I had speech therapy when growing up, and ever since then I've had trouble saying long words like: antidisestablishmentarianism.
(And spelling them!)
Reading out loud is a NIGHTMARE for me, because I often trip up on words and it's really annoying.

Xiusma, is a word that I have trouble saying.
I change how I say his name, I've said it like: x-ma or, is-us-ma Etc.

His full name on the internet is xiusmavoid.

Something I do often is talk out loud, or thinking out loud.
And..
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I PRONOUNCED HIS NAME AS IS-ZUZ-MA BOI.

WHERE- WHAT- HUH?

I HAVE BEEN CONFUSED FOR 30 MINUTES!
30 MINUTES

WHY DID I SAY IT LIKE THAT?
WHY DID I SAY BOI?
WHERE DID BOI COME FROM?
I'M SORRY WHAT?
WHAT HAPPENED?
WHY?
HUH?

*confused noise*

I have been questioning my life and gender today, I DONT NEED ANOTHER THING TO QUESTION ABOUT!

I just want to have a normal day, where I don't have depressed thoughts, or think about doing it again (which I WILL keep private, please do NOT ask about it.). 🥲😭

I have been sitting on the floor, thinking about my life choices and where these scars came from.
And wondering why I said his name like that.
What the heck is happening to me right now? :D

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I'm gonna go watch YouTube now (probably Xiuma because I needed to search his name to remember how to spell it), goodbye.

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I SWEAR, I'M NOT TRYING TO BE RUDE TO XIUMA.

This is just a problem for me, I have trouble saying a lot of people's names, and words. I just thought I wound just post something that really confused the HECK outta me, and question about my life.

Congratulations X, your the reason why I'm thinking about getting therapy.

(I'm probably not going to get therapy anytime soon.)

[I should get therapy tho-]

|or talk to someone about it..|

/NAHHH my problems are way smaller than others/

\but also I hurt-\

-I SWEAR TO SJDBJSBFNDGN AHHHHH-

*just me casually question about my sanity*

Okay, but for real, I should probably end this.

GOOD BYE! STAY SAFE!

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ *much Platonic love*