Buzz..buzz
I smiled, kept my book aside and checked my phone.

I smiled, it was my dad message.
"Lunch time...Dad's special...come fast."
Dad and his new cooking craze. I thought and chuckled.

I started gathering my things and was going to get up...just then wind started blowing slightly and birds chirping sound came and suddenly whole surrounding become so calming, which made me sit at my place again.

I just listened to that calming sound and realised, I would never have the chance to listen, saw or feel this beautiful feeling, if my parents weren't there for me...if they didn't stopped me for doing that stupid thing.I am really glad they did or else, I would never know...what talent I have...how much brave I am and how much my parents love me...how many persons are their in my life who loves me.

I still remember that day, which could be still counted as the most embarrassing...most disappointing day of my life,
the day I was going to end my life.

Buzz..Buzz..Buzz...

I closed my ears tightly with my hands.
"Please stop that noise...please stop it."

I said, my voice was hoarse because of continuous crying.

"Everyone's right. I'm so pathetic, I can't even have that courage to switch off my phone. I'm soo pathetic...loser. They all are right, I should die...yes,if I would die...everyone will be happy...yes...they are right, I should kill myself."

I wiped my tears and started searching here and there anything... anything which would help me to kill myself.

After messing up my room, I found a scarf.

Holding that scarf, I looked at the  ceiling fan of my room.
And thought.
"It's better...I should die."

I took the table, placed it under the fan and stand upon it. I tied the scarf around my neck and then around the fan.

For a moment, I regretted my decision and was going to back out.

But again, I heard that buzzing sound and I flinched.

I again cried and thought.
"Arianna, you are pathetic...you are even scared of a notification sound...loser, you should die."

I was just going to push that table aside and was going to hang myself, was going to end this suffering and pain at once.

Just then, my dad entered. He was checking his mobile and was saying,
"Arianna..can you help-"

His words got stucked and he was shocked seeing me in that state...where I was just going to hang myself...we both were so shocked that we didn't uttered even a word. We were just looking at each other.

My dad has tears in his eyes,but he didn't said anything.

"When you were small, you used to hold my hand and would say,
Daddy, you are a hero...you can solve any problem in my life.
So...so, trust this old man again sweetie and hold his hand, and tell you every problem...every suffering, your dad will handle everything...your hero's superpower still works... Trust me."

He looked at me expectantly and I silently came down taking his hand.
I just stand before him awkwardly. I was filled with embarrassment and shame. I just kept my eyes closed, I didn't have the courage to face him.

Dad wiped my tears and asked,
"Wanna have some pizza?"

I chuckled and opened my eyes, hugged my dad and started crying. I cried soo much but he didn't stopped me, he just rubbed my back and said,
"It's okay, let it be out...your dad is here. Don't worry, I will handle everything...it will be fine..it's
okay."

My dad cried with me too, he was continuously saying,
"It's okay... it's fine... I am sorry you have to go through this alone...you should have come to me, baby... it's okay..let it be out..let all your pain be out."

After seems like hours,I felt better but still, I didn't told everything to my dad neither did he asked.

When I stopped crying,he gave me a glass of water and said,

"Don't think that, I let you cry this time...so,i t will happen again...I don't want any more tears in my princess eyes from now onwards...no crying, understand.”
I smiled and slightly nodded.

Suddenly, I heard that buzzing sound again and I flinched and clutched my dad's hand, tears started forming in my eyes.

Dad must have noticed everything and just blinked his eyes as saying,
"It's okay. I m here, don't worry."
He took the phone, switched it off and kept it in his pocket.

He came towards me and smiled.
"Come on, let's clean you room or your mom will eat us alive."
I chuckled and nodded.

We started cleaning my room and placed everything in its place.
After cleaning my room, my dad told me to rest and was going out but stopped at the door and said.

"Like, we have clean this room together...let's clean the mess in your life too and get it sorted out together. Don't think, you are alone honey...your mom and dad are with you, now and ever. Just trust us.
Don't think, I will let this go...that stupid stunt of yours."
I kept my head down in shame.

Dad just came towards me and hugged me tightly and said,

"Don't ever leave us...if at any moment you think that dying is the only solution left...just think, that your parents are alive because you are alive...just live for us. Don't ever forget that,okay. We love you very much and I can't even imagine my day...hell, any moment of my life without you and your mom. I love you very much sweetie."

I buried my face in his chest and again started crying.
I was continuously saying.
"Sorry..sorry..sorry dad."

He held my face and said,

"No need to say sorry, Honey. Just promise, after we will sort your problem out...in future,any problem...I repeat any problem...you face...you will first tell your dad. Come on, I was your super hero...wait I am still your super hero...hey...did you fired me from that position? Don't even dare..huh...only I can be a hero in my princess life."

I laughed and said,
"No, you were...you are, and you will always be the hero of my life, dad. I love you soo much, thankyou dad.
And I promise, I will not repeat this stupidity again...I promise."

He smiled,wiped my tears and said.

"Don't think,these cheesy lines will melt my heart, you will get punish because of your stunt.
And your punishment is
2...no...3 weeks, you will be incharge of laundry and dishes for 3 weeks..yes.. that's final."

