So, this is in order of celebration for Mai's success at ACI!!! So proud of her ❤

And for snowinsummer8 <3
It's a little short.
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(Nathan's pov)

"Nate! It's time for dinner!"
My mum's voice rings through the house but I can't bring myself to be apart from my laptop.

No, I'm not addicted to my laptop.
I'm addicted to her.

Her short program was so gorgeous the day before. I'm miffed she only scored 66.18 for a breathtaking performance like that. I don't know how many times I rewatched that program later, but all I remember is closing my eyes and seeing her skate in my mind.

And now, she's skating next.
I can't miss her.

"CAN YOU WAIT 5 MINUTES?" I yell down the stairs.

"WHY?" She yells back.

"..." Not knowing what to say, I lie. I can't let her know I've got a decapitating crush on a foreign skater I've only met a couple times before. "IT'S YUZURU! HE'S SKATING NOW. I GOTTA WATCH MY COMPETITION".

Wrong thing to say, she loves Yuzuru. Well, me more obviously, but she thinks Yuzuru is great too.

"OH WAIT FOR ME! I WANT TO WATCH HIM TOO!"

"UHM, NEVERMIND, IT'S NOT HIS TURN YET. I GOT THE TIME WRONG. I FORGOT THEY'RE AN HOUR BEHIND US. BUT I HAVE TO WATCH THIS OTHER GUY FIRST."

"GEEZ, NATE!" I can't feel my mum's sigh at me even though I can't hear it.

Phew. What a save. I'm a terrible liar.
If she asks me how he did an hour later, what am I going to say....

These thoughts fade to the back of my mind instantly the moment she appears on my laptop screen.

Smiling, in that dress, she skates to the center like a true princess.

If only I was the prince for her...

The music starts and she moves gracefully with it.

For the next 5 minutes, my heart pounds loudly in my chest.

132!! An OUTRAGE! THAT IS SO UNDERSCORED!! I know she wasn't perfect, but honestly, that was a solid skate.

Unhappy at the judges decision, turn away from my laptop and sigh at the wall, pouting.

I wonder if she's okay with that, I hope she's not sad or anything. She should know she did really well already.

Should I text her and say something?

I look back at my screen to see her walking away from the kiss and cry and all of a sudden my heart drops.

Why does she look kinda down?
Is it just me?
Is my affection for her blinding me?

I'm ready to pick up my phone and text her, but I figured she wouldn't see it now anyways.

I'll wait til after the ceremony.

Kaetlyn's going now and I don't even have the heart to watch, so I shut down my laptop and go for dinner.

...

It seems she got second, losing only to Kaetlyn, obviously.
I'm so proud of her and happy for her, but I don't know why? There's a heavy feeling in my heart.

When I come back, I get on Twitter and see all the pictures of her and my heart feels warm.

A smile creeps on my face when I see her smiling on the podium with the other two medalists.

Man, she's so beautiful and sweet.

There's no one like her.

As I'm scrolling through my feed on twitter, waiting for the men's competition to start, because I actually do need to watch Yuzuru and Javier, my competitions, a picture catches my attention.

Oh it's Mai alright. With Elizabet, the bronze medalist.

They're smiling and taking a selfie with the snapchat filter.

I don't know why, this feeling of...want? jealousy?

I'm happy for them for sure, well mostly her, but it's like...i want to be there. With her.

I want to be taking a picture with her, I want to be close to her, I want to be beside her, I want to talk to her and tell her lame jokes she probably doesn't even understand but laughs at it anyways, I want to hear her laughter, the most pleasant sound to my ears.

She's actually closer to me now than she would usually be.

Canada's a lot closer than Japan. So why does it feel like she's so far away? So out of reach? So distant?

Shaking my head, I try to clear my thoughts and not get distracted because Misha has just finished and it's Yuzuru's turn now, but the her in my phone screen looking at me, seems so unreachable.

This jealousy to be right next to her, to be in Elizabet's place, is undeniable.

If only she felt the same as me...

Maybe one day, she will.

I'll try to make her.

Not that she would want me. She's a princess and I'm just the stable boy.

But maybe one day I'll become the knight, and then she'll notice me.

But one thing's for sure, I'm not giving up on her.

She's too good for me I know, but that's why I can't let her go.

And what if the one true love's the only one that you get?

...

Yes I hears One Love in the radio recently 😂

Also, #namai best ship ever tho.

Also, I may not update 24/7 today but I'll try tomorrow or Wednesday. Sorry