck!'

Zhan knows he is not homophobic and Yibo was obviously teasing him. Then why did Zhan who is a very mature and well adjusted man want to prove to the man child that he was not Homophobic!

'Why do I feel uncomfortable every time YiBo calls me Laoshi? Why did I want him to call me Zhan ge? Why did that hickey on his neck bother me? Why is my heart still racing?' Zhan thinks to himself before changing into his black satin pyjamas.

He sits on the bed and tries to calm himself.
'He had definitely been with someone before I arrived. Who could it have been? How irresponsible of them to mark him like that. The girl should have been careful.'
Zhan's mind supplies him with images of how YiBo had looked when he had opened the door.

'Does he work out... He must work out... I could clearly see his abs... BEAUTIFUL... Wait what!!!!?'

Zhan runs to the bathroom and washes his face.
'What am I thinking... What is wrong with me?'
'Why did he moan when I had kissed him???'.... 'He didn't moan you dumbass, he winced because you slammed him against the wall....Fuck!'...'Why didn't he stop me?'....'Because you didn't give him a chance you pervert!'...'Why did I keep kissing him...His lips... His jaw... His neck... SOFT... BEAUTIFUL...fuckfuckfuckfuck!'

Zhan looks at himself in the mirror. His face is flushed his breathing is laboured like he had just run a marathon.
'He is not Lan Zhan! You are not Wei Ying... You are not gay!!!!' Zhan's brain  voices it's thoughts.

He wipes his face and walks out.
He tries to fall asleep but sleep eludes him.
He takes out his phone and looks at the pictures of his latest celebrity crush 'Yang Mi'

'She is the perfect girl. I wish I could take Mark Chau's place in Ten miles of peach blossoms. She truly is a goddess amongst us mortals.' Zhan thinks swiping through the pictures one by one.

After going through all the photos Zhan feels his heart again.
'It's racing... I am afterall a straight man...no straight man can keep a calm heart in front of such magnificent beauty.' Zhan thinks smiling to himself.

You see Zhan has either totally forgotten that there is something called as being bisexual or it's probably uncomfortable for him to think about it. Either way Zhan doesn't want to think about that possibility.

He sets the alarm for 6.00 am and holds a pillow and tries to fall asleep.

He doesn't fall asleep.

He opens his bedside drawer and decides to memorize his script.

He is about to start when his phone beeps.
'Why did manager gege message me now?' He thinks opening the message.

He frowns slightly.

He opens a search engine on his phone and types.
His frown deepens.
He feels uncomfortable.

'Why are people so mean! How can they judge a person without even giving him a chance. I am sure YiBo will prove these haters wrong! ' He thinks and opens his wattpad account.

What do you mean Zhan ge can't have a Wattpad account! Where do you think he read all those WangXian fics in the name of research...oh BTW he has an AO3 account too... Just FYI.

He spends some time reading totally straight relevant things *cough*

Only when his mood improves he logs out and picks up the script.

'It's never too early to do your homework.' Zhan tells himself.

He knows that he doesn't need to start preparing his lines just yet but he wants to be perfect.
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"Zhan ge, It's me. Can you open the door please? "

'Yibo? WTF is he doing here this late in the night?' Zhan looks at his phone. 'It's one am.'

Zhan rubs his eyes and opens the door.
It's indeed YiBo.
He is wearing the same cloths he was wearing at the reading hall earlier.

Zhan pulls the younger man inside and closes the door.

"What are you doing here? How did you come?" Zhan asks touching Yibo's forehead to see if he still has fever.

"My bike." YiBo answers lifting his hand to show the helmet.
Zhan frowns.
"Are you crazy? You still have a slight fever!" Zhan scolds.

"Zhan ge, take care of me." YiBo says smirking then he sways a little.
Zhan puts his hand around the sick man's shoulder and guides him to the couch.

"Why did you come here? You are burning up. You need to see a doctor." Zhan says reaching for his phone.

"No. Zhan ge, I am fine. But you can take care of me if you are so concerned." YiBo winks.

"I am not YiBo Loushi's mother, nor am I his girlfriend." Zhan says folding his hands over his chest.

