It just hasn't been a good week for me. It really hasn't. Hopefully I can complain a bit here and feel better and not have people judge me over complaining too much.

I feel like I care too much for people. However it is too bad that society is so harsh on people but whatever.

I just feel like I'm still doing something wrong. Like I'm being annoying to people. I just feel like I'm not really doing something right and it's kinda driving me crazy.

Of course, I do care too much on impressing people and I care about everything people say about me and stuff but I'm sorry.. It's just who I am.

I really just want to point that out.

It's annoying, really, that I act this way and I'm so goddamn sensitive about whatever people do to me or say about me but some days I care, some days I don't. These would be one of those days where I care too much.

Honestly, I just want to take a break but running away from the negativity won't help and it'll just be waiting for me. So I'll just have to face it head-up and work on being me and being happy about it.

I don't know, sorry I wasted your time on this. I just... kinda needed to get this out.

Also, I have yet another doctor's appointment on Monday to see if I need a forth surgery. Plus my mom is not doing so hot and it's affecting her and I'm worried about her dearly.

I may take a break to spend some time with her, though, but she.. Never mind. Too much information.

It's just a little rough for me right now, and I try not to voice my problems/depression all over my message board or in my book all of the time but sometimes it overwhelms me and I can't help it.

Sorry, guys.

But I'll get better for you guys though. Promise.

-Étaín