Did you ever loose all trust and positive thoughts you once had for a person, because of how many times they've let you down!

I have!

Again..... and again..... and again.....!

When I was younger, I used to think that that person doesn't care about me!
Now, I wanted to give them a chance because I thought, maybe they do care after all!

But they blew it!

Again.....!

I needed their help, but most of all I wanted to give them a chance to at least fix a small piece of our relationship.

But they reacted as usual.......

Saying I wouldn't want them in my life anyways,
constantly making accusations and talking bad about my mother,
and acting like the victim in all this!

This happens every time we talk! So of course I am wary of speaking to them in any way!

Maybe if they would simply just leave my mother alone, take responsibility for his actions and actually listen to what I'm trying to tell him!!

I just remembered why I always used to think he doesn't care about me!

Not just because there was a long time where he only reached out to me when he wanted to talk to my sister.

But because I feel like the only reason he ever wants to talk to us is because he thinks he can make my mother look bad in front of me and my sister!

Because all he wants is to try make her life miserable, and he's too dumb to realize it won't work!

Him letting me down once again just prooved me right.......!

But I was wrong about one thing.....

I thought that I didn't care if he cares about me!
But now......... turns out I do care!

I am so glad that my mom and I seem to have made a lot of progress in our relationship!

Because..... I guess I was right.......
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....My father really doesn't care about me........!