Yibo pouts.
"Why did you call me Laoshi?"

"Aaa. Sorry. Bo di...."

YiBo pouts harder.

'Awwwww. So cute... Wait what?' Zhan looks away from Yibo's lips.

"Bo di, tell me what can I do for you?" Zhan asks ruffling Yibo's already messy hair.

YiBo smiles.
"Kiss me."

Zhan smiles.
"Ha! Bo di is indeed naughty. I am not falling for your tricks again. And I can't fix your fever by kissing you. That's not how it works." Zhan explains.

YiBo pulls on Zhan's wrist suddenly.
Zhan falls on the couch.
"Ouch." Zhan winces and sits up straight facing the younger man.

Yibo puts his hand on his back pocket and takes out a key. He hands it over to Zhan.
"I think you dropped it at my place."

"Oh. Thanks." Zhan takes the key.

YiBo doesn't say anything else but doesn't move either. He keeps looking at Zhan through his lashes keeping his head down.

"Bo di, is there something you want to say to me?" Zhan puts his hand on Yibo's shoulder.

"Zhan ge, Can I hug you just once?" Yibo asks hesitantly leaning towards Zhan.

You guys are wondering why he made such a request right?
Simple. He wanted to take this opportunity to tell Xiao Zhan what had been happening between them... starting from their first encounter in the restroom. And he was sacred that after hearing him out, Zhan would never want to look at his face again leave alone hug him. So YiBo just wanted to have at least one last contact with his BAE... sorry...I mean Xiao Zhan.

"Mn?"

"Just once." Yibo  says hugging Zhan and burying his face into the older man's neck without waiting for an answer.

Zhan gasps at the cold touch of Yibo's lips on his neck. It sends shivers down his spine.
"Bo di ...I really think you should see a doctor. You are acting weird." Zhan says soothingly returning the embrace.

YiBo looks at Zhan's face, 'I can't just blurt it out! I need to remind him that he has to see me for work at least till the show is completely filmed.'
"Zhan ge, I am really worried. Will I be able to perform?"

You see, what YiBo was talking about was obviously his acting performance, but that is not what Zhan thinks....at least not first.

'I am pretty sure he is good in performing... Wait what!???? That can't be right... Oh.. he is talking about him playing Lan Zhan. He is anxious.'
"I am sure you will do great."

"Zhan ge, there is something I need to tell you. It's a little strange... Amm..." Yibo hesitates.

"You can tell me anything." Zhan reassures.

"Zhan ge..." Yibo let's go of Zhan and looks into his eyes. Then his eyes subconsciously fall on Zhan's lips.

Zhan tilts his head and blinks.

'Fuck!  Why did I look at Zhan ge's lips!!!!'

"What? Is there something on my lips?" Zhan asks.

"Yes." YiBo lies.

Zhan licks his lips, "Is it gone?"

"No. Let me." YiBo leans in a bit and traces Zhan's bottom lip with his thumb while subconsciously biting his own lips.

'Fuck!' Zhan mutters before closing the remaining distance between them and capturing Yibo's bottom lip between his full lips.

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YiBo thinks before throwing his arms around Xiao Zhan and pulling him closer.

Zhan bites on Yibo's lower lip.
"Ahh... " YiBo moans.

PSA Please breath.... It's all Hetro... No need to get your heart racing for such bromantic things.

Zhan let's go and breaks the kiss.
'OMFG!  Why did I do that!!!?'

"OMG... Did I hurt you?" Zhan asks touching Yibo's lips.

"No. Why did you do that?" Yibo asks hesitantly.
"I don't know." Zhan answers.

"That doesn't seem fair."

"Mn?"

"I think I should return the favor." Yibo smirks.

"Mn?"

YiBo pulls himself into Zhan's lap and brings their lips together.

He kisses Xiao Zhan's upper and lower lips repeatedly, just like Zhan had done in the restroom.

He gives Zhan enough time to pull away or stop him.
Zhan does none.
He let's Yibo kiss him.

'What the hell is happening? It feels so good. Why does it feel good?' Zhan thinks wrapping his arms around Yibo's waist, pulling them closer.
YiBo moves his hips creating friction in all the right places.

