My eyes narrowed and started scanning the book shelf that I organized two days back . My fingers tracing the books in a flow and stopped at the one I was looking for .

Journal

My hands shivered as i held it . Was this a good time to recall the memories?

Memories

I turned a page as I layed myself on the bed .

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KEEP ME ALIVE NOW , I WILL KEEP YOU ALIVE IN FUTURE
- YN's Buddy , Diary

18 Feb 1998

Baby , I know one day you will be out from my womb . I want to give this record of your prebirth to you when you will become a tiny smart baby girl .

Your Mama is very happy to carry you inside her . And yes , I saw your picture today , you are really pretty .

24 Feb 1998

You naughty girl , you kicked inside me for the first time today but Mama is really happy for you . I want to hold in my arms , little baby .

1 March 1998

Baby , me and your dad bought you clothes and toys . Once you're out in this world we will treat you as a princess .

9 March 1998

You're growing day by day , hehe ;)
I wonder when we will get to meet .

20 March 1998

We decided a cute name for you , princess .
It's a secret yet , come soon and we will tell you .

19 April 1998

Twinkle Twinkle little star
How I tell you what you are
Prettiest amongst all the girls
You are fairy of my world

A tear rolled down my cheek . I gulped . It's me who is trying to get hurt , I can stop right now but i won't .

12 May 1998

Baby ,you're hurting Mama , naughty stop playing inside .

13 June 1998

Just few days more and I will hold you in my arms , tiny :))
Did I told you we saw you today .

Here is your pic .
You're pretty!! aren't you ?

1 September 1998

When will you come baby , I miss you already . Yet you are inside me , I am still missing . Haha , don't be emo like Mama .

13 October 1998

Your movements giving me goosebumps YN , oops ....hehe ....Mama told you your name .

24 December 1998

It's been a month since you stepped out from Mama's tummy .

And 24 November 1998 , was the only date when you cried and I was smiling and happy . A.k.a. your birthdate.

And you are soo cute . Your dad adore you so much , but I adore you more than him . Let's see whom you will adore .

I know I know , it's gonna be me . *smirks*

9 July 1999

What did you mean today when you spoked for the first time , "keeeee" what does it mean , atleast you would have said "maaa"

19 July 1999

No , you ditched Mama naughty girl , you spoked "appa" , you better say "eomma" next time .

Plsss

29 July 1999

You are sitting right infront of me , your eyes are too big and I can see the whole universe in them .

Baby , I love you ...

19 August 1999

Yayy , finally , you said "eomma" say that again babygirl .

7 September 1999

Yayyy , you stood on your feet for the first time ,little baby .

18 September 1999

Omo , you almost chewed you teddy bear today , bad habit YN .

2 October 1999

"Chocolate" who told you this word , dad ??

10 October 1999

Look how fluffy lips you have .

23 November 1999

We will celebrate your one year birthday, princess .

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24 November 2000

Aww , you're growing very fast . 2 years already.

25 November 2000

Awww, baby looks so cute while sleeping. Look

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2 April 2001

YN , you will have to go to school today , baby don't miss Mama . You are looking like a princess, this cute kindergarten uniform look prettier on you . So cute .

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20 April 2001

You made a friend , you called him Tae :)) . He's really cute boy .

9 May 2001

Awww , Know how cutely you kissed on Tae's cheek while coming back home .

Taenee hehe or yhyung, which shipname did you liked?? Hahaha

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10 September 2001

Mama will give you a gift . You said you want a brother because Tae cannot live with us .

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7 March 2002

Your brother is naughty like you , he is kicking on the same spot . Duh!

1 April 2002

YN , you are hilarious, where did u get this humor from

"Mama do you love babie?" You asked
"Yes"
"More than me?" you made a puppy face
"Equal equal"
"Then why did you ate babie?"
"What?"
"Isn't he inside your stomach because you ate him?" you really sobbed YN.

8 April 2002

Sorry , babie , God took your babie and he Don't want Mama to give you babies :((

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30 May 2002

Babie , Mama is bored ,dad has gone on Bussiness trip and you are in school . I miss both of you .

So I decided to paste some pics of you and your dad here . I don't have anything else to do haha .

And the caption is "Like father ,like daughter"

🖇 * all pics in gif that is in the header*

Dad is hott , isn't he? Hehe well Mama is hottest then .

Mama will not lose from your dad so , bonus taa-da

Mama love you both sooo much . You both are my everything . Babie , I really miss you . I wish tomorrow is your holiday . So you can stay with me whole day .

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Mama is bored part 2

So I will just print some of your pictures I have clicked and will paste here : )

So smol

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04 December 2003

Mama will gift you this diary and printer on your 7th birthday, take care of it .

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23 November 2005

YN , this is my last note here , never feel burdensome if something is eating you up don't keep it to yourself , tell me . You have grown up. If you can't tell me then tell your diary , okay .

Remember what Mama said :)
Mama is always here for you ,
Mama loves you more than anyone else loves you ( more than your dad , Tae and Yoonji okay ) but it's a secret hehe

Love yourself
Muahhh
;*

24 November 2005

I turned 7 today , I didn't knew Mom was preparing this for me . I always wondered what's mom doing with that notebook, I was really curious .

I love you mom and dad , really .

I have many things to write but i don't know from where should I start .

First of all , I m really crying at the words Mom had written . I wish I can love you more than anyone else in the whole world . You are the best.

The birthday went good . Tae bought a doll for me , like really a doll , can't he just bring chocolates. Anyways , the doll is really pretty omo , she sings and dances too .
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And here lemme utilize the printer that Mom gifted to me .

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And I was about to publish this chapter few days back but as you all know how media is playing role in this chapter so it took me such a long time bc of wattpad problems.

Well , one more thing , actually this chapter was supposed to be a long ass chapter but I divided it in two because the limit of adding picture in wattpad is only 20 per chapter , since there are more pictures waiting for you all soooooo. Okay I will stop .

Goodnight
12 at night in my country 😂😂 , I have classes also so i have to depict title of this book in my real life rn .

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