Chapter 6

~Hunter~

       Something was wrong with me. Seriously wrong. There had been so many times were my heart would begin to beat rapidly for no reason whatsoever, and it wouldn't stop at all. It would just keep going and going.

       Maybe it had something to do with my disease.

       Hopefully. I mean, I wouldn't want it to be because that would mean that something could have been wrong with me but at least if it was because of my disease, I would know what the cause was and I could treat it.

       It took me a long time to look up the symptoms on my phone because I was struggling to read, so really I should have called my doctor to save time. And who could trust symptoms on the internet? Someone could have a simple cold but according to the internet, they were actually dying.

       My doctor did give me a list of symptoms for Wilson's disease, but I pretty much lost that list and I was too lazy to try and find it. I'd probably end up remembering them anyway if I look at them online.

       While I was looking at the symptoms, Dad walked into the kitchen. "Hey, Dad," I said. "Does... I think this says fatigue... Does fatigue make someone's heart beat a lot faster?"

       "How would I know?" Dad asked. "I'm not a doctor."

       I sighed. "Great, more looking up for me to do."

      "Here, I'll do it," Dad said, taking his cell phone out of his pocket to look it up. "Why exactly are you wondering about this?"

       "Because recently, my heart has been beating fast for no reason," I said. "Like really fast."

       "And what does fatigue have to do with it?" Dad asked. "Have you been feeling fatigue?"

       I shrugged. "I don't know, to be honest. Maybe? I have been feeling really stressed recently because of the record label forcing me to record a song I can't stand, and my disease does increase fatigue."

       "And fatigue does increase your heart beat," Dad confirmed, looking at his phone. "Do you want me to schedule a doctor's appointment for you? Just to be safe?"

       "Yeah, I think that would be a good idea," I said. "I really hope everything is okay, though."

       "I think it will be," Dad assured. "You've been doing well on your diet, so I don't see why there would be any complications."

       "Too bad diseases aren't as simple as being on a diet and everything will be okay," I said, then I sighed. "Sorry. I've just been a bit moody lately."

       "Is everything okay?" Dad asked.

       "Kind of," I said. "I've been worrying about Cannon a whole lot. Cameron and Jess still haven't told him about the divorce and to make things worse... He got drunk a few nights ago."

       "Cannon did?" 

       "Yeah. He found some alcohol in my room I completely forgot about. I did dump them down the sink afterwards, but... I know what it's like to turn to alcohol when things go wrong. You know what it's like too and I... I really don't want Cannon to go down that same path."

       "I don't think he will," Dad said. "He's smart. He won't risk everything to turn to alcohol."

       "So I'm stupid for doing so?" I asked.

       "What? No, that's not what I meant," Dad said. "I mean that he knows of other ways he could try to feel better. Like staying here because he knows we'll always be here for him. Talking to you when things get really rough."

       "But things did get really rough and he turned to alcohol, not me," I said. "I don't want it to happen again."

       "Why are you gossiping about me?" Cannon suddenly said, so I looked over to see him standing in the archway of the kitchen. "I know you're secretly in love with me but that doesn't mean you have to talk to me all the time."

       "Ha ha," I said with an eye roll and it wasn't long after that my heart starting beating rapidly again.

       It was official.

       I was probably dying.

       I probably wasn't but until I went to the doctor's, I was.

       "You aren't mad I told my dad abut you drinking, right?" I asked.

       "Of course not," Cannon said. "He's best friends with my parents so he knows how stressful this is for me right now. I do promise that it won't happen ever again. If something goes wrong, I'll turn straight to you. Well, actually I'll turn gay for you."

       "Are you ever going to stop hitting on me?" I asked, even though I knew he was only joking.

       "Why would I do that?" Cannon asked. "You're the love of my life, baby. I need to show you how important you are to me. You can at least be nice and hit on me back."

       I snorted. "Yeah, not happening."

       "All I heard was 'yeah'."

       "Of course that's all you heard. Anyway, to change the subject because you're annoying me, do you think you could help me out with one of the songs I've been working on? I really want to show Kevin that it's the type of sound and lyrics I want to go for, but I need a second opinion before I do it."

       "Yeah, definitely," Cannon said. "I really want you to record another song because honestly, the one that was written for you sucks."

       "Is it really that bad?" Dad asked.

       "It's not that it's bad," I said. "I'm sure it would work with somebody else but it just doesn't work for me at all. I'm not feeling the song at all and I need to sing something I can connect with, even if it's just for a verse or the chorus. But there's nothing with that song that I connect with."

       "Well, if you need a third opinion with the song you want to show Kevin, I'll gladly take a listen," Dad said. "I'm proud of you for actually wanting to connect with the music and not sing just because. Of course, there's nothing wrong with singing a song just because but if the singer can connect with the song, chances are a lot of other people will."

       "And that's exactly what I'm going for," I said. "Hopefully."

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lol i love hunter being oblivious.

AND YAY i was actually able to update today. i've been out almost all day and didn't get back until 7 and i'm also really sick and thought i was going to sleep but i felt a bit better to update. i didn't want to go a third day without updating because idk if i will tomorrow and i definitely won't sunday because i'll be travelling back home

ANYWAY here's a gif of hunter realizing he's in love with cannon: (feat. alistair)

mood