"Ahhh... Fuck!" Zhan moans.
'When did I get hard!???' Zhan thinks.

"Zhan ge... has anyone ever told you that you look amazing in black."
YiBo whispers in Zhan's ears and starts kissing the nape of Xiao Zhan's neck.

"This is wrong...Ah... " Zhan moans as pain and pleasure courses through his body in waves when Yibo sinks his teeth into the nape of Zhan's neck.

"Isssss... Damn it !" Zhan winces when Yibo sucks the same spot.

YiBo pulls himself away from Zhan's neck only to stare at the older man's eyes, "Please... just...please...let me..." YiBo pants resting his hands on Zhan's shoulder. Looking desperately at the older man.
Zhan's eyes fall on Yibo's lips once more.
"Bo di.... " Zhan whispers before tracing Yibo's lips with his fingers.

"Zhan ge..." Yibo says breathlessly before pulling Zhan closer looking into Zhan's beautiful black orbs.

Zhan's eyes don't leave Yibo's lips.
"What do you want?" Zhan asks before placing a kiss just at the corner Yibo's lips.

"Zhan ge... I don't know...can we just stay like this for a while?" YiBo asks hugging Xiao Zhan burying his face in Zhan's neck.

"Sorry, I shouldn't have done that. You have a fever." Zhan says stroking Yibo's back.

Yibo let's go.

"Zhan ge... what are we doing?"

"I don't know....But this is wrong... We have to work together. We can't let ourselves get distracted." Zhan touches Yibo's neck.

"Zhan ge, you do realize position we are in right now?"

Zhan looks at the way YiBo is in his lap and they are half embracing each other.

I am pretty sure half embrace is a word... two words but you get my drift right.

Zhan blushes.
YiBo gets off Zhan's lap.

"Zhan ge, are you....do you like me?"

"Mn."

"Then what are we now?"

"I don't know. I have never felt this way towards a man before..." Zhan looks at Yibo questioningly.

"I like you Zhan ge. I am bi... I think I always knew....ammm, but I just confirmed it recently." Yibo looks away and smiles.

"Bo di... we can't let anyone know...also... I am not sure...." Zhan tries to express his thoughts which are a mess.

Yibo's smile disappears.
"Zhan ge, I understand. You are not sure what you feel for me... I think I should leave now. I will see you tomorrow at the dorm.... Don't worry I won't say anything to anyone. I will erase what we did now from my mind... I am an actor afterall. Let's just say we were acting our parts.. Zhan ge, will that put you at ease?"

Zhan doesn't answer. He just sits there with a resigned look on his face.

YiBo gets up and smiles before he turns to leave.
Yibo doesn't get far.
He has taken only a couple of steps when Zhan back hugs him.

"Don't go... " Zhan whispers in Yibo's ears.
Yibo turns in Zhan's arms.
"What do you want Zhan ge?"

"Let me take care of you." Zhan places a kiss on Yibo's cheek.

"Zhan ge... How are you planning on doing that? You can't fix my fever."

"I make awesome chicken soup." Zhan says before capturing Yibo's lips once more.
Yibo breaks the kiss before it gets intense.

"See you soon Zhan ge. From tomorrow I will be Lan Zhan and you will be Wei Ying..Till you sort out your feelings for me I will not initiate anything." With that YiBo walks out the door.

Zhan too goes to bed and falls into deep sleep.

🎶🎶🎵Bang Bang Bang....🎵🎶🎶

Zhan's Alarm goes off and he sits up with a jerk.
He is in his bed. His bed is more messed up than usual.
"WTF!!!!" He mutters under his breath looking between his legs.

{Note :- Hope you guys enjoyed this very Hetro totally straight update.
I just wanted to spread some YiZhan joy.
In case you are wondering was this a dream or not, I think I have made it pretty obvious.
Please let me know how you liked it.

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I know I was going to update later but I did it today itself because I think I made my readers sad in The lonely bridge update yesterday (some even unfollowed me 😔)
I would like you guys to keep supporting that story, trust me you will be glad that you did.
Also I am aware that Dusk and Dawn is confusing but trust me everything will become clear as the story progresses.

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