I smiled and said,
"Dad...mom gave you this punishment and you are passing it on...right."
He stuttered and said,
"Wha..what...no...why will...you...your mom will punish me? This is my...I mean your punishment...come on, don't change the topic."

I shooked my head, suddenly we hear mom's voice.
"Honey,I am back and what's this you didn't do the dishes.I told you but you...you never listen.
This dad-daughter duo are the only reason my hair are turning white faster these days."

I looked at my Dad and raised my eyebrows.
"So, she did punished you."

He just raised his hand in surrender and said.
"Fine..she did."

And then he said in a loud voice.
"Just a minute, honey. We are coming."
He looked towards me.
"Fine, fine...she did punished me. Come on,help this old man or your mom will make it 5 weeks."

I laughed and said.
"Let's go old man."
My dad laughed and said,
" Hey,be careful...what you say,young lady...this old man is a retired super hero but his superpower still works."

I laughed, cleared my throat and said.
"Sorry, Mr.hero. Can we leave now or there might be chance for a family war."

We started going out. Suddenly, I held dad's hand tightly and got worried.
Dad must have sensed it and said,
"It's fine...let's go."
I asked him,
"Are you going to tell mom about...about...my stupid stunt."

He asked,
" Do you want me to tell her?"

I just looked at him and thought.
"Do I?"
"I don't know,dad...mom..mom is very sensitive...you know it very well ,right...she will get hurt..she will cry and I don't want that..how will she react?"
I said.

Dad assured me.
"It's okay, sweetie. It's okay to tell your mom...every mom loves her child and it's common for every mom to react like that way...a mom,who will got to know that her child was suffering from so much pain and she didn't even know... it's common for her to cry, don't worry."

I nodded sadly.

Dad just hold my hands and continued.
"Don't worry,I will pass on the tissue when your mom cries."

I again laughed and said.
"Promise,you will be there...you know...to pass the tissues."

He smiled and looked into my eyes and said.
"I will always be there, sweetie. Always remember, whatever situation you face in life...just look behind yourself, your parents will be always standing behind you for your support...we are always there for you.'

He kissed my forehead and said.
"Now, stop being emotional...crying doesn't go with my super hero image and let's go."
We laughed together and started walking out of my room.

That was the first time in last year, I smiled genuinely, I laughed freely...I felt secured..I felt loved..I felt free...I felt awesome. I felt great and that was the best feeling... feeling that, now I don't have to be worry about anything.
Like I was prepared to face any situation.

Suddenly ,a thought came in my find.
This is what we called.
"FAMILY SUPPORT"

My phone again buzzed "Personal Superhero " name was flashing on it.
I smiled and picked the call
"Arianna...where are you? Your mom is eating my head."

"Just coming,dad and why mom is mad on you?" I asked.

"Because I am not letting her touch the food." He said.
"Why dad?"
I again asked.

"Come on ,I cooked it for the first time. I want my princess to taste it first, your mom is just being jealous."
He answered.
At the back, my mom shouts.
"Remember, I was the first women in your life...your daughter came after me..huh..jealous, my foot."

"Oh dear, I have so many women in my life before you."
Dad said teasing mom.
I laughed wholeheartedly.
"Dad."
I said.

Just then, I heard my mom voice.
"I heard it, dear.Be ready to die."

"Sorry...honey, I was just joking...you know...I love you,come on..stop throwing cushions...sorry.
Hey, that's a glass vase...you want your husband to die.. cushions were better."

I was listening their cute fighting and was smiling.
Dad must have realised that, I was still on the line.
"Hurry up...this super hero need some help...I repeat...need help."

I laughed and said.
"Help is on the way...Mr.Retired Super Hero."
Before he could argue on this name again.

I ended the call and laughed.
And sighed happily.

And, started reading my book..yes...dad helped me finding my new and hidden talent...WRITING.
It is the first book I've written...which have been liked by everyone so far.

I read the last page of my book.

"We all want a superhero in our life but we forget sometimes...we already have one in our life... we just need to recognise them, as you know...nowadays superhero doesn't wear there typical superhero costumes but it's not difficult to identify them...just look around, may be..he or she might be your friend, parents, your boyfriend/girlfriend, a famous personality...who motivates you or maybe, he/she can be a stranger...maybe you have met that hero once in your life but failed to recognise him.
Whoever he or she is...
Just trust that Superhero once with all your problems...your sufferings and pains...with your inner insecurities."

"I'm not saying that he/she will solve your problem...you, yourself have to fight but sharing it with them will lessen your pain..
maybe they will show you the right way...they will guide you the right path...they will support you in  every way...they will give you the strength, you needed the most to face every difficult situation.
They will remind you that, you are not alone...you don't have to go through this alone...just,
"TRUST YOUR HERO"

I have founded mine superhero who will always be their for me...my dad, hope you will find yours too."

With this line,I ended the last page of my book.
I closed it and smiled looking at the title.

"Let's find our personal Superhero."

And... it's okay if you can't find one(personal superhero)..maybe you.. yourself are the superhero of your life.

Remember... SUICIDE was, is and will never be an option... it's just a way to escape from your problems,..trust yourself and that one person,who was always there for you and face your life problems... don't be a coward and opt for ending your life.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
Face that temporary problem... it's not gonna last forever.

Thanks for reading...stay safe
..stay happy.

By the way...
Who's your superhero???